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HAUSER & Pablo Sáinz Villegas - Spanish Romance (Live Performance)


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Tuesday, 28 November 2023

Forgiveness Releases a Soul to Heaven

 

A Lady Ascends into Heaven - My forgiveness to Nick Begets this Grace

11-28-23-Husband Visits-Becomes Arnold


 

          My spiritual husband Nick {I have 7- the rest are great Saints! - he is a mere ‘member of humanity’ that used to be my lover, not sure of his spiritual status now, just that he’s with me} has appeared as PABLO, which means his evil former self.  Pablo was a true criminal, explained elsewhere, it’s Nick AT HIS WORST.  But there’s been a total makeover & he is loving, kind & warm to me!

          There’s a series of actions toward me that are now vague, but they have to do with love – not lust.  He’s having his arm around me, taking me somewhere in a room, doing this & that, & at the end he gives me a push with the hand closed, pressing his knuckles into me to say,

“You’re alright!”

What’s so different it’s just pure love, no lust, like a good friend or companion, totally different than it was in real life, where he only addressed me for sex.






Another personality of himself, another Nick, is standing there observing, tall, handsome, looking like himself whereas the first guy looked like Pablo.  He does nothing, just watches.  Behind him is a door long ago painted medium green – it’s open - & on the top corner of the door which would be to his left is a part where the green paint got smudged or somehow worn off {it’s smooth}, a round spot of maybe 4-5” diameter.  {Small things like this can be keys in a dream; some people overlook them but pay attention to details.}

At this point Nick says to me,

“You shouldn’t love me any more,”

meaning he isn’t worth it, he didn’t earn my love.

But I answer that I will always love him.

 

Now Nick turns into ARNOLD which is one of the highest accolades meaning success.

I wish I could recall the details but so much happened this morning they were swiped away. But he takes me here & there – always HOLDING MY HAND.  He never lets my hand go.

He takes me out in public – which Nick never did.  He has WELCOMED me like a best friend or wife, before the public.

Oh yes I now recall one key scene.

There is a lady sitting on an indoor curb of sorts in front of me, me sitting as well on a curb. There seems to be a doorway behind her that opens to possibly outside, I see sky. I think Arnold hovers above us to my left.

She says,

“I need a wedding ring – for a man.”

I see a silver ring in my mind which has 3 bands.  The middle band has a flowing, floral design, not solid, a vine is curling & there’s air behind it.

I did ask her first,

“Ring for a female or male,’

& she said male.

And I have no idea what this is about.

Hoping could it be a soul in Purgatory about to become a ‘Bride of Christ?’

I had bad insomnia but I didn’t get upset as I figured it might be for souls, & I chanted to God for their help many hours. 











MEANING:

          ME:  Lost, Mother God, haven’t got a clue although I have vague ideas, but need details, facts.

MG:  Mother God to the rescue.  You have Nick standing there watcing himself in the past, when he was Pablo.  He sees the error of his ways & at the end he tells you,

“You SHOULD STOP LOVING ME”

as he did not deserve it.

That was a TEST of love.  Indeed, he did not deserve your love but you gave it to him anyway & are still doing it.  In the next scenario you’ll see the result of passing that test.

{Consider it’s easy to love someone when they behave well & are good to you.  But to love those who mistreat you takes a big step.  The Saints did it. "Bless those who spitefully use you" Jesus said.}

ME:  The door behind him

MG:  A few years back he was alive, you were seeing each other.  You are looking here ‘behind the green door’ or a place of secrecy,

 “Green door, what’s that secret you’re keeping?” From the song of the 60’s.

Look at the rubbed out paint.  It’s on the corner, which means Cross.     

          This is what he did to you.  He ‘rubbed you out’ of the public eye, removed you, you were invisible – nothing there - like that spot.  You could say he crucified you because when someone is crucified they are REMOVED.

          He now recalls Pablo, himself & he knows he was wrong, but you still loved him.

He wishes, as he looks at this scene, he had shown love, but he didn’t.

 

The next scene all is HEALED because of your love.  Success appears.  Nick, now Arnold, is portraying what he SHOULD have done, which is public acknowledgement of you – holding your hand whenever you were together, going places publicly & having you by his side.

ME:  Explain why he did what he did so people will know.  I already know.

MG:  Public pressure, peer pressure, 99% of everyone there was against you because of the age difference.  People ridiculed him, he was unable to stand up to them.  He could not admit he loved you, wanted you, in spite of your age.

Remember when that little runt of a guy spoke to him as he danced with you?  He said something like,

“Why are you dancing with that old lady?”

And Nick said,

“Because I dance better than her”

And within seconds, he walked away from you & sat down with that other couple who didn’t even invite him.

He hurt you to the core as he was too weak not to. 

Now there’s a leap into success.

He becomes ‘Superman’ in his mind, heart & will, & does what he could not do on earth. In the dream he does exactly what he could have, should have done in real life. 

And here’s the best part.  The LADY sitting near you is a Soul in Purgatory who just got a ticket to Paradise.  The RING:  It’s 3 rows for 3 people that joined together, top & bottom is you & Nick, middle is her.  The phrase is ‘I am the vine, you are the branches,’ where the two of you received Grace, it went to her.

This Love between you & Nick was the key– the open door with sky/Heaven behind her, where she will now go.

Nick’s repentance, your forgiveness, is a powerful combination that worked here.

Where the lady said she needed a RING FOR A MAN she was saying to you she needed you to give Nick A RING OF LOVE OR UNITY which would set her free!  She’d be the recipient of the love!   {end}









 

Saturday, 25 November 2023

Souls Helped & Life Movie

 

 

11-25-23 A Soul Ascends Another Helped 


          First, a quickie but goodie.  I awaken for a moment & open my front door.  I see a female standing by a vehicle in the driveway where there is none {mine is parked way to the right, this is to the left} & she STARTLES me with some kind of greeting.

          She’s dressed in a FUZZY GOLDENY outfit.  My immediate reaction is simple:  Who is she, why is she here, what does she want?  And that is it. 

          MEANING:

                    *{This is GOOD.  The person is a soul about to ascend.  The vehicle ‘where there is none’ is her vehicle to Heaven – the Grace of God, like the ‘Chariot of Fire’ which the Prophet in the Old Testament leaves with.

          She greets you because it’s hello & goodbye, it’s by way of informing you, thanking you & then gone.

The significant symbols are her outfit & the vehicle - & her sudden greeting, it says it all.}* 


My Friend Earl is Here

          Earl is significant because he fixed my broken window & didn’t charge for it.  That’s great charity – most folks around here are trying to con as many bucks as they can out of their neighbor.

OK, I have a shack down by the river, & so does Earl.  I go visit mine.  It’s very plain & simple & it’s on stilts, painted white, like several large boxes rather than a regular house, almost like dog housing for a human.

This is on a steep hillside & the stilts are to hold up the house from a lower part of the hill.

I am sitting eating some kind of food which is food but I don’t like it.  It’s in a cup & has 2 ingredients, light colored, soft.  So I eat a few bites, then I’m sick of it & the cup is paper, I squeeze it over the edge of my porch or whatever I am on, for the animals.

Earl appears to my right, sitting there, & invites me to see his shack.  I see it is exactly under mine to the left & looks like mine.

But then he somehow OPENS IT to me & I see magnificent rooms, huge rooms, all the walls painted medium blue.  They are like mansion rooms & he did it all.





I am flabbergasted & I exclaim how beautiful his rooms are, much nicer than mine!

There’s a sense of foreboding here in the wilderness as there’s wild animals around, like bears.

MEANING:

          *{ME:  I’m lost, have no idea.  I know the large beautiful rooms are a state of CONSCIOUSNESS but I still don’t get the meaning of the dream.  My shack is my state – not good, lol.  And what I’m eating or consuming I don’t like.  What is going on?

MG:  The great rooms Earl created are his good karma when he fixed your window.  He gained terrific Grace from God. In the next dream you will pay him back.

Your ‘shack’ I show miserable you were when your window was broken by a bear, & your fear of wild animals here in the wilderness, including bears, is how you felt at the time.  So this is a review.

What you were TASTING as a result of feeding wild animals, especially bears, was not good - Bad repercussion.}*

 

In the next scene I’m going somewhere with Earl – he’s either driving or one of his associates is, like with a bus.  Not sure what the errand is.

When we get to the place it’s like a factory or repair arena.  Now the bizarre part:

On the floor is a long BLACK tube, & within it is a liquid.  And within the liquid is the SON of Earl who was partially formed – like a fetus – but he was not born as he never formed fully.  But he’s alive & conscious; he can see, hear & sense people & what they say, think, etc. The pipe moves around on the floor, not sure how or why, it just moves.

And so, once in a while, I bend down & I speak to this entity or person, saying kind words, to let him know he is loved!  Am not sure how much good I do but I’m trying. 


MEANING:

          *{ME:  Mother God, what could this be?  A soul in Purgatory?  And why is he related to Earl, his son?  Who is Earl, my friend or a symbol of someone else?

MG:  Our best guess is it’s a child Earl could have had or did have, a fetus maybe not fully formed which was a miscarriage maybe, who wants to be released from its Purgatorial state because it never received LOVE.

This is your chance to repay Earl for fixing your window promptly & for FREE.

He is encased in a tube could represent ‘Fallopian tube,’ where fetuses sometimes form but cannot live.  The blackness is the lack of Love or Grace, once again, it wants & needs LOVE.  It senses, sees, it’s conscious!  And you reach this child through your efforts, & show it God’s Love!

Errol brought you here WITH HIS MIND – it’s a REPAIR place where broken souls are repaired! So you can rejoice in this errand!

I sense this is a result of your hundreds of prayers in between sleep where you say,

“Mother God, help the souls in Purgatory.”}*   {end} 

11-24-23        The Movie 

Strange dream that ended up with ONE CLUE that would be EASY TO MISS which if lost, would lose the meaning of the dream.  It says ‘pay attention to details,’ the tiniest detail could be the key to the dream!

I recall the END of the dream better than its body.  We are all, finally, invited to a movie.  Huge audience, most seats filled.  We were waiting outside in lines, all of us, wearing what seems to me the same type soft beige clothes, like the colors & texture of our clothing sort of all blends together.

Finally the theater is opened - Then another wait, again a large group of us.  The movie has to END for the previous audience before they allow us in.  I see a slight part of it through a window but it does not SPOIL the movie.  It seems like a male & female possibly lying down embracing, she wearing pink like a v-cut outfit,

{like the chemise I have, orange/pink or salmon color which has those two v’s over the breast, then soft short pants, silky.  All those images in the woods – beautiful – me, around age 50.}

Finally, after those 2 waits, we are told,

“OK, enter.”

Everyone wants a good seat, the better to see this movie we’re all eager to witness.

The seats are now empty, hundreds, they are all mostly that salmon - color with trim maybe silver, like Frank Lloyd Wright’s chair in his suite at the Plaza I just saw an image of {a bit plainer than that}.











I go through the right alley & quite a way to the front, maybe 6-8 rows from the front.  Find a seat toward the left/middle. - One seat away from an older man, grey-white hair, tall, thin, not attractive. I wonder about him – will he think I’m trying to be friendly? Will he think I want him to speak to me?  But he doesn’t mind me either way.

And to my left, right in the aisle seat, is a female, all alone like me I think,

“So I’m not the only woman who travels solo, there are others. 

Here’s a feeling that women are for some strange reason, embarrassed to do anything alone. Like they must prove they have a mate or friends.  So I don’t want to put this poor lady on the spot by asking her anything.  Her appearance is thin, fairly young, brown hair, wearing charcoal grey & a salmon vest. 

Now before the movie starts, another delay.  When will these obstacles stop & we can finally see the movie? There is a line of both males & females, young people, about 20 of them, across the entire front of the stage & screen.

One of them gives a speech, & it’s about charity.

They are speaking of NUNS or a nun, who went places & did this or that work.  And speech done, they hope for donations.

Not everyone wants to give, but I do.

I take out my purse, but it’s dark. I open it, it’s a change purse & has many dollars of change.  I wonder if I should give a handful of it.  But then my eyes light on a SILVER DOLLAR that I got somewhere for good luck.

When this young corpulent female comes up to my aisle, I proudly take out the silver dollar & hand it to her.  {Forgot to say, the lady to my left put a light on my change purse for me so I could see.}

I hand it to the girl saying,

“Here is my good luck silver dollar for you.”

And she reiterates, showing it to the next aisle, saying like wise,

“Here is a lucky silver dollar this lady gave me.” 












Then an unusual thing -  For some reason I start checking under & around my seat & I find, of all things, some potatoes & grapes.  The grapes are purple, they’re covered with dust mostly, some of them seem maybe spoiled.  The potatoes are medium size, red skins, I hold a couple in my hands.  The unusual thing about them is the roots.  They are made of some kind of thin blue plasticky material, like half a dozen on one potato bottom I hold, fluttering.

As I think of it, when I was going to dismiss this as irrelevant, I suddenly see FILM in my eyes!  And that means a lot!  It’s about the movie of my life.

I show the grapes to the old man to my right & he kind of chuckles, but not in a humorous way, more like oh how awful, don’t want to eat that.

But I say to someone the potatoes are good.  One can use them for food.  This discovery of food seems to go with the ticket of seeing this movie.

And I see nothing more, that’s it.  After all that time the movie is not shown in the dream.

 

MEANING:

          *{ME:  Here we are again, Mother God.  It’s about the movie of my life.  But what about it?

People are waiting, including me, there are obstacles & delays.

Finally we’re in the theater.  Another delay, a line of people is speaking of charity, I give the silver dollar.

Then I find fruits around me on the floor including a potato whose roots are FILM like the film for a movie.

But what does it add up to?

MG:   It seems there are two keys, your lucky silver dollar, which you give up to charity, & what seems like the result of your charity, the fruits of your life made into a film or films.

It’s kind of like God is saying to you,

“Before the movie of your life could be created, you had to fulfill a certain amount or kind of charity, symbolized by this silver dollar.

After you present it to the lady, you find the results.  FRUITS are RESULTS as like,

“The fruits of my work, the fruits of my efforts, the fruit of my sufferings.”

The grapes are the sorrows/sadness/pains, like the ‘Grapes of Wrath.’  It’s mostly the evil people felt toward you & did to you – your Mom, first husband & others.  They are covered with DUST like things of LONG AGO.

ME:  Who is this old man to my right who is repulsed by the dusty, mostly inedible grapes?

MG:  This might be your second husband, the great man who gave you so much love & security.  He now sees the shyt you went through & it disgusts him.

{He looks like the unattractive, but good man at your local grocery store who is ugly but good inside.  He married one of the younger, much more attractive female workers at the store & they have lived happily after.  He’s a good symbol for Richard.  He wasn’t much to look at, for you, but good hearted & of great benefit & you were much better looking than he.}

ME:  I almost never dream of him, he usually represents my Beloved Nick.  Why does he appear at the event of this movie?

MG:  To show you he never understood your trials & pains, but finally he sees how awful your life was.  But also fruitful, from the pain & the effort, your story emerged.

ME:  The potatoes.  Why potatoes?

MG:  Underground, secret, unseen, unheard.  Your movie is not so much how you looked, which is obvious & apparent.  Everyone knows you were beautiful.  But what’s the STORY to that?

It’s like one of those other Charles Dickens heroes that were poor, abused & downtrodden.  They were cute & sweet, Little Lord Fauntleroys, but around them were hosts of characters which were anything but that.  The players were hateful, selfish, cynical, self-serving, egotistical, con men & women – all that is BAD. Not many good souls here & there – the usual percentage in life.

          The STORY is of NO VALUE without the characters & EVENTS of your life.  How much can you say about a beautiful man or woman whose life had no ups & downs? It’s the drama that makes the story – the unusual people, twists & turns, dangers, predicaments like ‘The Perils of Pauline.’

          Let’s take ‘Great Expectations,’ a poor blacksmith apprentice in 1850’s England.  Take away the stepmother who beats on him & his stepdad, remove Miss Havisham, a weird eccentric, excise the convinct in the cemetery who secretly becomes Pip’s benefactor. Take away Jaggers, the tough, imperious lawyer.  Make it the story of a poor boy who works hard, becomes a successful blacksmith, marries the girl he loves & lives happily ever after. Story gone, no mystery, tragedy, excitement, flat as a table.

          Now look at ‘Oliver Twist,’ riddled with criminals; a murderer, thieves, the head of which is Fagin, a sinister, dirty, ugly pied piper of poor boys & girls he teaches to steal. Take the workhouse & its ‘Beadle’ with his creepy wife; unfeeling, uncaring slave drivers to the poorest of the poor – in God’s mercy appear the sweet family/s that take Oliver in & save his life, extirpate Oliver’s going from job to job, house to house, being abused by lowlife’s. Make it the ordinary life of a poor boy who finally gets out & makes it, but take away the thieves, murderers, pitfalls & dangers & you have what? “Tales to put you to sleep by.”

          To recap a bit, you had the hateful Mom & her sidekick brother. It’s her life’s obsession to destroy you, trying to convince everyone including you that you are ugly & worthless. Your escape is from New York to Hollywood, left alone on the street by the kidnapper you fail to bed. Your first husband tries to murder you & leaves you & his child penniless - cancels his life insurance just before death.  You had the con artist ‘Putz NutOn’ {real fake name: Prince Nat-hon} controlling you, then the greedy “Judy Swaggart” aka Rev Verna Talbot who puts two death curses on you which almost came to pass {LA police got involved with the first, a friend detective took you to the airport where you swore never to return to LA & only did so to do TV}.

  You got away from them both to meet rich & famous men, some of whom were black-hearts. You ‘Stripped for God,’ – the first women in history to do that,& were the ‘Progenitor’ of female body building, both ideas fraught with adversity, controversy & accusations – even threats.  At the end you become a Cougar with young males on whom youth is wasted. The one you fall in love with unites with you in death, ‘Twin Flames.’ Your life was on cliff edge many times, with men & situations, saved by your Guardian Angels.

          The lady to your left in the theater, alone, is one of your Guardian Angels who sheds Light on something for you.  It’s about charity.  It’s that your charity resulted in success {success of your life & its story, now a movie}, nothing more, nothing less. In other words, karma.  If you had been bitter, angry, blocked God with negative thoughts & feelings, your success would not have come.  But you kept your Faith, Hope & Love so here we are.

          ME:  The line of religious activists speaking of a nun.  Is the nun me?  Why a nun? Who are these people?  Why is the lady who comes up my aisle to collect fat?  What does the Silver Dollar itself represent?  Why isn’t it a hundred dollar bill for instance?

          MG:  “Not everyone wants to give” is a telling remark you make.  You are a GIVER, not a ‘taker.’  You don’t USE PEOPLE the way so common.  And because you gave, more has been & will be given to you from God – karma is real.  Those who won’t give but only take think they’re being smart.  But it’s what we sacrifice that begets the greatest Grace & success.  The parable of the Talents or the people the Lord gave money to.  One of them buried it, with no return.  The other two invested, gave it up, & returns came, so they got more.  Those people you see in your life who abused & used you, what profit did they gain? Your Mom & brother are in a low place in Heaven, not great Saints. Putz NutOn, you saw 5 demons carry him to Hell.  Rev. Verna served almost 3 years in Purgatory, a lot considering how she bragged she’d be a Light that shot up straight to Heaven when she died. Your cruel first husband, Stanley, spent the record 55 years in Purgatory, relying on your help to get him out, & you finally did.

          These 20 or so people asking for charity are Celestials – maybe all Angels, maybe Saints, maybe a combo.

          The fat lady?  Reminds me ‘It’s not over ‘till the fat lady sings.’  Lol.  This might be your patroness, St. Gertrude the Great, with whose help you gained the Interior Divine Stigmata. Why she’s fat?  Usually the ones in Heaven are thin; those on earth are fat from attachment, but see how symbols change in the context of the dream.

          Her girth goes with the ‘it’s not over’ idiom.  What happens at the end of your life, its conclusion?  It’s a Life Review.  What did you give, who were you?  What were you worth?

          The SILVER DOLLAR is a symbol of LOVE.  You gave the most important thing you have – Love, through it all. It’s not money, time or things, it’s Love that determines everything, whether one will hear ‘well done, good & faithful servant.’ If you maintain love through it all, you have accomplished the goal.

          Calling you a ‘nun’ is to recognize your vocation as ‘servant of God’ like St. Gertrude was a nun, here she is at the conclusion of your life’s work.

          And your Guardian Angel sheds light on what is important.  It’s not the money; it’s the ‘LUCK’ of the Silver Dollar you give up.  You give up your luck or Blessing or Gift. That was in the Divine Stigmata – you gave up your pleasure, bliss or peace with God & endured the shallows & wastes of human sense for eighteen years.  Was this not a proof of Godly Love?

          We don’t mention this Grace until now, when St. Gertrude shows up.  Besides everything else, the most pivotal part of your life is the relationship with God, & here, this is the most telling, dramatic & revealing of all your life’s harrows. No one even knows or believes about it even though you told the story many times – the world responds to your former sex appeal, dancing, dating, meeting men, physical phenomena, not this.

          The Guardian Angel reflects you, not herself.  She’s dressed like you.  The charcoal grey is the Cross & death, the salmon is the resurrection, - Phoenix rising or FISH as the Christian symbol.  You died & rose again spiritually, as Christians do.

          And being embarrassed to be alone is not the sense of an Angel but your human sense.

          ME:  The vague scene I see at the end, through the window, it seems I am in the embrace of someone.  Does the movie end with Nick & me being together, even though he’s dead?

          MG:  It’s a happy ending, whatever it is.  Could be Nick, could be you & God.  You’re wearing that salmon color – symbol of Godly life, resurrection.  It ends happily.  That’s all you see of the movie, lol.}*  {end}