Dreams of Purgatory, Success of my Life Story & the Lover
1-30-22-Festivities-Feasting-Dancing
Not sure if this
is about Souls or the success of my book or success of myself & Lover, but
whatever it is, it’s good.
In this dream there was much going on but I forgot a lot of
it – there were dozens of scenes. Let’s
start with this lady has set me a table for a
*** {FEASTING: Is fulfillment
of some sort. It’s the fruits or result
of things from before – like trees grow, bear flowers, then buds, then fruits
which mature & become edible or ready to be enjoyed.
How can you figure what are you enjoying? There is but one hint – the porn lady to our
right, that is you, as being in the adult trade, “I Strip for God.”
So that rules out this is about Lover as porn lady doesn’t
apply, & it probably rules out a Soul ready to ascend as that’s not
symbolized by ‘porn lady.’ ‘Porn
lady’ is your career as it has to do WITH SEX & NUDITY.
Yesterday you
looked up Marty Shapiro, your literary/theatrical agent & for the first
time found out he’s DEAD. You were going
to contact him again – too late – he departed in 2017 {& you’ve been
talking to him about your movie since 1981! – in a moment that will explain the
VEIL that’s been around for such a long time it’s no longer perfectly white,
looks antique, ‘like yellow with age’ paper only it isn’t yet yellow, just
looks from ‘back then.’}
What are all the dishes?
Chapters in your books, Part 1 to 5 already published, 6 to 8 coming up
– many dishes or ‘fruits’ of your life & labor of recall & writing it.
You channeled him & he said,
“Hang in there.
In a couple years they’ll come to you & it’ll get done.
Don’t go after them, let them come on bended knee, you’ll
have the advantage.”
I am not able to figure how they’ll come to me with it just sitting there on the internet, not promoted anywhere except some websites, etc. But trust it shall be revealed.} ***
She gives me the feeling of a porn star I’ve known.
After eating some dishes I decide to try this sumptuous layer cake which has several layers with frosting – but it doesn’t taste good to me. I then decide I will try the other sumptuous dessert, which is more like pastry with a rich filling, but haven’t got to that yet.
*** {LAYER CAKE DOESN’T TASTE GOOD: In this feast as well as the beginning, you
want something with ‘no sugar.’ What does that mean? First you want rolls or pastries with no
sugar, then you declare you don’t like the way the ‘layer cake’ tastes &
will try the other dessert – a pastry with filling.
Sugar
Oh, honey, honey
You are my candy girl
And you got me wanting you
Honey
Oh, sugar, sugar
You are my candy girl
And you got me wanting you…………………….
There’s
another song that says:
Now sugartime (sugartime)Is anytime that you're near (that you're near)'Cause you're so dearSo don't you roam (don't roam)Just be my honeycomb (honeycomb, honeycomb)And live in a heaven of love …………………… Now yesterday you had a dream that JAMES BROWN would be in your movie. You suspect that they will make him the main love interest in it - & it seems YOU DON’T LIKE IT. Why? He was not the most important thing in your life, just an interlude. Your preference is if they made the man Jesus Christ & the Virgin Mary the center of your life – they’ve been your heartthrobs since age 5 & still are – they are the most relevant! So in this dream you’re saying, “No sugar! No man should be my main love interest….don’t cheapen my life by making infatuation seem a central part of it!” However, when you think about it, if that’s the only way they can make the movie seem relevant or dynamic to the audience of today, artistic license could be used. After all, he did happen, he just wasn’t the center of my life, but I do admit, he was uppermost in my mind for some years but that was because of my PTSD.} ***
Then the helpers of the lady are organizing, gifts I guess,
& are carrying a veil that goes to the knees in back, which is white &
covered with white butterfly style ornaments.
Since they seem to be putting it in storage I cry out,
“I’ll take that if you don’t want it, I can use it for
photography!”
But the porn lady tells me,
“You gave that to me.”
{She refers to like last Xmas or something}
The veil looks like it’s been hanging for a while & has
just a tiny hint of off-white from being around so long, it’s almost like an
‘antique’ but something sweet & nostalgic.
*** {the VEIL, ANTIQUE with BUTTERFLIES: Antique is obvious. I’ve been talking to the late agent Marty
Shapiro, since 1981 – 36 years. He
contacted me by telegram to do a movie called “I Strip for God” – the writer
would be Steve Kandell. But then Lynda
Carter refused to play me, Steve Kandell disappeared & there was an actor’s
strike. It went dormant but you kept on,
writing ‘I Strip for God’ & published it in 2009, to make sure you owned
the title & story. You resumed
writing it in 2021, by the Grace of God, & are making an Encyclopedia out
of it.
This is a project that began 36 years ago, the ‘veil,’ which
represents a marriage or
The porn lady that is your flesh is telling the God-Self
who is dreaming that you, God, gave her this GIFT, you CANNOT TAKE IT
BACK! {God never repents a gift, that is
sacrosanct!}
What are the BUTTERFLIES?
It
could be a symbol of FLIGHT these are WINGS all over this veil – taking
off. ‘This project – your life story –
has now TAKEN OFF’ which means it begins.
‘My relationship with Mike has taken off – My business venture has taken
off.’} ***
Then I go back to the front of this establishment, sort of
like a small front room before you go through a door to enter the main
restaurant – it has a cash register to the left & a high-up table to the
right with boxes of rolls of different kinds.
I’m looking for rolls without sugar & ask the person behind
the counter if they have any. I open the
lid of one box high up – it’s cornbread {lots of sugar}. I close it; the box is medium light grey.
I look at other boxes filled with various rolls, then
realize my elbow is resting on one flat roll & quickly move it. This pastry has a name – the attendant keeps
saying the name telling me to get this, but I keep looking.
After my being persistent he comes over & tells me he’ll give me the entire box which will last me for a while – as a gift no less - & as he picks them up & starts putting them into a box some of them are sticking to the bottom, he has to scrape them up, & they seem to have some chocolate on top here & there, like those nice circular rolls. So they were being generous to me indeed.
*** {NO SUGAR! But
attendant gives me an entire box of rolls with chocolate on top here
& there: The chocolate might refer
to the chocolate or brown-skinned men I describe throughout the book along with
the whites – I’m given this, it’s now a generous GIFT as it will be
spice or dessert or something good for my life story! After all, many were world-class celebrities,
- white & black.
ME: Explain, Mother
God, my elbow inadvertedly resting on one of the rolls where I flattened it, so
it was twice as big as the others – before even realizing my elbow was on
it. And he keeps saying this type of
pastry by name – again & again, like it’s the right item for me – finally
he gives me an entire box of them, scraping some off the bottom of the
box. What is scraping the bottom of the
box & all this?
MG: It seems there were
so many men it’s kind of now scraping the ‘bottom of the barrel’ or ‘box’ –
like when you just remembered all the Mr. Universe—Mr. America winners – that
would be something you weren’t even going to broach but then you recalled them.
Your elbow on one roll – is you are RESTING on one issue or
person without even realizing it – flattening it or making it BIGGER than the
rest. What is that issue or person? It’s not explained so I have to think
further.} ***
There’s a scene with my Dad being on a high-up shelf,
sitting, I don’t know why.
*** {DAD on high up shelf:
Marty Shapiro is high up in Heaven, on the shelf, no longer ACTIVE. Shelf is like not being read, not accessed,
like ‘bench warming.} ***
Then there’s scenes like I’m looking into doors where
people are dancing merrily, all dressed in colorful clothing like villagers,
cheerful, joyous, bucolic, sweet dancing – nothing lurid or lustful. And I see a couple scenes of this, dozens of
people in like red caps, long stockings, sort of European village type clothes.
Then again I see feasting but the details are gone.
*** {DANCING & FEASTING are CELEBRATION. Must be the books & movie will be a
success. But why are the villagers
dressed in quaint folk costumes? And why
am I looking through two doors, not one – two scenes?
The two scenes could be because the books will be
successful & then the movie.
And villagers?
Because it’s the COMMON FOLK will be made happy by your stories – people
of the streets, poor people, downtrodden, misunderstood &
marginalized people because they will relate to you - Those who are abused & outcasts of
society because they aren’t ‘respectable’ & ‘mainstream’.
……………………………………………………..
1-29-22-James Brown-Marvin Gaye
This is a happy
dream. I was somewhere where the next
thing I know, I’m standing in front of James Brown, & he’s all decked out
in a suit that has red & silver, like the silver sparkles off the suit in
what seems like trinkets or tiny decorations on a Xmas tree or some kind of
show biz glam. The rest of the suit is
sparkly like sequins.
*** {Here you have several clues in James’ jacket – red,
silver, decorations/glitter & sparkles.
Red can be passion or pain, passion is blood – red like blood – or pain
is fresh pain like fresh blood, not purple pain like old blood or a black &
blue wound. Silver probably means love –
both silver & gold are love.
I think this means the love affair you had with James
–passionate & painful love, it sparkles like sequins & shines like the
glitz of show business, it works for a story, a movie.
This is a revelation – because they can’t squeeze every black
star you made it with into the movie, they might just pick him. It’s logical as this was more of a real
affair than any of the other interludes, which were basically hook-ups.}
***
He seems bewildered or amazed at what I’m saying &
says,
“You say they’re making a movie about you & me?”
*** {Me to Mother God:
I need help on this, it says I said something I didn’t say. Why?
MG: Nothing unusual
meant here, he’s just saying the two of you will be in a movie together. It’s a way of expressing the subject. And it answers another question. You have been bogged down about writing the
Marvin Gaye anecdote; this confirms you should do it. His episode seems trivial, but it’ll work for
the movie & it connects him & James Brown – the way you were with
Marvin when James Brown entered the hotel down in the theater/club to watch his
show, & you were alerted ‘your boyfriend is here.’} ***
I answer,
“No, they are making a MOVIE ON MY LIFE & you will be
in it - & he will be too.”
I’m referring to a man standing behind James, as if he’s
hiding – he’s taller than James, wearing black, & this man is MARVIN GAYE.
*** {Marvin Gaye wearing black: This poses a question & once again, I
need help from Mother God. Black is
usually funeral or the end of something, or else, a mystery like
MG: I think this refers to ‘mystery’ more than anything, as you have been so uncertain what to do about him. But this is saying he will be a good ‘background’ to James or somehow a ‘supporting player’ in the story or an intro into your tale of James, like the guy saying, through the door, while you’re with Marvin – “Your boyfriend is here.”} ***
I
was extremely happy while saying this, like making an announcement & the
presence of JB felt real. He found it
hard to believe or amazing that there will be a movie like this, with him in
it……………………………………..
MEANING: This
confirms several things: One, the movie
of your life will be made, 2 & 3, James Brown & Marvin Gaye will be
portrayed in it.
Me to Mother God:
Did I have any contact with James Brown in this dream or is it just
symbols? Is my soul informing James of
what is to be?
MG: Since his
presence is so strong, it could be you’ve made contact. Here you see the silver
lining to the affair; he becomes a character in your movie. So now you’re happy. So many people in your life hurt you, but
they make an interesting story. If life
had been a bed of roses, a normal, ordinary life, there would be no drama &
no interest for a movie.
1-19-22-ARNOLD total success with Lover dream
I was so close to
Wish I could remember details but I can’t. We were making love on a bedspread with the
most beautiful deep color, like a kind of royal blue mixed with turquoise,
& thick like deep velvet & there’s a sense there’s some embellishment
like maybe on the border – a sense of ‘jewels’ or ornaments.
After that he got a thin inexpensive spread next to it
& laid on it, but on the wrong side, the side which is dull, the opposite
side was brighter. I was taking photos
of him & asked him to turn the spread around.
The spread reminds me of the cheap spread we had at my
house in
MEANING: This is the
success of the love making you did with Bob vs. the lack of it
now that he is having sex with other women. However, sex is but a symbol of more than
just the act – sex is intimacy, emotion, the heart. This is deeper than anything, deeper
than mental connections, deeper than physical.
The thick, velvety royal blue/turquoise cover or foundation
is like the color & Presence of Our Lady of Guadalupe. It signifies the Highest, Best, most
superlative realm – the color turquoise in the Aztec world meant ‘royalty’
& this also feels royal. Velvet was
also used by Kings & Queens for their clothing in ancient days, the poor
were not even permitted to wear these colors {or embellishments} in the Aztec culture
& some other cultures as well.
The ‘cheap’ bedspread he’s on now, even on the ‘dull’ side
of it, is the lack of quality in his love making – because he is not in love
with these women. I would like Mother
God in her words to explain to me the difference.
MG: When the two of
you were together you felt an ecstasy because your hearts & minds were
so open to each other. There’s none
of that now, it’s just routine sex with no sensations of a higher
nature, nothing superlative, just dull.
The ‘little balls’ could mean ‘small’ rather than ‘great.’
I poop out a turd the size of a large penis, I hold it in my hands & it seems to turn from turd to penis. I have washed it off & can see the head & veins on it, & I hold it like a weapon like it was a gun or something.
Then I look inside the penis like it
was some kind of a package & amazingly there are many things in it. I was showing someone & as I see the
things there is no way they could actually fit in there, but in the dream, they
came out of there. Wish I could remember
the first thing but I can’t, but it had to do with Mom & family. Then after that there was a sort of like a
teapot, white but marred with many medium grey type streaks. It reminds me of the devise I had to clean my
nose, which is smaller, but you pour water into a nostril, one at a time, then
it comes out to clean it. It also
reminds of a ‘genie lamp’ as it has that kind of construction.
You
assumed the condition came from lack of sex.
Yes, lack of sex is a factor.
When people have sex regularly they get relaxed, if seldom or never,
they might not relax as much. But there
are other causes.
