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Thursday, 30 November 2023
HAUSER & Pablo Sáinz Villegas - Spanish Romance (Live Performance)
Tuesday, 28 November 2023
Forgiveness Releases a Soul to Heaven
A Lady Ascends into Heaven - My forgiveness to Nick Begets this Grace
11-28-23-Husband Visits-Becomes
My spiritual husband Nick {I have 7- the rest are great
Saints! - he is a mere ‘member of humanity’ that used to be my lover, not sure
of his spiritual status now, just that he’s with me} has appeared as PABLO,
which means his evil former self. Pablo
was a true criminal, explained elsewhere, it’s Nick AT HIS WORST. But there’s been a total makeover & he is
loving, kind & warm to me!
There’s a series of actions toward me that are now vague,
but they have to do with love – not lust.
He’s having his arm around me, taking me somewhere in a room, doing this
& that, & at the end he gives me a push with the hand closed, pressing
his knuckles into me to say,
“You’re
alright!”
What’s so different it’s just pure love, no lust, like a good friend or companion, totally different than it was in real life, where he only addressed me for sex.
Another
personality of himself, another Nick, is standing there observing, tall, handsome,
looking like himself whereas the first guy looked like Pablo. He does nothing, just watches. Behind him is a door long ago painted medium
green – it’s open - & on the top corner of the door which would be to his
left is a part where the green paint got smudged or somehow worn off {it’s
smooth}, a round spot of maybe 4-5” diameter.
{Small things like this can be keys in a dream; some people overlook
them but pay attention to details.}
At
this point Nick says to me,
“You
shouldn’t love me any more,”
meaning
he isn’t worth it, he didn’t earn my love.
But
I answer that I will always love him.
Now
Nick turns into
I
wish I could recall the details but so much happened this morning they were swiped
away. But he takes me here & there – always HOLDING MY HAND. He never lets my hand go.
He
takes me out in public – which Nick never did.
He has WELCOMED me like a best friend or wife, before the public.
Oh
yes I now recall one key scene.
There
is a lady sitting on an indoor curb of sorts in front of me, me sitting as well
on a curb. There seems to be a doorway behind her that opens to possibly
outside, I see sky. I think
She
says,
“I
need a wedding ring – for a man.”
I
see a silver ring in my mind which has 3 bands.
The middle band has a flowing, floral design, not solid, a vine is
curling & there’s air behind it.
I
did ask her first,
“Ring
for a female or male,’
&
she said male.
And
I have no idea what this is about.
Hoping
could it be a soul in Purgatory about to become a ‘Bride of Christ?’
I had bad insomnia but I didn’t get upset as I figured it might be for souls, & I chanted to God for their help many hours.
MEANING:
ME: Lost, Mother God, haven’t
got a clue although I have vague ideas, but need details, facts.
MG: Mother God to the rescue. You have Nick standing there watcing himself
in the past, when he was Pablo. He sees
the error of his ways & at the end he tells you,
“You
SHOULD STOP LOVING ME”
as
he did not deserve it.
That
was a TEST of love. Indeed, he did not
deserve your love but you gave it to him anyway & are still doing it. In the next scenario you’ll see the result of
passing that test.
{Consider
it’s easy to love someone when they behave well & are good to
you. But to love those who mistreat you
takes a big step. The Saints did it. "Bless those who spitefully use you" Jesus said.}
ME: The door behind him
MG: A few years back he was alive, you were seeing
each other. You are looking here ‘behind
the green door’ or a place of secrecy,
“Green door, what’s that secret you’re
keeping?” From the song of the 60’s.
Look
at the rubbed out paint. It’s on the
corner, which means Cross.
This is what he did to you. He ‘rubbed you out’ of the public eye,
removed you, you were invisible – nothing there - like that spot. You could say he crucified you because when
someone is crucified they are REMOVED.
He now recalls Pablo, himself & he knows he was wrong,
but you still loved him.
He
wishes, as he looks at this scene, he had shown love, but he didn’t.
The
next scene all is HEALED because of your love.
Success appears. Nick, now
Arnold, is portraying what he SHOULD have done, which is public acknowledgement
of you – holding your hand whenever you were together, going places publicly
& having you by his side.
ME: Explain why he did what he did so people will
know. I already know.
MG:
Public pressure, peer pressure, 99% of
everyone there was against you because of the age difference. People ridiculed him, he was unable to stand
up to them. He could not admit he loved
you, wanted you, in spite of your age.
Remember
when that little runt of a guy spoke to him as he danced with you? He said something like,
“Why
are you dancing with that old lady?”
And
Nick said,
“Because
I dance better than her”
And
within seconds, he walked away from you & sat down with that other couple
who didn’t even invite him.
He
hurt you to the core as he was too weak not to.
Now
there’s a leap into success.
He
becomes ‘Superman’ in his mind, heart & will, & does what he could not
do on earth. In the dream he does exactly what he could have, should have done
in real life.
And
here’s the best part. The LADY sitting
near you is a Soul in Purgatory who just got a ticket to
This
Love between you & Nick was the key– the open door with sky/Heaven behind
her, where she will now go.
Nick’s
repentance, your forgiveness, is a powerful combination that worked here.
Where the lady said she needed a RING FOR A MAN she was saying to you she needed you to give Nick A RING OF LOVE OR UNITY which would set her free! She’d be the recipient of the love! {end}
Saturday, 25 November 2023
Souls Helped & Life Movie
First, a quickie but goodie. I awaken for a moment & open my front
door. I see a female standing by a
vehicle in the driveway where there is none {mine is parked way to the right,
this is to the left} & she STARTLES me with some kind of greeting.
She’s dressed in a FUZZY GOLDENY outfit. My immediate reaction is simple: Who is she, why is she here, what does she want? And that is it.
MEANING:
*{This is GOOD. The person is a soul about to ascend. The vehicle ‘where there is none’ is her
vehicle to Heaven – the Grace of God, like the ‘Chariot of Fire’ which the
Prophet in the Old Testament leaves with.
She greets you because it’s hello & goodbye, it’s by
way of informing you, thanking you & then gone.
The
significant symbols are her outfit & the vehicle - & her sudden
greeting, it says it all.}*
My
Friend Earl is Here
Earl is significant because he fixed my broken window & didn’t
charge for it. That’s great charity –
most folks around here are trying to con as many bucks as they can out of their
neighbor.
OK,
I have a shack down by the river, & so does Earl. I go visit mine. It’s very plain & simple & it’s on
stilts, painted white, like several large boxes rather than a regular house,
almost like dog housing for a human.
This
is on a steep hillside & the stilts are to hold up the house from a lower
part of the hill.
I am
sitting eating some kind of food which is food but I don’t like it. It’s in a cup & has 2 ingredients, light
colored, soft. So I eat a few bites,
then I’m sick of it & the cup is paper, I squeeze it over the edge of my
porch or whatever I am on, for the animals.
Earl
appears to my right, sitting there, & invites me to see his shack. I see it is exactly under mine to the left
& looks like mine.
But
then he somehow OPENS IT to me & I see magnificent rooms, huge rooms, all
the walls painted medium blue. They are
like mansion rooms & he did it all.
I am
flabbergasted & I exclaim how beautiful his rooms are, much nicer than
mine!
There’s
a sense of foreboding here in the wilderness as there’s wild animals around,
like bears.
MEANING:
*{ME: I’m lost, have no idea. I know the large beautiful rooms are a state
of CONSCIOUSNESS but I still don’t get the meaning of the dream. My shack is my state – not good, lol. And what I’m eating or consuming I don’t
like. What is going on?
MG: The great rooms Earl created are his good
karma when he fixed your window. He
gained terrific Grace from God. In the next dream you will pay him back.
Your
‘shack’ I show miserable you were when your window was broken by a bear, &
your fear of wild animals here in the wilderness, including bears, is how you
felt at the time. So this is a review.
What
you were TASTING as a result of feeding wild animals, especially bears, was not
good - Bad repercussion.}*
In
the next scene I’m going somewhere
with Earl – he’s either driving or one of his associates is, like with a bus. Not sure what the errand is.
When
we get to the place it’s like a factory or repair arena. Now the bizarre part:
On
the floor is a long BLACK tube, & within it is a liquid. And within the liquid is the SON of Earl who
was partially formed – like a fetus – but he was not born as he never formed
fully. But he’s alive & conscious;
he can see, hear & sense people & what they say, think, etc. The pipe
moves around on the floor, not sure how or why, it just moves.
And so, once in a while, I bend down & I speak to this entity or person, saying kind words, to let him know he is loved! Am not sure how much good I do but I’m trying.
MEANING:
*{ME: Mother God, what could this be? A soul in Purgatory? And why is he related to Earl, his son? Who is Earl, my friend or a symbol of someone
else?
MG: Our best guess is it’s a child Earl could
have had or did have, a fetus maybe not fully formed which was a miscarriage
maybe, who wants to be released from its Purgatorial state because it never
received LOVE.
This
is your chance to repay Earl for fixing your window promptly & for FREE.
He
is encased in a tube could represent ‘Fallopian tube,’ where fetuses sometimes
form but cannot live. The blackness is
the lack of Love or Grace, once again, it wants & needs LOVE. It senses, sees, it’s conscious! And you reach this child through your
efforts, & show it God’s Love!
Errol
brought you here WITH HIS MIND – it’s a REPAIR place where broken souls are
repaired! So you can rejoice in this errand!
I
sense this is a result of your hundreds of prayers in between sleep where you
say,
“Mother
God, help the souls in Purgatory.”}*
{end}
11-24-23
The Movie
Strange
dream that ended up with ONE CLUE that would be EASY TO MISS which if lost,
would lose the meaning of the dream. It
says ‘pay attention to details,’ the tiniest detail could be the key to the
dream!
I
recall the END of the dream better than its body. We are all, finally, invited to a movie. Huge audience, most seats filled. We were waiting outside in lines, all of us,
wearing what seems to me the same type soft beige clothes, like the colors
& texture of our clothing sort of all blends together.
Finally
the theater is opened - Then another wait, again a large group of us. The movie has to END for the previous
audience before they allow us in. I see
a slight part of it through a window but it does not SPOIL the movie. It seems like a male & female possibly
lying down embracing, she wearing pink like a v-cut outfit,
{like
the chemise I have, orange/pink or salmon color which has those two v’s over
the breast, then soft short pants, silky.
All those images in the woods – beautiful – me, around age 50.}
Finally,
after those 2 waits, we are told,
“OK,
enter.”
Everyone
wants a good seat, the better to see this movie we’re all eager to witness.
The
seats are now empty, hundreds, they are all mostly that salmon - color with
trim maybe silver, like Frank Lloyd Wright’s chair in his suite at the Plaza I
just saw an image of {a bit plainer than that}.
I go
through the right alley & quite a way to the front, maybe 6-8 rows from the
front. Find a seat toward the
left/middle. - One seat away from an older man, grey-white hair, tall, thin,
not attractive. I wonder about him – will he think I’m trying to be friendly?
Will he think I want him to speak to me?
But he doesn’t mind me either way.
And
to my left, right in the aisle seat, is a female, all alone like me I think,
“So
I’m not the only woman who travels solo, there are others.
Here’s
a feeling that women are for some strange reason, embarrassed to do anything
alone. Like they must prove they have a mate or friends. So I don’t want to put this poor lady on the
spot by asking her anything. Her
appearance is thin, fairly young, brown hair, wearing charcoal grey & a
salmon vest.
Now
before the movie starts, another delay.
When will these obstacles stop & we can finally see the movie? There
is a line of both males & females, young people, about 20 of them, across
the entire front of the stage & screen.
One
of them gives a speech, & it’s about charity.
They
are speaking of NUNS or a nun, who went places & did this or that work. And speech done, they hope for donations.
Not
everyone wants to give, but I do.
I
take out my purse, but it’s dark. I open it, it’s a change purse & has many
dollars of change. I wonder if I should
give a handful of it. But then my eyes
light on a SILVER DOLLAR that I got somewhere for good luck.
When
this young corpulent female comes up to my aisle, I proudly take out the silver
dollar & hand it to her. {Forgot to
say, the lady to my left put a light on my change purse for me so I could see.}
I
hand it to the girl saying,
“Here
is my good luck silver dollar for you.”
And
she reiterates, showing it to the next aisle, saying like wise,
“Here is a lucky silver dollar this lady gave me.”
Then
an unusual thing - For some reason I
start checking under & around my seat & I find, of all things, some
potatoes & grapes. The grapes are
purple, they’re covered with dust mostly, some of them seem maybe spoiled. The potatoes are medium size, red skins, I
hold a couple in my hands. The unusual
thing about them is the roots. They are
made of some kind of thin blue plasticky material, like half a dozen on one
potato bottom I hold, fluttering.
As I
think of it, when I was going to dismiss this as irrelevant, I suddenly see
FILM in my eyes! And that means a
lot! It’s about the movie of my life.
I
show the grapes to the old man to my right & he kind of chuckles, but not
in a humorous way, more like oh how awful, don’t want to eat that.
But
I say to someone the potatoes are good.
One can use them for food. This
discovery of food seems to go with the ticket of seeing this movie.
And
I see nothing more, that’s it. After all
that time the movie is not shown in the dream.
MEANING:
*{ME:
Here we are again, Mother God.
It’s about the movie of my life.
But what about it?
People
are waiting, including me, there are obstacles & delays.
Finally
we’re in the theater. Another delay, a
line of people is speaking of charity, I give the silver dollar.
Then
I find fruits around me on the floor including a potato whose roots are FILM
like the film for a movie.
But
what does it add up to?
MG: It seems there are two keys, your lucky
silver dollar, which you give up to charity, & what seems like the result
of your charity, the fruits of your life made into a film or films.
It’s
kind of like God is saying to you,
“Before
the movie of your life could be created, you had to fulfill a certain amount or
kind of charity, symbolized by this silver dollar.
After
you present it to the lady, you find the results. FRUITS are RESULTS as like,
“The
fruits of my work, the fruits of my efforts, the fruit of my sufferings.”
The
grapes are the sorrows/sadness/pains, like the ‘Grapes of Wrath.’ It’s mostly the evil people felt toward you
& did to you – your Mom, first husband & others. They are covered with DUST like things of
LONG AGO.
ME: Who is this old man to my right who is
repulsed by the dusty, mostly inedible grapes?
MG: This might be your second husband, the great
man who gave you so much love & security.
He now sees the shyt you went through & it disgusts him.
{He
looks like the unattractive, but good man at your local grocery store who is
ugly but good inside. He married one of
the younger, much more attractive female workers at the store & they have
lived happily after. He’s a good symbol
for Richard. He wasn’t much to look at,
for you, but good hearted & of great benefit & you were much better
looking than he.}
ME: I almost never dream of him, he usually
represents my Beloved Nick. Why does he
appear at the event of this movie?
MG: To show you he never understood your trials
& pains, but finally he sees how awful your life was. But also fruitful, from the pain & the
effort, your story emerged.
ME: The potatoes.
Why potatoes?
MG: Underground, secret, unseen, unheard. Your movie is not so much how you looked,
which is obvious & apparent.
Everyone knows you were beautiful.
But what’s the STORY to that?
It’s
like one of those other Charles Dickens heroes that were poor, abused &
downtrodden. They were cute & sweet,
Little Lord Fauntleroys, but around them were hosts of characters which were
anything but that. The players were
hateful, selfish, cynical, self-serving, egotistical, con men & women – all
that is BAD. Not many good souls here & there – the usual percentage in
life.
The STORY is of NO VALUE without the characters &
EVENTS of your life. How much can you
say about a beautiful man or woman whose life had no ups & downs? It’s the
drama that makes the story – the unusual people, twists & turns, dangers,
predicaments like ‘The Perils of Pauline.’
Let’s take ‘Great Expectations,’ a poor blacksmith
apprentice in 1850’s
Now look at ‘Oliver Twist,’ riddled with criminals; a
murderer, thieves, the head of which is Fagin, a sinister, dirty, ugly pied
piper of poor boys & girls he teaches to steal. Take the workhouse &
its ‘Beadle’ with his creepy wife; unfeeling, uncaring slave drivers to the
poorest of the poor – in God’s mercy appear the sweet family/s that take Oliver
in & save his life, extirpate Oliver’s going from job to job, house to
house, being abused by lowlife’s. Make it the ordinary life of a poor boy who
finally gets out & makes it, but take away the thieves, murderers, pitfalls
& dangers & you have what? “Tales to put you to sleep by.”
To recap a bit, you had the hateful Mom & her sidekick
brother. It’s her life’s obsession to destroy you, trying to convince everyone
including you that you are ugly & worthless. Your escape is from
You got away from them both to meet rich
& famous men, some of whom were black-hearts. You ‘Stripped for God,’ – the
first women in history to do that,& were the ‘Progenitor’ of female body
building, both ideas fraught with adversity, controversy & accusations –
even threats. At the end you become a
Cougar with young males on whom youth is wasted. The one you fall in love with
unites with you in death, ‘Twin Flames.’ Your life was on cliff edge many
times, with men & situations, saved by your Guardian Angels.
The lady to your left in the theater, alone, is one of your
Guardian Angels who sheds Light on something for you. It’s about charity. It’s that your charity resulted in success
{success of your life & its story, now a movie}, nothing more, nothing
less. In other words, karma. If you had
been bitter, angry, blocked God with negative thoughts & feelings, your
success would not have come. But you
kept your Faith, Hope & Love so here we are.
ME: The line of
religious activists speaking of a nun.
Is the nun me? Why a nun? Who are
these people? Why is the lady who comes
up my aisle to collect fat? What does
the Silver Dollar itself represent? Why
isn’t it a hundred dollar bill for instance?
MG: “Not everyone
wants to give” is a telling remark you make.
You are a GIVER, not a ‘taker.’
You don’t USE PEOPLE the way so common.
And because you gave, more has been & will be given to you from God
– karma is real. Those who won’t give
but only take think they’re being smart.
But it’s what we sacrifice that begets the greatest Grace & success. The parable of the Talents or the people the
Lord gave money to. One of them buried
it, with no return. The other two
invested, gave it up, & returns came, so they got more. Those people you see in your life who abused
& used you, what profit did they gain? Your Mom & brother are in a low
place in Heaven, not great Saints. Putz NutOn, you saw 5 demons carry him to
Hell. Rev. Verna served almost 3 years
in Purgatory, a lot considering how she bragged she’d be a Light that shot up
straight to Heaven when she died. Your cruel first husband, Stanley, spent the
record 55 years in Purgatory, relying on your help to get him out, & you
finally did.
These 20 or so people asking for charity are Celestials –
maybe all Angels, maybe Saints, maybe a combo.
The fat lady?
Reminds me ‘It’s not over ‘till the fat lady sings.’ Lol.
This might be your patroness, St. Gertrude the Great, with whose help
you gained the Interior Divine Stigmata. Why she’s fat? Usually the ones in Heaven are thin; those on
earth are fat from attachment, but see how symbols change in the context of the
dream.
Her girth goes with the ‘it’s not over’ idiom. What happens at the end of your life, its
conclusion? It’s a Life Review. What did you give, who were you? What were you worth?
The SILVER DOLLAR is a symbol of LOVE. You gave the most important thing you have –
Love, through it all. It’s not money, time or things, it’s Love that determines
everything, whether one will hear ‘well done, good & faithful servant.’ If
you maintain love through it all, you have accomplished the goal.
Calling you a ‘nun’ is to recognize your vocation as
‘servant of God’ like St. Gertrude was a nun, here she is at the conclusion of
your life’s work.
And your Guardian Angel sheds light on what is
important. It’s not the money; it’s the
‘LUCK’ of the Silver Dollar you give up.
You give up your luck or Blessing or Gift. That was in the Divine
Stigmata – you gave up your pleasure, bliss or peace with God & endured
the shallows & wastes of human sense for eighteen years. Was this not a proof of Godly Love?
We don’t mention this Grace until now, when St. Gertrude
shows up. Besides everything else, the
most pivotal part of your life is the relationship with God, & here, this
is the most telling, dramatic & revealing of all your life’s harrows. No
one even knows or believes about it even though you told the story many times –
the world responds to your former sex appeal, dancing, dating, meeting men,
physical phenomena, not this.
The Guardian Angel reflects you, not herself. She’s dressed like you. The charcoal grey is the Cross & death,
the salmon is the resurrection, -
And being embarrassed to be alone is not the sense of an
Angel but your human sense.
ME: The vague scene
I see at the end, through the window, it seems I am in the embrace of
someone. Does the movie end with Nick
& me being together, even though he’s dead?
MG: It’s a happy
ending, whatever it is. Could be Nick,
could be you & God. You’re wearing
that salmon color – symbol of Godly life, resurrection. It ends happily. That’s all you see of the movie, lol.}* {end}