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Friday, 11 April 2025
Meaningful Dreams - Purgatory & Karma
To start with Nick. He is avoiding me & hurting me. He’s
tarrying with this fat girl. But as he’s with her I notice he’s inching toward
me. I’m sitting talking to people doing something. He’s behind me & with
the girl & getting closer & closer, pretending he wants to be with her
but getting so close he can feel my vibes, I can feel his presence.
She’s getting frustrated as they have nothing to do. She sits
there like they are at a picnic outside but it seems inside & she’s got
some pages, like cardboard ones, in her hands, which are light brown designs.
They did something & there’s like NOTHING for them to do & she’s
getting so bored & expects him to entertain her, have something on the
agenda, but he hasn’t.
He’s playing a game – deluding himself & everyone – that he’s
with her but there’s nothing there & he’s getting closer to me. This is a
mind game & its hurting me.
MEANING:
*{ME to MOTHER GOD: I know this is about Nick & his druggie
friend Ruthie, who did get fat. But what does it mean? In real life, indeed, he
was carrying on this game & it hurt me. Pretending he wanted to be with his
partner, but wanting to actually be with me all the time. What is it here that
frustrates her, that they have nothing to do & he has no activity for them?
And what are the brown papers with designs?
MG: He is reaping what he sowed - & so are you to be shown
down the dream. Now he’s in the ‘underdog’ position. When living, he carried
the onus of hurting you & boy, did he. But now, he can’t hurt you any more
because you got over the ‘in love’ addiction to him even before he died – then
he died, then he really could no longer hurt you. But he is alive in spirit,
& now it’s his turn to suffer, & he is. Ruthie is suffering also
because she really LOST something – she has none of this fake love any more. He
can do nothing for her, he has no power. She somehow waits & hopes for
something, but nothing happens.
The brown designed
papers – papers here are MESSAGES, like ‘the writing on the wall’ is
prophecy – receiving a letter in a dream is receiving knowledge or information.
Some papers are flat in front of her, one she holds in her hand. BROWN – this
is light brown – is depression. Light brown is not the worst, but it is sadness
or sorrow. She is depressed because of him – not having him – not having any
more activity with him.
But what is he doing?- Trying to get closer & closer to you in
the spiritual realm – to feel your love. But he no longer has the onus or the
top banana position, he has to inch like a worm, & here they are both on
the floor with a blanket like the picnic scene – they are not high up or
evolved. You can feel his NEED & it offers you some consolation but still,
he has much to pay for karmically. You have seen before in God’s explanations
that now he is forever waiting for you to notice him as you were forever
waiting for him to come to you – he made you wait weeks with no date, he
blocked you from his Face book & treated you in cavalier style. But now –
it’s the opposite. You are not trying to hurt him, but simply have not much
need of him, like you might need Jesus, Mary or a saint. He’s just Nick – who
had a body to please you with, but now his body is gone.}*
But then relief comes. I have appeared here as a celebrity. Dozens
of children have been watching me, near the door, peering at me like you would
at someone famous you are shy about.
Then all at once, as I lie on my back, they come in & surround
me & their little heads all above me – pleasant faces – smiling or not they
are happy. They are all wearing bright, colorful clothes, some with flounces.
They stay a while, consoling me, then they leave.
*{These are souls in Purgatory, to whom I am a celebrity - &
they treat me with love & respect I don’t get much in real life So they
make me happy, I am consoled. The flounces on the clothing remind me of period
costumes – outfits from a bygone era, which might be saying, some have been in
Purgatory a while.}*
Then I decide to see about a new apt. I speak to a real estate man, who seems like a baker, dressed like that, a white cotton bandana around his head, white garments but not fully covered. Like an image I saw of a baker. 💚💚💚💚💚
Below, the late Nick, my twin flame, united with me forever.
He
takes me to a building, ushers me in, takes me to one apt. Oh, how horrible. A
little room to the right – no windows – it’s about 4’x6’, & a tiny room in
front which has a shower – with a curtain in front of it – that’s all there is.
I ask him to show me another one, he does, and it’s almost the same. As I leave
I say to him,
“I
already have a house & an apt” & I was thinking of finding one that
would overlook the ocean – my mind was on luxury. As I walked here I now
recall, a path - there’s a girl near me, & my mind was on wealth that’s
coming to me.
*{These
two apts - miserable as can be – are Purgatorial premises. Who are they for?
Ruthie & Nick or random souls? Ruthie is living so this might be saying
it’s the Purgatory she’s in now – no windows means no opportunities, smallness
is limitation. Limitation is a prison, a jail with walls you can’t get out of.
And Nick is in the same sort of prison. It’s been shown me that he’s living
both his Purgatory & partial Heaven with me. Most of the time he’s in
Purgatory {less happy than I am because he hasn’t earned my happiness & he
waits for me to dole out some of it to him} but on rare occasions when God
gives me Bliss he might share it – that is both punishment & reward he is
getting karmically – the good times because he did give me some joy once in a
blue moon.
Who
is the BAKER presenting me this? Definitely refers to Bl. Sacrament - I say the
holy Mass nearly every day. And so it might be because of this that God grants
me the VISION of where these people are. “Vision” comes from CHARITY – the more
charity the more vision or understanding one begets.
Thinking
about wealth & luxury – overlooking the ocean – is anticipating my Joy or
‘mansion’ in Heaven The girl walking with me is my flesh – it is my flesh that
gains the future Fulfillment, the works & karma my flesh begets.}* {End}
The
date is approximate. I was in a room & a distinguished {serious,
formidable} man & lady walk by in the hallway. I want to impress the man.
He
comes into my room. I have a box of shoes – ordinary – black loafers, other
shoes, some used & therefore not spotless. But in this box are two pairs of
exquisite high heel sandals in red – this is what I want to impress him with.
*{I
SENSE the man & woman are Jesus & Mary. I want to impress Him with
something spiritual
SHOES
represent ‘walk a mile in my shoes.’ They are my consciousness or experience.
Ordinary shoes are every day l
It
was about this time my beloved tiger cat Tommy disappeared – he’s been visiting
me about 10 years – spending much time with me, eating at least two big meals a
day at my house.}*
As
he stands before me I pick up one shoe & both he & I seem to have our
hands on it, but we fumble & it slides down the front of his body – which
embarrasses me. *{Fumble is a failure in football. Maybe I failed @ some
spiritual point. So it embarrasses me before the Lord.}* But that’s not the shoe I wanted to show him
anyway.
I
take out one of the second pair & show him.
*{The
other shoe probably says my grief over Tommy being gone – I dream he is badly
hurt but don’t know from what & a week after this I see him in Heaven. Is
this the step of suffering for me?}* {End}
Thursday, 10 April 2025
4-10-25
When Amish Eyes are Crying
Rasa Von Werder
This refers to the ‘Anabaptist’ sects, which include Amish, Mennonites, Hutterites, Bretheren, River Bretheren, Church of the Bretheren, Schwarzenau Bretheren, Bruderhof & Apostolic Christian Church. The ones which this article is based on are mostly Amish, Mennonites & Hutterites
I knew I would find ‘the crack’ – sooner or later.
{The crack in their false front, the veneer, the whitewash, the pubic relations
bullshyt}. It came with two videos on You tube. First, oh, how telling this
was: women are not provided KOTEX {or tampons} – they use old materials that
they sew into pouches which they affix to their person & when they are
bloodied they have to wash them by hand & dry them away from male eyes some
place to be used again!
When I was 22 I knew a female who told me when she was a
girl, her Mom had her & her sisters use rags for Kotex & laundered it
in the cellar & they were used again. She said the whole cellar smelled
like blood - Disgusting.
Similarly, at the same time, no TOILET PAPER was given by
the ‘providers’ – the men {lol} & one sect was using old fabrics which were
also laundered & re-used. Ugh! Another sect used ONLY newspapers cut into
pieces, & this was with families of 20 kids! Years later they graduated to
normal toilet paper. {And mind you, they don’t have bathrooms – only out
houses! Imagine the STINK! {We had an out house at the homestead & the
stink was strong – you don’t flesh the waste it just sits there!}
Second, girls have no sex education whatever on their
periods, what sex means & how pregnancy occurs. The narrator said presumably
they learn from seeing the farm animals.
And during pregnancy, the women are not provided health
care {except in rare cases} or assistance from a doctor or even a midwife –
it’s usually an older woman in the community who helps.
The narrator says because of privacy women never speak of
menstruation, sex, childbirth or the like. This is chilling. What does it mean?
Why would the men forbid this {yes it’s the men who rule everything.}
I will ask Mother God what this means, as I’ve never
thought about such an issue before:
MG: It’s to separate the women from each other, so there
would be no talk of things that are relevant & meaningful to them– the
things that worry them, concern them. Its this & other issues – intimacy
{sex} – falling in love – there are thousands of ideas & thoughts women
could hash out which are mentally, physically, emotionally & spiritually
relevant. It seems that the men not only want to deprive women of freedom of
speech to the outside world, but freedom of speech with each other. They are
stifling sisterhood – they
are preventing women bonding.
And so a screen is drawn between women – by the men – so
that the slaves would not empower one another or God forbid PLOT against the
men or raise questions the men don’t want to answer. Like for instance – why do
men rule & why don’t the women have leadership?
ME: I notice there
are no female groups like sodalities or discussion groups or prayer groups or
support groups strictly for women. There is nothing ‘for women only’ as that would empower them.
Another BIG ISSUE is there is no birth control, certainly
no CONDOMS. It’s not even spoken of. And like everything else, the men tell
them God wants children, children are a blessings, etc., that old chestnut that
comes up when people want to keep us barefoot, pregnant & busy, full time
occupied with children. The families run six to twenty kids. Imagine a woman
with twenty kids trying to run away?
Me channeling: Mother God, what is the attitude of the men,
I mean, their public relations videos have a powerful front & they hide
behind their FAITH. Faith is everything. I don’t believe it for one minute. I
think they’re hiding behind it like child abusers hide behind the Cross. I saw one holding the Cross in front of him
like Jesus would protect him from punishment! What do they really want, what is
their agenda here? It isn’t faith, its control of women isn’t it?
MG: It runs like this: Long ago they left their Protestant
brethren over a conflict re Baptism. That issue has long been played out. The
real concern in a society that does not allow women freedom is control. Take
charge of the women - no discussions for them, no back talk, just keep them constantly
pregnant & therefore enslaved. They can’t run away with several children
especially if you have no place to go, & even if there were places, they
can’t find them because they have no access to media. No internet, no phones,
no phone books, no outside friends, no outside meetings – can’t drive cars
{even if they have them, like the Mennonites do have cars} have no escape
routes or destinations. It’s as sure as if there was an electric fence around
them, or locked iron bars.
What about the SEPARATION of the sect from the OUTSIDE
WORLD? The men say the world is an evil place – the domain of Satan. OK, there
is some truth to that. Part of it IS Satan. But there are also millions, even
billions, of believers & lovers of God,
more than one way to skin a cat, more than one religion, one way of
worship – God is Infinity & therefore there is NO ONE RELIGION that
embodies it all, knows it all, can do all the worship, the rituals &
prayers that would occupy God. We see in part an Infinite Being. What WORKS for
us is the way to go. God will appear to us & answer us in the way that we
worship HER. Say, we worship God in TREES. God can appear as a tree. Say we
worship God in fire, or the Sun. God can manifest that way. Why? Because God is
all things to all people & God lives everywhere & in all things – there
is no ONE ANSWER to the ways & meanings of God!
So for these men or any men to say their way is the only
way is Poppy Cock! And then they infringe & enforce their beliefs on all
the women they have corralled & their children, & these become slaves
of a religion. The Muslims are famous for that – keep women in harems. And mind
you these Anabaptists are not far from that!
Look at the UNIFORMS. The women, in all these sects {&
including some of the Mormons & other tyrannical male-dominated religions}
wear only BAGGY, shapeless garb & headdresses. Nothing distinguishes one
woman from another; they are hidden under these yards of cloth, their hair
hidden, no makeup, similar to being in burquas. Nothing wrong with this except
it is the required cover demanded by men – like branding a woman the way they
brand cattle, ‘This belongs to me,’ ‘she is mine, I cover up my treasure, my
bank account, let no man see her, see the password, or steal her.’
OK
let’s recap the first crack that awakened me to what they really are. No Kotex,
tampax, no sex education or pregnancy help, no sorority, women cannot join or
help one another. Women shrouded in garments that conceal, women deprived of
all ways to communicate with the outside world, & children are as enslaved
as the women. Only men rule, they have a voice, most elders are men, all
Bishops or spiritual leaders are men – they consider the male the head of the family.
Women have no voice inside
or outside the community, not even with each other.
Women
are breeding machines, set to go at all times - & there is no love – only
FAITH they say – you are not to have feelings or ‘passion’ – this is vanity
& pride. You are to do what is good for the community, breed for the
community & have FAITH in God – that is all that matters; you as an
individual don’t matter, you don’t have personal rights, only those that serve
the community. And what is the community? A male brotherhood – Patriarchy at
its zenith! Equality? Never heard of it! Female Superiority! That would be
Satanic!
OK
now the next video that opened my eyes. A twelve year old girl gets pregnant
& she is attended by an outside doctor {not sure how that came about but
maybe her age.} The doc asks who did she have sex with? Her FOUR BROTHERS HAVE
BEEN RAPING HER ROUTINELY. By law outside authorities HAVE TO
REPORT THIS {it’s probably the reason why these Anabaptists don’t subscribe to
welfare or take any kind of money from the govt at any time – if you’re on
welfare then the social services has the right to enter your home, interview
you & the kids, have a part in what is going on. They want to stay SECRET!}
So
it gets reported. It goes to trial. Two of the males get off the hook as they
are underage {why let them off? Put them in juvenile detention facilities!} Two
older ones admit their crimes, are convicted & then – BINGO – no jail time!
Only probation & if they don’t keep the terms of probation they do get 15
years. Well, they do not keep their probation, but nothing is done - & how
is the girl now protected?
They
all go back home – the victim - her
child I presume - & the rapists. The males were forbidden to SEE her again,
terms of the probation, but they again LIVE IN THE SAME HOUSE! I am NOT MAKING THIS UP!
Oh
surprise, surprise. The tiny demon Patriarchy has leached into the BIG demon
Patriarchy – the outside world & what do you expect? Justice?
What
is needed here is what I hope to do. I am composing the New Religion for women
with a future Order of Safe Space for them & their children; our own rules,
zeitgeist, agenda, POV, rituals, leadership, priestesses, economics, education
& all that is wanted & needed for health, wealth & happiness. And
our focus will be on individuality not against it, the forum to express one’s own
personal desires for the arts, intellect, sports, etc. -A
Back
to the videos: And what was enlightening
was two female victims of such abuse interviewed. Only because of outside help
were they liberated. They explain how impossible it is for them to reach out
for help – they don’t even know who to go to, where to get help. One of them
was told by an outsider she had to go to the police, but the police said there
was nothing they could do. Eventually she escaped, I did not see the rest of
the interview how. But it is next to impossible for these women to escape the
male system that’s got it figured out how to keep them under control. And mind you, brainwashing from infancy is
part of the method – many believe they’ll go to Hell if they leave the sect!
Lesson to me: Don’t believe the fancy lies the Amish tell how clean, how holy, how sanctified, how righteous they are, just a bunch of farmers living off the land, traditional, self reliant, living off grid & away from demonic forces: Nothing but good clean fun on the ole’ farmer coast, no sins – all the sins are outside. What they really are is breeding farms where women do as they are told & abuse will not be reported & it is a wonder & a miracle any of them can escape.
ADDENDUM:
The
issue of CLOTHING is a BIG DEAL. Women ADVERTISE by the way they dress. If they
want to attract a man, they dress sexy, or beautiful, according to what ‘the
market may bear.’ Some occasions you can’t dress ‘sexy’ but beautiful does the
trick. Men are attracted by looks – certain clothing is a lure, a temptation,
& a message that speaks,
“I
am available to a man. I am seeking male companionship.”
Example:
I used to go to a tiny restaurant near my house, ordinary, with ordinary
waitresses. One was dowdy. But one day I went in there & she was wearing
makeup & a low cut top. I was mighty surprised. During our conversation she
revealed “my boyfriend has left me.”
She
didn’t last long – some guy picked her up, even though she was average &
somewhat overweight. He probably wasn’t much, but he was a man. She advertised,
she nailed him. And she disappeared because I guess he supported her.
Muslims & Anabaptists want to prevent women from advertising, luring men in. Even within the community, other men would get attracted to a female if she dressed interesting or especially, sexy. If she shows ‘what she’s got’ he wants it. So these men, who want to hold women for themselves, want to prevent them from attracting other men. Hide what they got. {End} Rasa Von Werder
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