2-2-20-PEEPING TOM & ICY SLUDGE 4’ THICK-Refers to male seeking my secrets & forthcoming grace

DREAM INTERPRETATION FROM RASA VON WERDER.  FOR RASA'S BOOK ON DREAMS PLEASE SEE 'THEATER OF JUSTICE' ON LULU & AMAZON.

          It’s the middle of the night, dark.  My daughter & I decided to lie down & rest together on my front porch, not sure why – maybe we just wanted to enjoy the fresh air, the beauty of the night.  (Our view is lovely, across the road is a sloping hill with large trees, a creek running through the middle.)  As I said, it’s night but not pitch dark, sort of in between moon, dim, but we can see.

          (THIS BEING ABLE TO SEE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT HINTS AT PSYCHIC OR SPIRITUAL VISION.  THE NIGHT IS A TIME OF DARKNESS / MYSTERY, BUT IF YOU CAN SEE WITHIN IT THEN YOUR VISION / UNDERSTANDING IS STRONG.

          ‘DAUGHTER & I’ IS FLESH & I.  I AM 99% THE DREAMER, IT’S THE GOD-ME.  MY DAUGHTER IN MOST OF MY DREAMS IS THE LOWER SELF.  LATELY I’VE SEE HER CLOSE TO ME A LOT BECAUSE WE’VE BEEN WORKING ON THE UNION WITH ME OR THE ‘NONDUALITY.’)

          Then to our surprise a truck stops across the road right in front of our house, an old truck & the back of it (with no railing or gate, open) is loaded with what looks like cole slaw & maybe other veggies, - there’s a light glowing around the veggies.

(STUMPED.  WHAT WOULD VEGGIES REPRESENT, ESPECIALLY COLE SLAW, MOTHER GOD?

SHE:  A TRUCKLOAD OF HEALTH FOODS—THEY ARE RAW.  YOU ESPECIALLY LIKE COLE SLAW & KNOW IT’S HEALTHY, MOM ALWAYS SAYS THE CLICHÉ ‘EAT YOUR VEGGIES.’

BUT WHAT DOES IT MEAN IN THE CONTEXT OF THIS DREAM?

WHAT A MAN CARRIES – HIS LOAD, IS GOOD OR BAD.  THIS MAN CARRIES GOOD.  THE LIGHT AROUND THE VEGGIES CONFIRMS IT’S GOOD.  THIS IS PROBABLY SPIRITUAL IDEAS, THOUGHTS, FEELINGS THIS MAN CARRIES.)

          The man gets out of the struck, comes up to our porch where it looks like he doesn’t see us lying there.  We don’t know who he is, why he’s here, we don’t feel totally safe.  He’s a man we don’t know, what if he attacks us?

          (THIS MAN IS EXTREMELY CURIOUS ABOUT YOU.  IT MIGHT BE THE NONDUALITY TEACHER YOU CONTACTED WHO DISMISSED YOU, BUT NEVERTHELESS, HE’S THINKING ABOUT YOU & HE WANTS TO KNOW YOUR SECRETS.

          LOWER SELF TOGETHER ENJOYING THE NIGHT IT REPRESENTS MY NONDUALITY OR UNION WITH GOD—WHICH HE DOES NOT TAKE NOTE OF.

          LOOKING IN SOMEONE’S KEYHOLE WOULD BE SPYING ON THEM, WANTING TO KNOW SOMETHING THEY DON’T KNOW, TRYING TO FIND OUT.)

          But all he does is bend down & look at the keyhole of our front door – perhaps both doors.  I see the keyhole/lock in my mind’s eye – it’s golden, is it the old-fashioned kind, you know, when you had those huge old-time keys?  (this is vague, however, I might not take it too seriously.)

          He then notices us, turns to us & says,

(IT SAYS AT FIRST HE DID NOT SEE US LYING ON THE PORCH.  SINCE IT IS MY GOD-SELF & FLESH, IT MEANS HE DOESN’T SEE—PERHAPS WHAT HE IS SEEKING—AM I REALLY IN GOD UNION OR NOT?

AFTER LOOKING AT THE KEYHOLE HE SEES US, WHICH MEANS HE BELIEVES I AM IN UNION.

HE COULD BE LOOKING WITH HIS PSYCHIC SENSE, MOST PROBABLY, AS LOOKING AT SOMEONE’S NAME IN GOOGLE WON’T PROVE ANYTHING ABOUT THAT.)

          “My name’s JUDD.”

          (NOW HE REVEALS WHO HE IS TO US.  WE DID NOT ASK, BUT MY PSYCHIC SENSE IS ALSO AWAKE.  THE NAME SOUNDS LIKE THE GUY WHO I WROTE.)       

          His name being Judd, the way he sounds, he seems like a hillbilly.  That’s all he says, leaves, heads for the truck & takes off.  As my parting word to him, greatly relieved that he’s leaving, I say,

          (THE RELIEF IS GETTING RID OF HIM FROM MY MIND, BECAUSE HE HURT ME.  IT SHOWS UP IN MY DISCOMFORT OF HIS BEING HERE, THAT HE MIGHT ATTACK US – NOT FEELING SAFE.  YES, HE DID MAKE ME SUFFER A DAY OR TWO BY THE CURT NOTE OF REJECTION HE SENT ME—NOW I’M RID OF THE PAIN & FEEL RELIEF.)

          “Good luck with your veggies.”

          (WISHING HIM GOOD LUCK, INDEED, BUT BEING GLAD I’M NOT GOING TO WORK WITH HIM.  HIS VEGGIES AS I SAID BEFORE ARE HIS THOUGHTS, IDEAS & FEELINGS.  IT’S HIS WORK, AS HE’S A TEACHER.  SO I’M WISHING HIM LUCK WITH HIS TEACHING, BUT GLAD HE’S GOING.

WHY IS HE A HILLBILLY?

TO ME, THEY REPRESENT IGNORANCE.  I GUESS I SEE HIM THAT WAY.  NOT COMPLETELY IGNORANT, GRANTED, IGNORANT IN A CERTAIN WAY.)

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Dream 2:  Trouble with my old Caddy

          I decide to go out to my car – it’s the big old Caddy I used to have – a black DeVille.

          It’s parked in the usual spot, I pull out but hug the driveway (it’s night btw) to back up back into the driveway.  It seems I was thinking of going to town, but I feel drunk & not capable of driving.

          (UNABLE TO GET TO WHERE I GO – MY MIND IS MESSED UP AS I ATTEMPT DEEP MEDITATION.  DRUNK CAN MEAN ‘DISABLED,’ & THIS OLD CAR FELT LIKE A BOAT TO ME – I HATED DRIVING IT, DID NOT FEEL IN CONTROL.  SMALL CARS SUIT ME FINE.)

          The two windows to the left, I want to clean them, & so I allow each one to go down by the automatic & then back up.  I’m very careful to make sure the windows go back up – as sometimes one forgets, rain & snow get in.

          So they are up, but both windows have a darkish grey film over them & I can’t see so this is troubling.  I want to back up back into my driveway, somehow I do, through really thick slush – the slush almost a foot thick.  I go back all the way & back toward the front, get a really nice spot, amazed at how easily I controlled the car over this icy slush.

          (OLD CAR THE WINDOWS PICK UP THIS DARK FOG TO MY LEFT I CAN’T SEE OUT OF.

          THIS IS MY MEDITATION LAST NIGHT – I HAD TROUBLE RISING UP SPIRITUALY.  THAT MEANS ‘COULDN’T SEE.’

          IT COULD BE THE TV WATCHING –IT THREW ME OFF MY PERFECT ROAD, MY LOWER EMOTIONS (PAIN) GOT ME ALSO (FROM A LETTER I GOT), IT TARNISHED MY VISION.  SEEKING SOLACE, I WATCHED A LOT OF TV FOR ENTERTAINMENT & THAT CLUTTERED MY MIND.  I HAD TO WORK HOURS TO GET PAST THE PAIN & THE CLUTTER.)

          Then a lady comes out to help me.  There’s a large plastic bin out here, it must be moved – it’s heavy.  She takes one end, I the other, we move it.  I don’t even know who she is but she came out of my house.

          (USUALLY A KIND LADY WHO HELPS ME IN ANY WAY IS MY MOTHER GOD, THE ULTIMATE, UNIVERSAL POWER OVER ALL.  THIS SAYS SHE’S WITH ME ‘FROM MY HOUSE.’)

          I look behind me at the yard beyond the fence the PATH through it winding down to the creek.  It seems to be lower than we’re standing & to my amazement it has slush that is four feet deep!  The snow is melting & moving toward the bottom of the yard, but wow, this is a lot of water!

          (THE SLUSH HERE IS A GOOD SIGN.  WATER HERE IS THE GRACE OF GOD.  BUT YOU MUST SEE IN THE CONTEXT OF THE DREAM IF THE WATER IS POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE, AS WATER CAN BE DESTRUCTIVE.

          SNOW, ICE, SLUSH IS USUALLY FROZEN OR DELAYED GRACE.  RIGHT NOW MY GRACE IS ALMOST ‘FROZEN UP’ TO SOME DEGREE SO I’M NOT QUITE ACCESSING IT.  I’M GETTING BY IN SPITE OF THINGS, AS TO THE WAY I MANAGE THE CAR.

          WHY IS WATER THE GRACE OF GOD?  YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT IT, IT GIVES LIFE TO EVERYTHING ON EARTH, LIKE THE AIR YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT, LIKE THE SOIL.  IT’S AN ABSOLUTE NECESSITY.

          THE GRACE OF GOD MAKES LIFE EITHER PALATIBLE & PROSPEROUS OR IN ITS ABSENCE LIFE IS EMPTY, WITHOUT MEANING, & DEVOLVES INTO HELL.  LOTS OF WATER IS LOVE & HAPPINESS WITHIN ONE’S MIND/SOUL.)

          THIS DREAM IS SHOWING THERE’S LOTS OF GRACE COMING TO ME, NOT HERE YET BUT WILL BE SOON.  THE THING ABOUT GRACE IS WHY DOES IT DIMINISH OR INCREASE?  THE GOD WITHIN DOESN’T CHANGE, BUT OUR ACCESS TO GOD, OUR ‘COMPREHENSION’ OF HER, DOES.

          IT’S OUR PRAYERS, MANTRAS, CHARITY, THE WAY WE LIVE EACH DAY.  HOW MUCH ATTENTION ARE WE PAYING TO GOD?

          SINCE I AM NOW IN NONDUALITY I KNOW THAT THE GOD WITHIN ME IS WHO DOES EVERYTHING.  IT SEEMS STRANGE FOR ME TO CALL ON THE GOD OUTSIDE, THE GOD OF FORM (IMAGE OR PHYSICAL FORM) – AS I KNOW THE ‘GOD OF FORM’ IS NOT USUALLY THE ONE THAT ANSWERS, EVEN IN THE OLD DAYS, IT WAS THE GOD WITHIN WHO ANSWERED MY PRAYERS, TAKING THE FORM OF GOD OUTSIDE—JESUS, MARY OR THE SAINTS.

          I’M NOT SAYING THAT POWERS OF GOD OUTSIDE US DO NOT EXIST – THEY DO.  BUT THE HISTORIAL JESUS DOES NOT USUALLY ANSWER ONE PERSONALLY.  IT CAN HAPPEN BUT IT’S USUALLY THE GOD WITHIN TAKING THE FORM OF JESUS OR MARY OR THE SAINTS.  AND YOU KNOW THIS WHEN YOU ARE IN ‘NONDUALITY’.)