Share I Love Yous

 

8-27-22 Share I love yous

 

Wonderful, meaningful dream.  So far I have dreamed of him almost nightly since he ‘died’ but is alive in the next dimension & WITH ME.  As of yesterday Said 8 Masses first for him, then whoever needs it.  He Ascended on the 24^th, on the 25^th he gave me a wedding dress & wedding cake, he CHOSE ME for his ETERNAL BRIDE. And yesterday it was REVEALED to me this is monogamous, he will not marry anyone else & by the Will of God & Nick’s Will, he shares this intimate kind of love with me alone, which includes Spiritual Sex.  It’s not like it was on earth, where he usually sported 3 gf’s at a time – this is final, no running around.  And this is not CONSTRAINT, I will show you by channeling him. 

ME:  Nick, I wrote in this article you are with me & me alone, monogamous, eternal marriage, no running around, not multiple women like on earth.  Can you explain this again, like you did to me before, that it is a CHOICE?

 

NICK:  Indeed, it is by CHOICE I’m with you in eternity.  There’s a reason for this.  You chose me & me alone on earth.  Your love was focused & exclusive.  You told me to MAKE A CHOICE years ago – it can’t be just sex, it has to be a relationship.  But I, at that time DID NOT CHOOSE one woman to be faithful to, I had the FRONT WIFE, who I pretended to be devoted to, then there was you as my SECRET WIFE & there was usually one or more females I was bedding. 

My CHOICE re the front woman was not her, it was the DRUGS, I loved the drugs & loved her for supplying them or paying the bills so I could afford them.

There were other women.  You were the only one I was ‘in love’ with – the others I used for sex, a physical need.  A person can use many people while their heart is with one.

This life that I led was one of TORMENT.  When I died the torment ended & all that is false, in a short time, fell away.  I was left with the one & only that my heart had chosen – you.  Since the others were to use for drugs or a physical need, without a body, the need disappeared. 

The choice was made, unconsciously, the day I met you, June 9, 2011.  You were the wife I needed, I was the husband you needed, case closed.  It was a done deal then.  But the earthly theater was played out on a stage of suffering, pretending & jealousy.

That travesty being over, the Truth is revealed.  And the Truth is we are united by the Will of God & both our own wills forever.

How could I go backward & marry or have sex with other women?  There’s no longer a physical need for drugs or sex, what is left is the authentic True Love – which was for you alone – so HERE WE ARE FOREVER!  Amen.

Below:  His muscles looked like this when I met him in 2011, his face looked like this also.  But by 2014 when I hooked up with him again his muscles were gone as he did not do the exercise as he had done in High School.  To me this look surpasses that of a pro body builder, the natural look.  pro body builders look blown up with steroids.  Below right:  Him in HS  wrestling

Dream

 I’m going to this large building, multi stories, for a job.  For a moment I see myself dressed conservatively, in a skirt & the blouse seems to be a sort of maroon / tangerine, softly draped over me.  I see me walking to an elevator in the building after I think applying for the job & being considered – a person is to my right, taller than me.  And that person, notably, is looking at me in a negative way, wanting to hurt my chances for this job.  In fact, I was worried that this & other people here who were against me would make me lose this job.

I explain it to the man {that I applied to} later. It was stressful.

 

*** {WOW.  This is the Theater of Life, where you want a POSITION to be with this man, who is Nick.  You

want him to CHOOSE YOU for his wife, a relationship!  He wanted sex but you told him it can’t be just sex – make a choice.

The person to your right looking at you negatively is the woman he chose to live with because of drugs.  She & druggie friends stood against you, they did not want you with him as you were for rehab.

The ELEVATOR:  Elevator signifies going up or down, way up would be stress, being lifted on the Cross.  The dream doesn’t show you going either way – it proves the outcome is not yet determined, the end of the story isn’t here.

This person is TALL is she was IMPORTANT to him as the drug enabler.

The outfit your wearing is you were SERIOUS, in other words, dressed for the occasion, hoping to get this position, the color of your top shows SUFFERING – red tones are blood & over your heart {torso, top, chest} is the FEELING system, your feelings were deeply wounded.} ***

Then it all changes.

The man is on a chaise lounge, not a regular office chair with desk.  He has gone through my application & tells me his decision.

He explains to me that he has chosen me to be the SUPERVISOR of all that is going on here, which includes him!  It’s the BIGGEST JOB in the place!  It’s now I am the supervisor of his life!

I’m so overjoyed! I go to him, embrace him, the feeling is being on top of him, hold him, kiss him in the most loving manner imaginable & say

“I LOVE YOU!”

Below:  The last pic I've seen of him before he died - July 2022, with his son.  He was 29. 

And he reciprocates saying

“I LOVE YOU,”

& THE FEELING IS OVERWHELMING & DEEP.  This is not just a job now, it’s HIM & ME, it’s personal, intimate, it’s love.

He’s wearing a long-sleeved white shirt – that is notable.

 

*** {SUPERVISOR OF HIS ENTIRE LIFE – HE CHOOSES YOU!  Wow.  This is the OUTCOME of the theater of life, & this says like already stated ‘He died to be with me.’  When the need for drugs & physical sex fell away, what was left was REALITY OF THE SPIRIT.  And that left you & him, you being the AUTHORITY over his entire life, the ONE & ONLY, the ultimate POSITION he chose you for!  He wants you as much as you want him, you EXCHANGE VOWS or LOVE.

This is the Triumph of Love.} ***

Below:  how he looked when we were going 'steady' 2014-2015 - in fact, the 2 pics where he's with people were nights we made love...I guess he didn't have any pics taken of me with him as he feared criticism because of my age - He was insecure, paranoid. When I review the old pics, he looks his most relaxed, handsomest & happiest when he was seeing me the most.  The one with his mouth big & wide he does not look happy - he hurt me badly that night.  He gave his # to another girl & kept telling her 'Call me - call me' & he would not give me his number.  See how fake he looks there, like big fake laugh.  But when he was planning to be with me, posing with girls, he looks so relaxed & serene.

Then there’s the vision of two bowls of food, one is the most delicious bowl of strawberries, sliced with something sweet in them, like a pudding, & another bowl of fruit, a similar thing, with something sweet almost like a pudding.

 

*** {TWO BOWLS OF FRUITS WITH SWEET IN THEM, LIKE PUDDING:  This is the FRUIT or RESULT at the outcome of this theater – the joyful, delightful results for both you & Nick.  Fruit is ENJOYMENT {fruits of my labors}.  Your bowl is one, his the other, both having joy.} *** 

Almost forgot:  While I was embracing him I look to my right & there’s a SMALL FEMALE, like 5’2” in an outfit like so:  I say to her ‘You look like a cowgirl.’  She has two simple cotton bandanas around her neck, soft cotton top & skirt, both of which look like the cowgirls before women started to wear pants, like 1920’s.  The outfit is a print of red figures on a light background.  Her body is shapeless, no waist, small chest, like up & down, almost straight.  And surprisingly, the man has given her a job also – as ‘exercise’ or aerobic instructress in his business. 

*** {LOL THE AEROBIC INSTRUCTRESS:  Yes his former gf has a position here also, as ‘exercise girl.’ This reminds me of when God said, I read somewhere, ‘The devil also has a place in the world – as exercise boy to try the saints.’  He tempts people to sin – that is his position.  Her position in his view from eternity is NOT IMPORTANT, so she is SHORT.  Why is she a cowgirl?  Maybe because he MILKED her for money so he could have drugs. {Even if she did not always give him drugs directly, she enabled him by paying the bills, so he could use all or most of his for substances.  He smoked regular & marijuana, drank beer, & used drugs, once he got with her, on a daily basis.  This could use up all or most of the money on a minimum wage job – she earned twice as much.  That was ‘the deal’ he told me not to ‘mess up.’

“Did you love her”?

I asked,

“I loved that I could have the drugs I wanted every day with her”

he said to me through channeling.

The RED figures on her outfit are blood, which means SUFFERING.  This says she isn’t happy.  No, how could she be?  Her actions caused his death.  If she loved him, in her own fashion & capacity, she killed the one she loved.

What are the BANDANAS around her neck, two?  This could refer to him & her, their relationship gone, it’s like two NOOSES around her neck – two deaths.

Why is she SHAPELESS?  Besides looking like that in real life to me, what does shapeless symbolize?  Someone who isn’t attractive or seductive to a man – they like shape.  And this might hint she is not attractive to Nick any more – her purpose as drug enabler is no long valid.} ***  

Below, he loved animals.  Books I did of him, with him.  Did me no good.  Did I waste all that money?  Thousands, was going to promote him with those books but he forfeited this for drugs.

 

Then I’m in a building with my two dead friends, Dan Murphy to my left, sitting there with a bunch of papers in his hands, & Mary Jane Murphy to my right, slightly higher, sitting also I guess.

And I see like a bag of kittens.  I put them on a bed, the covers are ultra soft, I let them out of the bag & kiss one on the head & it chirps like a baby chick.  There were about 5 kittens striped black on a whitish background & one yellow, like a chick.  They are twice as large as the average kitten, but they are only days old – their parents must be cats that are at least 20 lbs each by their size.  I notice how soft the fake-fur covers are on the bed – cats love softness.

 

*** {CATS OUT OF THE BAG: These are SECRETS REVEALED, sometimes inadvertently.  I need help, Mother God, I am a bit baffled.  So a secret is revealed that was not known, unexpectedly.  The secret is what?  That Nick stayed with a woman for drugs?  But why is Dan & Mary Jane here, what are the papers in Dan’s lap?

          MG:  OK let’s start with what you know.  You are revealing to one & all – writing articles – the papers in Dan’s lap.  The secret is why Nick was with this certain woman, not living with you but her.  That’s a fact no one believed, they accepted the front as if it was ‘love’.  So secret is now out of the bag – why?  Because HE DIED OF AN OVERDOSE so those who denied he was an addict were wrong.  She was with him the evening he overdosed, they spent ‘the evening together’ when he ‘died unexpectedly’,  as his ‘Go Fund Me’ account says, written by a best friend.

 

          Why Dan & Mary Jane?  You also knew a secret they would not admit or accept – that Dan got his cancer from standing with his back to the microwave oven for 8 years. It was revealed to you by God after praying.  You warned her not to use this type oven but she denied it was dangerous & used it every day.  They both eventually died, after great suffering.  Mary Jane is HIGHER – this is a terrible fact – as her oven was HIGHER than Dan’s.  Dan’s hit his back, she told you,

“Oh, my oven is higher”

And when you went to her house you noticed it was about chest level - & she had gotten lung cancer.

They represent that secrets are revealed after death – they didn’t want to believe you in real life, now in death it becomes obvious, as if reading your articles.

And this is Nick’s case all over again – the truth is now ‘out of the bag’.

It’s obvious he was a drug addict – he died of an overdose, so the story you were telling which they DENIED – saying he wasn’t a drug addict – now it’s obvious he was, so your story is BELIEVED.

THE CAT IS OUT OF THE BAG!

I will close with some of my pics of him - No one ever made or will make images of him as good as the ones I did & they are made forever. This is our history, these images are priceless - & I also have nudes & erotics of him, the erotics I will put in my books.  All I took of him was taken in 5 hours - 500 images!  I worked fast & hard!

The kittens being small, but bigger than real life, you kiss one on the head, it chirps like a chick is

“You HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD.”

The black & white kittens refer to ‘black & white’ or OBVIOUS or ‘as plain as the written word’ or ‘the writing on the wall,’ it’s a prophecy or fact revealed, in this case, a few facts, a few ‘black & white kittens.’  Being BIG is ‘a big one’ like a big fact or truth.

You have revealed several facts in your articles – the several kittens.

Now the one thing is the response from the kitten that chirps like a chick – becomes a light yellow chic - chick is another word for FEMALE.  It’s about the female he was with – why it was & her response when you kiss her on the head is similar to a YES, yes, you’re telling the truth, yes, he was there for drugs.

This is saying that what you have revealed & written is the truth.