LETTER TO DAVID GODMAN, TEACHER OF HINDU ADVAITA. REPRESENTATIVE OF THE GREAT RAMANA MAHARSHI.

Dear David,

                    

                     I’ve been studying your teachings on the voice of Ramana Maharshi because he was my ‘last guru.’

           Here is a stumbling block:  translations, terms, Hindu frames of reference vs Western concepts.  These are so confusing & often misleading that even the most sincere of persons, seeking Union with God, would get lost, confused along the way & fail to meet their goal.  Even I couldn’t follow it completely - & they were beginners, what chance would they have?

          Terms:  the mind.  To lose the mind.  No, you cannot lose your mind, you would be in a psyche ward locked up.

          It needs to be explained – the difference between the conscious & unconscious mind.

          Does Ramana mean let the conscious mind go – open up the unconscious?  That’s what happens in hypnosis – you put the conscious to sleep, you access the unconscious & there you work with the mind like a surgeon, fixing the negatives, affirming the positives.

          The conscious mind is but a small snippet of our entire mind – it is not dangerous ‘to lose,’ but even this has to be temporary because one needs the conscious mind to function in mundane things such as (1) going to work (2) keeping house & body clean (3) relating to others (4) paying bills (5) driving the car (6) all the minutiae of the world.  Do you agree?

          Now when a person lulls to sleep their conscious mind in prayer or meditation, this is not 24 hours – it’s for a while.  {Indeed there are times in the lives of saints – of all denominations – who went to the wilderness or stayed in their room 2-3 years while they delved the interior state, but then they came out of it, having achieved what had to be done, plummeting the depths of their soul, they had their experiences & were able to return to ‘normalcy.’}

          During these initial or formative years indeed the conscious is ‘destroyed’ to some degree, not for all time.

          However, to just say THE MIND MUST BE DESTROYED is one of the most misleading terms I’ve ever heard.  If your entire mind is destroyed what is in it?  Every memory from the day you were born – your schooling, the books you read, your family,

 all you ever experienced.  It’s all in the UNCONSCIOUS & if this is gone you would have AMNESIA, YOU WOULD NOT KNOW WHO YOU ARE, YOUR NAME OR ANYTHING, WHERE YOU LIVE, NOTHING.  Bad term.

          In the Christian-Western tradition, as explained by our saints – the best teacher of which was Evelyn Underhill {not a mystic, an intellect who understood them}– we have certain Flags, Lamp-posts, Light-houses, Symbols, Signposts which tell us WHERE WE ARE in the spiritual life.  For instance,

·      When does the born-again experience occur?  How does one know? 

·      When does the UNITIVE life begin?  (Ramakrishna described it as when one reaches the Heart Chakra.  How does one know they have reached it?) 

·      When does one ascend into sainthood?  This would best be described in our MYSTICAL BETROTHAL TO CHRIST.

·      When does actual UNION WITH GOD occur?  It’s called THE MYSTICAL MARRIAGE.  How do we know it’s happened?

·      When can a person say “NO LONGER I LIVE BUT CHRIST IN ME.”  This is NONDUALITY, one has BECOME GOD or GOD REALIZED.

·      What is the meaning of our Divine Stigmata, which is a grace only Catholics speak of – it is martyrdom.  How would the grace of martyrdom—giving one’s life for God—be expressed in Eastern terms?

There are many other QUESTIONS to be discussed on MORALITY—especially regarding SEX.  People need to know the answers, to end the HYSTERIA on this subject, & bring sanity & logic to ‘Is Sex a Sin-or a fault?  Is sex activity against spiritual perfection?’

This is vital, because we need to see the difference between ‘community standards,’ ‘social acceptability,’ & ‘God standards,’ ‘God acceptability.’  Why did God make sex?  If God is all-spiritual, why did God create sex & all physical things?  Is God low-minded?

There is a beginning of putting on the table ideas that might culminate in a book, one which takes the MYSTERY out of the ‘mysterious East’ & put it into words where Westerners can follow, learn, imitate & reach final Union with God.  {They are eagerly following the East, they want to learn badly, but the Eastern teachings are being presented in a way that is darkness to us.  Clarification is called for.}

I propose that we work on such a book.  I think it would benefit both of us in our mission.

In God’s Love,  Rasa Von Werder

DREAM INTERPRETATION

1-31-20-ADVENTURES IN PARADISE-SNAKES-A FEMALE FOLLOWER

          THIS IS ABOUT MY CONTACTING SOMEONE ABOUT COLLABORATING ON A BOOK.  IT HAS A POSITIVE FEELING.  I DREAMED IT BEFORE I DID IT – A PSYCHIC DREAM.

         

          Dream:   For one thing, I’m in a tropical place like a LONG VACATION. 

          I’m walking OUTSIDE BAREFOOT & here I see there are plenty of snakes!  All kinds – big, small & tiny, many small & tiny ones in groups or bunches in moist puddles.  I sense none of them is poisonous so I’m not too afraid, but I don’t want to step on them.

          (THE SNAKES MIGHT BE IDEAS – NOT BAD ONES, JUST DIFFERENT THAN WHAT WE IN THE WEST ARE USED TO.  THIS PLACE, WHICH IS INDIA, IS TROPICAL, SO THEY HAVE IDEAS {SNAKES} WE DON’T HAVE. IT’S ALSO A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE, THESE SNAkES ARE DIFFERENT IDEAS EXPRESSED IN THEIR LANGUAGE.

          MY BEING BAREFOOT IS BEING HUMBLE & RESPECTFUL HERE – IN EASTERN PLACES ONE USUALLY TAKES OFF ONES SHOES OR BOOTS.  IF NOT IT’S A SIGN OF DISRESPECT.

‘DON’T WANT TO STEP ON THE SNAKES IS DON’T WANT TO BE DISRESPECTFUL’ – AS IN ‘DON’T WANT TO STEP ON ANYONE’S TOES.’)

          There are dogs around also, just lying around.  I see one dog take a black snake & bite it right through its body, right through the middle.  It’s just natural instinct.  I didn’t feel sorry for the snake, I just saw this action as the dog’s instinct.

          (IN THIS CONTEXT A SNAKE MIGHT SEEM LIKE A BAD THING, PERHAPS A ‘BAD IDEA,’ & THIS DOG, WHICH IS AN INNER SENSE, TAKES A BITE OUT OF IT AS YOU WOULD ‘TAKE A BITE OUT OF CRIME.’

          I FEEL THIS REFERS TO MY SAYING WAS THAT THE TERM ‘DESTROY THE MIND’ THE HINDUS USE IS A BAD ONE.)

          I had been with a group of people.  We were sort of ‘exploring.’  It’s a BIG ADVENTURE out here & we are sitting around watching what’s going on.  It feels like India.  It’s kind of boring, like prosaic, ordinary, & yet, I am waiting & expecting for something to happen.

          There’s a FEMALE FOLLOWER near me – she goes wherever I go, but I don’t talk to her, just see her.  One time I’ve been sitting a while in a spot, just get up abruptly, like gather my metallic grey skirt, (or does she have this skirt on?) & take off.  I glance to see her & indeed she has gotten up & is following me.  I surmise she’s a DISCIPLE.  I don’t have to tell her ‘I’m going here, or there,’ we’re not EQUALS.  In other words, she is submissive to me, like a disciple with a Guru, I don’t have to explain anything, just move, & her role is to follow.

          (MY DISCIPLE MIGHT BE MY FLESH OR AN UNKNOWN SOUL--A MYSTERY—BUT IT MIGHT PREDICT THAT THIS PERSON I CONTACTED WILL BELIEVE IN ME.)

          I get to some sort of outdoor restaurant, poor, rustic, as they would have in India.  Food is set outside--Lots of boxes of fresh raw veggies & greens.  Not sure what I do here.

          But a female companion was carrying something she did not need—it was like cardboard cutouts.  She lugged it for a long time.  She leaves it here with the young girl running the food stand – it turns into nice brown wood doors, short doors like ‘swinging’ ones you might find in a bar – but they aren’t attached yet, just leaning there to the left & right, they are more ‘Western’ & substantial than the doors they have now, & prettier, & if they wish, they can now attach them.  And the female who was carrying them did not at all need them & did a good deed by donating them to this poor girl.

          (THESE DOORS YOU SEE ALL THE TIME IN WESTERN MOVIES:  THE SWINGING WOODEN BAR DOORS.

          THIS GIRL CARRYING THIS ‘WESTERN DOOR’ OR IDEA, OR *PORTAL* TO WESTERN THINKING IS WHAT I’VE DONE IN THIS LETTER.  I HAVE PROPOSED THAT WE CORRELATE WESTERN TERMS TO HINDU TERMS, TO GET SOME CLARIFICATION FOR THE WESTERN DEVOTEES.

THIS IS AN ACT OF CHARITY OR ‘DONATION.’  THE RESTAURANT RESPRESENTS SPIRITUAL NOURISHMENT, HERE I ADD TO THEIR HINDU RESOURCES.)

                              

***AT MY BK’LYN APT.***

          At the B’klyn apt it seems busy, happy & festive.  A man who is a politician, whom I like very much, even love, is here.

          When I knew him before he was thin.  Now he’s about one hundred pounds heavier, smiling & happy, wearing a silky long-sleeved white shirt.  At one point I take both my hands & feel his bicep – his arm just hanging there, he’s not flexing, but his bicep area is big & meaty, which I guess I approve.  He’s standing in the kitchen facing the stove while I’m standing at the edge of the living room.

         (I GET THE FEELING THIS IS THE MAN I CONTACTED.  HE WAS THIN, NOW 100 POUNDS HEAVIER--COULD MEAN THAT MY ATTENTION, RESPECT, HAS NOURISHED HIM GREATLY.  IT’S KIND OF LIKE SAYING, ‘HE / SHE  MADE ME FEEL NINE FEET TALL.’  YOU GET ‘BIGGER,’ A FEELING OF BEING ‘A BIGGER PERSON’ WHEN YOU’RE LOVED.  WHEN RIDICULED OR HUMILIATED YOU COULD ‘SHRINK DOWN’ IN SIZE, BECOME ‘LITTLE’ OR UNIMPORTANT.

          FEELING HIS BICEP IS GIVING HIM CREDIT FOR BEING STRONG IN LOVE – SPIRITUAL STRENTH, BECAUSE ARMS ARE THE ‘STRENGTH’ TO GIVE LOVE – HANDS ARE LOVE ITSELF.

PLEASE NOTE THERE ARE OTHER APPLICATIONS TO BEING ‘OVERWEIGHT’ – ALMOST ALL SYMBOLS HAVE MULTIPLE MEANINGS, YOU HAVE TO DISCERN IN THE CONTEXT OF THE DREAM, THE OVERALL MEANING.)

          This guy seems Italian & his background leaves it that some people here don’t fully approve him.  He has dark hair like an Italian, thick eyebrows, but he is ever-jolly, & I don’t judge him the way others do—don’t believe he’s done anything serious.

          He goes into the small bedroom which has no door & right there my brother is going to interview him.  They are sitting facing the open door, my brother has recording equipment.  Where they are sitting seems like a couch all across the small room – the room is narrower than it was in real life.

          The interview starts & my brother plays some lovely music from the radio.  But then, disaster, there’s an interference as the radio station begins to do something completely different – not nice music at all, advertisements or something.  Shall I help by jumping in & trying to find something better on the radio?  Not sure what happens then.

          (THIS COULD BE AN INTERVIEW HE DID THAT STARTED OUT GREAT BUT THEN HAD SOME DISAGREEMENTS.)

         

          The ‘politician’ whom I’ll call ‘ITALO’ does something interesting.  I guess its Christmas, & there’s a large tree near the big window of the living room, about 7-8’ tall.  But to the side of the tree is a tiny very full-bodied tree only about 3’ tall, & toward the top is inserted a statue of Holy Mary in white.  Italo bends in front of this little tree & image & worships it—he loves it.  This pleases me much.

 

          (THIS MAN, BY HONORING MOTHER GOD—HERE PRESENTED AS ‘OUR LADY OF LOURDES’ SHOWS HE IS CLOSE TO THE DIVINE.  MANY CATHOLIC BOOKS EXPLAIN THAT BEING DEVOTED TO THE BL. VIRGIN MARY IS A SIGN OF SUPERIOR SAINTHOOD.

 BEING CHRISTMAS IS A TIME OF GREAT JOY, LOVE & BLISS.  APPARENTLY MY CONTACTING HIM & DISCUSSING SOME ISSUES MAKES BOTH OF US HAPPY.)

          I test his bicep a second time, his body seems to SHRINK just a bit, like he suddenly lost 30 pounds from his middle, his shirt turns like light grey checks & gets kind of loose from the weight loss.  I see him standing in the exact same spot like the first time.

(SOMETHING THAT HAPPENS WILL GIVE THIS MAN JUST A LITTLE LESS HAPPINESS.

THE SHIRT GOES FROM SILKY WHITE TO MEDIUM COTTON GREY CHECKS—CHECKS ARE CROSSES, THEY HURT.  THIS IS NOT A SERIOUS HURT, IT’S MILD.  LIGHT GREY IS MENTAL.

LOSING WEIGHT SUDDENLY IS LIKE ‘THE WIND WENT OUT OF MY SAILS.’--WHICH MEANS I’M NOT MOVING AHEAD AS FAST AS I WAS – NOT AS JOYFUL, SATISFIED OR MOTIVATED.  NOTICE THE SHIRT IS NOW LOOSER, LIKE WIND LEAVING SAILS.)

          Now I’m standing in my kitchen.  I seem to be REMODELING.

          Around me are soft lights with light green walls, it’s a feeling of love & festivity, like Christmas & also one of change.  As I stand in the kitchen facing the living room, the stove used to be on the left corner wall – but it isn’t there.  Instead there’s a table like a counter that extends from the stove-space, over the area where there was a small cabinet, it’s covered with a light green cover – the walls are plain.

          Across that I need to make a change.  The regular kitchen table is still there right in front of the huge window.  But at the wall where it meets the ceiling there are about five ‘winner’s circle’ stiff cloth emblems with about a foot of ribbon on each one.’  These are those emblems that are a round ball, surrounded by curved pleated ribbon, usually placed on the winner of a contest, & they are pastel off-colors, blue & grey—these are going straight across in a row.  I realize these ribbons are TOO FANCY for a kitchen, they belong in THE BEDROOM, & I’ll take them down.  The plain wall like across the room is much better.  I notice the wall where it’s plain is kind of soft gold / yellow, not garish, just plain.  Sometimes plain is best.

          (THIS MIGHT BE SAYING ‘GO EASY ON THE BRAGGING.  YOU PUT YOUR MEDALS HERE, THEY BELONG SOMEWHERE ELSE, KEEP IT SIMPLE, NOT PUSH YOUR KUDOS SO MUCH.  ALL I DID WAS SEND LINKS TO MY BOOKS, I GUESS THAT’S SEEN AS BRAGGING IN THIS DREAM.

‘BELONG IN THE BEDROOM’ MIGHT SAY ‘KEEP THE AWARDS PRIVATE OR QUIET.’)

          The dream holds a festive feeling.

          (THIS PREDICTS A GOOD OUTCOME.  CHRISTMAS IS WHEN GIFTS ARE GIVEN, A GREAT DEAL OF LOVE IS EXCHANGED – MORE THAN AT ANY TIME OF YEAR.)

1-30-20-SEARCH 4 BOOK-Dream says I’m already in a state of Advaita, I am one with my God Self.

IMP:  TWO SOULS ASCEND!

IMP:  FOUR SOULS ENTER NONDUALITY!

          I’m in a room, plain & simple, nothing in it – no bathroom, nothing.

          (THIS IS THE PRISTINE GOD-SELF, UNCLUTTERED, EMPTY, PEACFUL CONTENTED WITHOUT ANYTHING ATTACHED, THE MANTRA BEING ‘I’M NOT ATTACHED TO ANYTHING OR ANYONE’……I WAS RECITING THIS LAST NIGHT.

          LATER IT WILL SAY THERE’S A PICTURE WINDOW BUT NOTHING ELSE, NO BATHROOM, NO FURNITURE, NO NOTHING.  THIS IS A SERENE STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS WHERE NOTHING INVADES ONE’S MIND.  THE PICTURE WINDOW WOULD BE PROBABLY THE VISION OF GOD OR ‘SEEING AS GOD SEES’-SEEING LIFE FROM GOD’S EYES OR THE GOD-SELF’S POV.)

          I hear a knock on the door.  I think it’s my little daughter because she & I checked in here – it’s a hotel or motel.

          I go to the door & say ‘Kellie?’  No answer.  I say it again – no answer.

          I open the door & she stands there, looking the size of a four year old yet there’s something about her that’s more mature.

          (KELLIE IS MY FLESH.  WHEN IT’S LITTLE LIKE THIS IT MEANS ‘I’M’ HUMBLE.  HER KNOCKING ON THE DOOR IS SHE WANTS TO FIND UNION WITH ME (I AM GOD WITHIN)—SEEKING ENTRANCE TO THE GOD-SELF.

          ‘SHE’ DOES NOT ANSWER TO HER NAME BECAUSE ‘SHE’ HAS RENOUNCED HERSELF – THE LOWER SELF, THE EGO.  IN OTHER WORDS, SHE ISN’T ‘THERE.’

          IF SHE ISN’T ‘THERE’ & ENTERS INTO ‘MY ROOM’ OR IS WITH ME, MEANS SHE IS WITH THE GOD-SELF IN CONSCIOUSNESS, MEANS SHE IS IN THE STATE OF ADVAITA OR NONDUALITY – MY FLESH & I ARE TOGETHER, OR IN OTHER WORDS, I AM ONE WITH GOD.  (That’s a relief as I wasn’t sure what consciousness I was in.  This confirms it, whoopee.)

          We both sit in the room & even though there’s hardly anything in here, we find things to occupy ourselves & be happy.  She goes into the closet & finds several things in there.  She’s sitting on the floor as she does this, & the items are being slid across the floor toward her left, she’s leaning left.  It seems like a VCR, black, & a large black video wand & something else.  Just these items, she tells me mentally, will keep her occupied as toys, & will make her happy.  I am IMPRESSED as I ponder,

          “Oh, we don’t have a TV to monitor anything, but yet she still is satisfied with these items although we can’t see any videos.  It takes so little for her to be occupied & happy.”

          (THIS IS MY GOD-SELF COMMENTING ON HOW LITTLE ‘I’ (MY LOWER SELF, MY FLESH) NEED TO BE SATISFIED.  I THINK THE VCR & WAND REPRESENT THE COMPUTER & THE KEYBOARD I’M TYPING WITH. 

         

          THEY ARE BLACK IN A MORE UNUSUAL MEANING OF THE SYMBOL – THAT OF MYSTERY.  I HAVE DREAMS, THEY ARE A MYSTERY, MY WORK IS INTERPRETING THEM.  MY GOD SELF IS SAYING LOOK HOW LITTLE IT TAKES TO MAKE YOU HAPPY – JUST INTERPRETING DREAMS.

          PULLING THIS ‘OUT OF THE CLOSET’ ARE WHAT’S IN A CLOSET IS SOMETIMES SECRET.  RASA/FLESH IS TAKING THESE DREAMS OUT OF THE CLOSET – THEY WERE ENCASED IN SECRECY - & EXPLAINING, BRINGING THEIR MEANING INTO THE OPEN.)

          I’m walking around here doing things, wondering where the bathroom is – is it down the hall?—when magically the door opens & on the other side of the hall are two men in white v-necked t-shirts (simple clothing) with perhaps grey or beige khaki pants-- & I know THEY ARE THE OWNERS so they have the keys to all the doors here & can open them any time they want – they’re standing slightly left, one might be partially bald or receding hairline--& they are standing tentatively, kind of one behind the other, not wanting to bother or intrude, but they were concerned & they ask,

          “ARE YOU OK?”

          (WHO ARE THESE OWNERS?  THEIR CLOTHING – WHITE TOPS – IS THEIR PURITY OF HEART – (THE T-SHIRTS GO OVER THE HEART) - “THE PURE IN HEART SHALL SEE GOD.”

          THIS STATEMENT I JUST SAID HINTS THESE TWO MEN ARE SEEING GOD.  THEY COULD BE IN HEAVEN OR ON EARTH, BUT THEY ARE SEEING GOD – THEY ARE SAINTS.  THE V-NECK FOR SURE IS VICTORY – THEY ARE VICTORIOUS IN THEIR SPIRITS, WHICH COULD MEAN ON EARTH OR IN HEAVEN.

          THEIR PANTS BEING GREY OR BEIGE KHAKI ARE WORKING PANTS.  IF THEY ARE WORKING THEY MIGHT BE TEACHERS ON EARTH I AM LISTENING TO ON YOU TUBE.  ONE OF THEM WITH THE RECEDING HAIRLINE SHOWS HE’S CONCERNED ABOUT ME.  THEY BOTH ARE. 

***THIS IS SOUNDING LIKE DAVID GODMAN & RICK ARCHER*** – BOTH OF WHOM ARE GREAT BEINGS & RICK ARCHER HAS A SITE CALLED ‘BUDDHA AT THE GAS PUMP’ – SOME FANTASTIC INTERVIEWS – I LISTENED TO TWO LONG AMAZING ONES OF DAVID GODMAN.  I HAVE NOT HEARD EITHER ONE OF THESE MEN CLAIM TO BE IN A STATE OF NONDUALITY & I WONDERED (1) ARE THEY IN THAT STATE?  (2) IF NOT, WHY NOT?

  I DON’T KNOW AS MUCH ABOUT RICK, I KNOW MORE ABOUT DAVID (SEEN HOURS OF HIS VIDEOS MOSTLY ON RAMANA).  MY QUESTION TO HIM WOULD BE *IF YOU SAW THE EFFECT THESE ASCENDED SOULS HAD UPON YOU IN MOMENTS, WHEN THEY JUST LOOKED AT YOU, & YOU FROM THEN ON SAT IN THEIR PRESENCE FOR THE REST OF YOUR ADULT LIFE, FOR UNTOLD PERIODS, WORKED FOR THEM, ASSISTED THEM, & ALL THESE YEARS OF IMBIBING THEIR ENERGY & GIVING OUT CHARITY DID NOT BRING YOU INTO NONDUALITY?  THEN WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU?  BECAUSE NEITHER OF THEM EVER EXPLAINED THEIR STATE, THAT THEY ARE IN NONDUALITY—PROBABLY FROM HUMILITY.  BUT THIS DREAM TELLS ME THAT THEY ARE.

          THIS SAYS THEY CAN GAIN ACCESS TO MY STATE {ROOM} ANY TIME THEY WANT BECAUSE THEY ARE OWNERS & HAVE THE KEYS.  THIS MEANS THEY ARE BOTH IN NONDUALITY, AS THEY ‘OWN’ THIS BUILDING {STATE} & HAVE “THE KEYS” {TO THE STATE.}

                    

          HOW DOES THIS THEN ASSURE ME THEY ARE IN NONDUALITY?  BECAUSE OF THE VERY THINGS    DAVID GODMAN SAID RAMANA MAHARSHI SAID.  HE SAID ‘IT TAKES ONE TO KNOW ONE.’  HE SAID IF YOU ARE A JNANI {ASCENDED SOUL}, YOU KNOW ANOTHER JNANI, ONLY THOSE WHO ARE THERE KNOW WHEN ANOTHER IS THERE, THEY KNOW THE STATE, THEY RECOGNIZE IT, THEY HAVE ACCESS TO IT…….

DAVID GODMAN ALSO MENTIONED THAT YOU CANNOT ESTIMATE, JUDGE OR MEASURE A PERSON BY OUTSIDE APPEARANCE, THOSE WHO SEEM GOOD, KIND & HOLY SOMETIMES DON’T HAVE ‘IT’ (THE STATE OF ADVAITA OR BEING ‘ONE’ WITH GOD) BUT OTHERS WHO SEEM LIKE STRANGE EGGS INDEED ARE IN THE STATE.

OK, SO HERE IN THIS DREAM THESE GUYS ‘HAVE IT,’--THEY OWN THE STATE {PREMISES} – THEY HAVE THE KEYS {ABILITY TO OPEN THE DOOR, THE LOCK, GET INTO THE STATE, SEE SOMEONE IN THE STATE.}  THEY CAN OPEN *ANY DOOR* IN THE BUILDING BECAUSE THEY OWN THE BUILDING MEANS THEY CAN SEE INTO THE SOUL OF ANY PERSON IN THIS STATE BECAUSE THEY HAVE THE STATE.

THE WAY THE TWO OF THEM ARE ONE IN FRONT OF THE OTHER, DON’T WANT TO INTRUDE, SHOWS ME THEIR SENSITIVITY & HUMILITY - & THE HAIR RECEDING IS COMPASSION (CARING ABOUT SOMEONE, A SYMBOL OF ANXIETY, BUT THIS IS NOT ANXIETY THAT SHOWS ONE IS LESS SPIRITUAL, IT’S LOVE) –—THEY ARE BOTH SAINTS {ASCENDED SOULS—RICK SAID ON HIS YOU TUBE HE’S NOT A SAINT, BUT HE IS, HAHA.  DON’T SWEAT THE DETAILS, DON’T BELABOR HUMAN FAULTS I SAY} ACCORDING TO THIS DREAM.

          What they mean is are we OK in the room – do we have what we want & need?  And I say YES.  (Again, there is so little here, almost nothing, but me just being here, looking out the front picture window, having nothing, but daughter & I are both fine….they were concerned.)

          (THIS ANSWERS THE QUESTION OF WHAT DO I-WE NEED?  ONLY GOD & HER WILL, DOING HER WORK, DOING WHAT SHE WANTS.  THAT IS NONDUALITY – ONE WITH THE WILL OF GOD.)

          Now two new people are in the room.  One’s a female & she has no pants on, is lying around & I can see her vagina prominently.

          Then a handsome young male appears in the room in the same way – no pants (I was thinking could I snag him for a date later on?).  He seems to have a book in his hands & as he lies around I also see a vagina prominently on him, not a penis!  I’m wondering about that, as you can imagine.

          (MY INNER VOICE TELLS ME THESE ARE SOULS IN PURGATORY, READY TO ASCEND, ONE MALE, ONE FEMALE, BOTH ARE PARTIALLY NAKED WITH VAGINAS.  THE NAKEDNESS COULD BE ‘NAKED’ OR ‘OPEN’ ‘BEFORE THE LORD.  THE VAGINAS REPRESENT PASSIVENESS, WHICH WE ALL ARE TO THE POWER OF GOD – GOD LIFTS US UP TO PERFECTION, WE CANNOT DO IT OF THE FLESH.  WHEN WE’RE CLEANSED OF ALL NEGATIVES, WE RISE UP.  OUR JOB IS GETTING CLEANSED OF SINS, THEN FAULTS, THEN ATTACHMENTS.  WHEN WE ARE DONE THE POWER OF GOD PULLS US INTO GLORY.

          THE YOUNG MALE BEING ‘HANDSOME’ SYMBOLIZES THE BEAUTY THAT HAPPENS AFTER WE’RE CLEANSED & ASSIMILATED TO GOD, OR OUR GOD NATURE IS REVEALED.

          Then a knock on the door, I answer.  In walk two males, two females, all young & attractive.  The females are wearing light green bikinis, they say,

          “WE WANT TO TAKE PICTURES.”

          The two females seem similar, like they both have sort of ‘textured’ not combed smooth, slightly ‘stringy’ but not ugly hair to their shoulders, the color kind of charcoal grey.  They remind me of the images of Brigitte Bardot in bikinis when she was real young. The men also look similar.  They just stride in, all four like in a row, faces forward, no smiles, not looking at me, just matter of fact.  By their clothing I am wondering is it summer or winter?  I thought it was winter.

          Then I look down at my outfit.  Am I wearing a white, clinging see-through top & brown knitted clinging pants?  My outfit somehow seems so CONSERVATIVE compared to the two females in the bikinis & this WORRIES me because will anyone be attracted to me this way?

          (THIS SAYS ‘AM I GOOD ENOUGH-BEAUTIFUL OR APPEALING’  COMPARED WITH THESE GREAT-LOOKING SOULS THAT JUST CAME IN, THEY HAVE ALSO BEEN CLEANSED IT SEEMS, THEIR BEAUTY SAYS SO.  {The comparison to Brigitte Bardot says so, she was one of the most beautiful women on earth.}

          THE CHARCOAL HAIR IS ‘BURNT UP’ THOUGHTS – THEY HAVE GIVEN UP EARTHLY THOUGHTS, THEY HAVE ENTERED THE GOD SELF!  THESE MUST BE PEOPLE ON EARTH.  I ONLY STARTED YESTERDAY PRAYING FOR PEOPLE TO ENTER NONDUALITY!  I CAN’T BELIEVE MY PRAYERS WORKED SO FAST, THEY ONLY TOOK A COUPLE MINUTES!  BUT DAVID GODMAN SAYS WHEN HE WAS IN THE PRESENCE OF THE GURUS HE MET – STARTING WITH NISARGADATTA – HE HAD BEEN WORKING FOR YEARS ON MEDITATION & THOUGHT HE WAS WAY AHEAD.  BUT ONE LOOK FROM THE GURU LEAPED HIM FORWARD INSTANTLY.

          THIS IS SAYING MY LITTLE PRAYER BROUGHT THESE SOULS ‘INTO MY STATE’ OR ROOM – THE STATE OF NONDUALITY, I AM THEIR GURU WHO JUST LOOKED AT THEM.

*{ENTERING NONDUALITY & ASCENDING INTO HEAVEN FROM PURGATORY ARE COMPARABLE STATES.  YOU BECOME ONE WITH GOD ON EARTH OR ON THE OTHER SIDE, WHILE IN THE BODY OR HAVING LEFT THE BODY.}*

          NOTICE THEY ARE NOT LOOKING AT ME, BUT I’M LOOKING AT THEM!  THEY DON’T KNOW WHO I AM, BUT I’M PRAYING FOR THEM!

          THE FACT THAT THEY ‘WANT TO TAKE PICTURES’ INDICATES THEY FEEL LIKE MODELS – THEY FEEL GOOD ABOUT THEMSELVES, THAT THEY ARE GOOD ENOUGH.  THIS IS SPIRITUAL BEAUTY.) 

          There is this underlying thought when I see these handsome males I think of snagging them for sex.  Can I?  I ask hesitantly.

          (I THINK THE SEX I TALK ABOUT IN THIS DREAM IS NOT PHYSICAL SEX, IT’S SPIRITUAL UNION.  MANY YEARS AGO I HAD  HUNDREDS OF DREAMS OF BEING A PROSTITUTE.  I WOULD PICK UP MEN, TAKE THEM TO A ROOM SOMEWHERE & MAKE LOVE.  THESE WERE ECSTATIC UNIONS, THEY WERE OF GOD.  THEY WERE SOULS IN PURGATORY I UNITED WITH MYSELF & THEY ASCENDED INTO HEAVEN.

          NOTICE IN THIS DREAM, THE PLAIN ROOM IS MY GOD STATE, MY LITTLE DAUGHTER ENTERS IT.  THEN TWO OTHER PEOPLE APPEAR, THEY HAVE ENTERED MY STATE.  THEN FOUR PEOPLE APPEAR, THEY HAVE ENTERED MY STATE {ROOM}.  THIS IS THE JNANI-GURU, WHO WITH ONE LOOK INCREASES THE SPIRITUALITY OF THE CLIENT—AS DESCRIBED BY DAVID GODMAN.

          AND RAMANA MAHARSHI, DAVID EXPLAINS, DESCRIBED THAT A JNANI DOES NOT HAVE TO PRAY.  YOU GO TO HIM WITH A PROBLEM & IT IS SOLVED.  HE DOESN’T DO ANYTHING IN PARTICULAR – DOESN’T HAVE TO.  {NOT SAYING YOU CAN’T, JUST SAYING IT HAPPENS INSTANTLY IN MANY CASES.}

 THIS HAS HAPPENED TO ME NUMEROUS TIMES & I EXPLAINED IT AS ‘THE ANOINTING GOES TO THE PERSON INSTANTLY EVEN IF I DO NOTHING – NO PRAYER, NOTHING - & SUDDENLY, THEY TELL ME THEIR PROBLEM WAS SOLVED, BE IT THEY HAD CANCER, A TROUBLESOME MAN ANNOYING THEM, A GRANDCHILD WITH A STATE NEEDING SURGERY—ETC.

HERE IS THE TRICKY PART:  HOW DO I KNOW WHICH SOULS ARE LIVING & WHICH ONES ARE IN PURGATORY?  THE FIRST SET, A MALE & FEMALE, BOTH WITH VAGINAS, SOUNDS LIKE SO MANY SOULS I’VE SEEN GO TO HEAVEN AS FEMALE.  THE FACT THAT THEY ARE ‘LYING DOWN’ ON THE FLOOR MIGHT HINT THAT THEY ARE ‘DOWN’—‘LYING IN THEIR COFFIN’ OR THEIR BODIES ARE ‘AT REST’ {REST IN PEACE.}  BUT IT’S NOT A CERTAINTY.

THEY MIGHT ALL BE SOULS IN PURGATORY, BUT YESTERDAY WAS THE FIRST TIME, DURING MY MASS, THAT I ASKED FOR LIVING SOULS TO ENTER INTO NONDUALITY.  I HAD NEVER MADE THAT PRAYER BEFORE.  AND THE SECOND SET FEELS THAT WAY, LIKE MY DISCERNMENT SAYS ‘THIS SOUNDS LIKE LIVING PEOPLE.’  BUT I AM NOT 100% SURE, MAYBE 75% SURE.

THESE FOUR SOULS ARE WALKING IN, SO COMPARED TO THE ONES ‘LYING DOWN’ IT MIGHT SAY ‘THEY ARE ‘WALKING THE EARTH’.)

=====  PART TWO OF THE DREAM:  GOING OUT OF THE ROOM – APPEARING AT A USED BOOK STORE

          Then my daughter & I want to go out & have fun.  I was thinking of going ‘downtown’ to bars, vaguely.  But on the way there’s a USED BOOK STORE – I strongly want to get a book there, but the thought daunts me WHAT IF IT’S CLOSED?  That would GREATLY disappoint me.

          The store is on a corner, I climb up a set of stairs.  The building I vaguely think is brick.  The store looks closed, but I try the door knob anyway, the joy be mine, it opens.  I feel it was open JUST FOR ME possibly BY MAGIC.

          (THIS STORE OPENING BY MAGIC IS THE COMPUTER.  THE STORE NEVER CLOSES, I CAN MAGICALLY OPEN MY STOREFRONT @ LULU, AMAZON OR OTHER PLACES, I CAN ACCESS MY WEBSITES, BLOGS & ETC.  ALWAYS OPEN!)

          When I go in with my daughter, it’s kind of dim.  Yes, it’s closed, but I was allowed by Divine Providence, to go in.  It’s a modest place, very plain, nothing fancy.  Ordinary carpets, remind me of the first apt I lived in in Santa Monica – the beginning of my adult life.

(THIS IS MY BOOKS & WRITINGS.  WHAT WAS I WORRIED ABOUT IT BEING CLOSED?  THIS COULD BE THAT FEAR I HAVE THAT WHEN I DIE, NO ONE WILL CONTINUE SELLING MY BOOKS.  IT’S NOT THE MONEY; IT’S THE MISSION I CARE ABOUT.)

          There are low shelves here & there – they don’t even have a lot of books, only about two or three hundred I’d say.  I was looking for a certain book, when I got it I would leave a note saying I had it – was not trying to steal it.  Now I get the feeling of a LIBRARY—borrowing their book, letting them know I did with a note.

          (I AM LOOKING FOR A BOOK PROBABLY MEANS I AM RESEARCHING A CERTAIN SUBJECT, WANT KNOWLEDGE ON IT.)

          While I’m there something amazing happens.  People see me in the store I guess through the windows.  The first bunch is not too swift.  Some of them are mixed-race women that give me the feeling of being too much in the flesh, not socialized also, one woman wears a cone on her face - light green cardboard that is folded around her chin, about a foot long, her skin is mulatto with freckles, & somehow she & her group I fear might be making a mess in the room.

          I’m concerned about the owners – I opened the door & so people came – my influence – if it’s bringing in people that will make a mess that would be on my conscience.

          (I’M CONCERNED ABOUT ANYTHING LOW-MINDED MAKING A MESS.  THIS WOULD MESS UP THEIR MINDS OR CONSCIOUSNESS.  WE WANT TO KEEP A HIGH LEVEL HERE.  I WANT TO HELP, NOT HURT PEOPLE.  WE DON’T WANT THEM TO STAY IN THEIR LOWER NATURE BUT TO LIFT THEM UP.)

          Other people come in as well, & then, because the place has become lively, the two female owners come in.

          One of them looks like Patti, who has been reading my book on the Beatific Vision.  Her hair is honey blonde, glasses, middle aged, conservative.  Both the owners are that age, conservative women, & later, when I ask a question about bringing in my books – boxes & boxes of them from my collection, that I’m not reading (they can sell them, I did not ask for any of the money) – the one I’ll call Patti says she doesn’t know if the ‘BIG LADY’ will approve.  (This is a lady who actually owns the store, somehow is the Chief, they are renting from her, but she’s the Boss.  I know these two women are poor.  I’m trying to help.)

          (THE BIG LADY FOR SURE IS MOTHER GOD WHO IS MY BOSS OVER EVERYTHING.

PATTI SYMBOLIZES THE HIGHEST LEVEL – SINCE SHE’S READING MY BOOK ON SEEING GOD FACE TO FACE.  THESE BOOKS ARE ‘USED’ MEANS THEY ARE USEFUL – THEY ARE NOT JUST SITTING ON SHELVES DOING NOTHING, THEY ARE HELPING PEOPLE.

          I’M NOW REFERRING TO ‘BOXES & BOXES’ OF BOOKS THAT I AM ‘NOT USING-DON’T NEED’ – THEY ARE NOT VALUABLE TO ME, SO I AM GOING TO BRING THEM HERE, GET RID OF THEM, MAKE MORE SPACE IN MY HOUSE, & THEY CAN MAKE SOME MONEY.

          BUT PATTI’S ATTITUDE IS THAT MOTHER GOD DOES NOT WANT MY PRISTINE COLLECTION OF WORK TO BE CONTAMINATED BY SECULAR NON-SPIRITUAL MATERIAL.

          THE ISSUE OF SELLING THEM FOR MONEY WOULD NOT EXCUSE THE PRESENCE OF SUCH BOOKS HERE.  PATTI OR THE HIGHEST LEVEL, TURNS HER BACK ON ME WHEN I SUGGEST THIS.  SHE SAYS NO.  MOTHER GOD WOULDN’T LIKE IT.  IT HAS TO BE LIKE THAT IMAGE OF THE ANGEL – PURE GOLD, PURE LOVE, NOTHING LESS THAN THAT.

 I argue with her, like why not?  But she goes onto the porch just outside – it has no railing - & stands there with her back to me, like the subject is finished – I’m still talking but don’t think she’s listening. 

This reminds me (her standing there) of the image I put recently where way top (at least 10 floors up) on some kind of building is a beautiful angel sitting on the ledge looking out over a city.  The angel & everything around it is panted gold, gold everywhere, it’s a beautiful glowing look, & the view down to the city is amazing—it’s night & the whole city is lit up with golden lights.

She then asks me what kind of book am I looking for?  I tell her HINDU ADVAITA. 

She bends down by a small shelf – most of their shelves go no higher than the waist – I look all around the room, this one is like a bureau which is no more than two, three feet off the floor.  She looks through this but cannot find a book on the subject.  The fact that I knew my subject specifically, what it was, what I wanted, was good, but I don’t see her finding such a book.

          (THIS MIGHT BE SAYING I HAVE YET TO WRITE A BOOK ON HINDU ADVAITA, EXPLAINING IT.  THEIR VERSION IS SO CONFUSING, HARDLY ANY WESTERNER CAN UNDERSTAND IT.  I’VE COMPLAINED ABOUT THE TRANSLATIONS.  I WAS THINKING OF WORKING OUT THE HINDU ADVAITA INTO LANGUAGE WE OF THE WEST CAN RELATE TO.  I BELIEVE MOST OF THE PEOPE WHO TRANSLATED THESE WORDS DID NOT GET THEM RIGHT BECAUSE THEY DID NOT UNDERSTAND CHRISTIAN MYSTICISM, ITS TERMS, BUT I DO, & SO, I MIGHT HELP WITH THAT.  IN OTHER WORDS, YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND CHRISTIAN MYSTICISM TO SHOW WHERE THE PARALLELS ARE WITH THAT & THE EASTERN TERMS.)

Then I’m looking for a bathroom, walking around the floor of this building.  I thought I saw one with a naked guy standing in it, a student of the local University I felt, & I quickly left.  But then I go back, it’s a couple rooms back, because I really wanted to see him.  Then I take a better look at him instead of being shy & walking away. 

He’s stark naked, nice thin body like most of the boy students have.  He walks toward me smiling & as he does so, I look where his penis would be & all I see is a fuzzy grey spot like a small, translucent wad of wool or a little medium grey cloud, about 3” in diameter.  Don’t see any penis.  This surprised me.

(WHO IS THIS LAST, MYSTERIOUS NAKED SOUL WITH ONLY A SMALL CLOUD WHERE THE PENIS WOULD BE?  I SUSPECT IT’S A YOUNG MALE, MAYBE A MONK OR CANDIDATE FOR PRIEST, JUST STARTING OUT, WHO’S TAKEN A PROMISE OF CELIBACY.

          THIS BATHROOM IS AN EXTENSION OF THE ‘STORE’ WHICH REPRESENTS MY WORK.  THIS COULD BE SAYING THAT SUCH A YOUNG MAN, INSPIRED BY MY CELIBACY, WANTS TO DO THE SAME.  HIS NAKEDNESS IS HIS HONESTY, VULNERABILITY BEFORE GOD, A GOOD SOUL.

          THERE’S BEEN GREAT TIDINGS IN THIS DREAM.  AND I THOUGHT IT WAS ORDINARY & WASN’T EVEN GOING TO TYPE IT OUT!  WOW!