Old Lover Arnold Review

 

7-8-24 Arnold-Old BF in tree-Asian Restaurant-Girl Car Mountain-Purgatory

Dreams explain my work in Purgatory & soul searching on the way to see God Face to Face – a Life Review precedes it

pic below on the poster-I am sitting on the floor with my 2 trophies, 2d place Miss Americana & Best Body while Mr A is to the left & the man I preferred above him is behind me, lol

They called me the 'Eurasian Goddess' in some places as sometimes the small amount of Asian blood I have shows through-This is 1972, same year as above

First, saw scenes of myself visiting people in a dark place & we were all dressed in black. One lady – me? -Wearing a top with full sleeves, large white polka dots all over the black.  The feeling here was not depressing but somehow consoling. This was early in the night, went on for a long time, I can’t recall more details but I know it was Purgatory.

Next, there was a man madly in love with me – Joe B - & he wanted to take revenge on the guy I left him for long ago.

I see him in the sky, in the middle of a type tree like a Xmas tree, but the branches are not tight so you can see him clearly, almost naked, flying high through the air to go get the man that took me away.  He is to the right of me a few buildings down, in this series of buildings one story high – he’s at the end, where I see the entire walls are glass & old friends are residing there including Honeysuckle Divine.

But something strange happens.  Instead of continuing going in that direction, he changes course & starts heading toward where I am, with my present male partner, & I am horrified!  I want to hide, I find a door behind me, a tight fit to open it & get in.  My male friend had not locked the door – forgot to say the tnrie wall is all glass just like the ones down at the end, so Joe B can see us.

I sneak into the dark room behind this room as Joe enters with his dukes up to fight with this man.  I sneak behind Joe, & out the door, & down to that other place where the real transgressor would be – not sure exactly why.

I see like a few feet up, through the glass, many people of the past – they have even multiplied as families have children, & they’re all sitting at tables in colorful clothes maybe dining, - Honeysuckle is one of them - & they’re all having a ‘good time.’

Somehow the script changes & I’m looking for Arnold.  They have accused him of having an affair with me while having a wife.  And because of that – not sure why – I need to set the record straight & need to find him.

I go up the steep hill/mountain & do find him & he’s putting up a sign against a tree  lots of light red in it, a large poster – he[s all alone.  I’ve no idea what the poster says but I say something like,

“I don’t care” & walk away back down the mountain.

Then I get involved with a biracial female who reminds me of one of the members of ‘Beat Bobby Flay,’  - she’s thin, with glasses.  I get into the car with her & she’s helping me find Arnold again – why I don’t know except she needs t know the truth about us – whether he was an evil guy - & I explained to them,

“He just sought me out wherever I was & would STARE at me,”

meaning that’s all there was. I’m trying to clear his name, people put too much into it.

But she drives too fast, & it’s very FOGGY & I keep telling her to slow down – as we’re looking for that SIGN he put up or him - he’d be where the sign is.  But she refuses to slow down.

We don’t find him, we head back down, again, she drives carelessly.  Suddenly we stop with the car up against a small tree to the right of it- resting on the tree {it’s about 8” in diameter, hinting it has to do with a man’s penis, or his POV, his pain} so it doesn’t fall over the cliff, as it’s very steep here & she says,

“We’ve run out of gas!”

{means there will be a point to be made here – notice the small tree we are resting against, meaning we rest here, we’ve found something - & the dog or inner sense finding the large bed of moist, goldeny cherry leaves, will explain what we’re looking for!  See below.}

And I think she’s so careless she didn’t even check the gas before taking off. {The SMALL tree we stop against is a small FAULT or cross, to be explained, something for me to improve on.}

Now I saw she had a dog, medium sized, longish fur – a mutt, who she had on two different kinds of chains, one connected to the other; one chain finer. {Dog is inner sense}

The dog got off the chain {off the chain is sense has become active} & ran down the cliff, now he comes back & below us are old leaves {mostly golden shades, elongated with one point} – 2-3 feet of them & he runs into the leaves & is submerged & comes back up. 

Prior to this there

was the long dream of the huge Asian restaurant, & I’m here trying to be a server.  There are many rooms, all beautifully furnished, many waitresses.  I need to STAND by the side of the room against the wall, I’m wearing my own spike heels - black patent leather – elegant.  I’m dressed to the nine’s, make a good impression.  But have not yet got a change to wait on anyone, no one has called me.

I sit at a table with many Asians wearing light green clothing, little women, & ask them,

“Where do I start?  How do I start?  Wait for someone to call me or go up to them& ask if they need help?”

They are kind of looking at me like I am so backward; don’t even know what’s obvious or basic.  But I need to learn.

And there was an experience I was in a smaller room upstairs – There was a couple having a meal.  They were reaching for all the amenities that were in packets – even the food – the way it is in fast food places.  I jump in & help them with the packets although it doesn’t seem difficult & when we’re finished, the lady says to me,

“Thank you for the love,”

And I tell this story to the Asians as if to say is this how it’s done?  Just jump in & help & they get the love?

One Asian lady asks me why I want to work here.

  I tell her,

“It’s not the money – I am a millionaire.  I just want to work & help.”

And as I said, this is an elegant place & I do it justice.  My clothes are elegant & my shoes – they gave me none of this, I supplied my own. The heels are about 5” tall, yet I have no trouble walking in them.  I make a fine impression for the place.

MEANING:

*{I trust some of this is a ‘life review’ but am not sure.  The Joe B & Arnold part maybe.  The Asian restaurant, no, that’s about serving souls be they on earth or in Purgatory, as I have said multiple prayers,

“Help us ALL, especially the souls in Purgatory.”

I definitely need help, Mother God, let’s start with Joe B  He’s coming for revenge but he comes after the wrong guy, not the past but the present.  What does this mean?

MG:  It’s a review of men you might have hurt – were you guilty of sin or lack of empathy? Joe being in a tree is extreme pain.  He comes back, his pain, to get even with a man.  But he attacks not what happened long ago but the present.  And wh is with you today?

No earthy man but St. Charbel who you channeled yesterday.  So he comes up as if to attack St. Charbel but the idea here is your conscience.  St. Charbel is here while you examine yourself - did you do something wrong to Joe?

You go back in time & there is Arnold, who you also hurt & he’s putting a sign on a tree on the mountain.  The sign is light red, which means pain.  Yes you hurt him but was it a sin?  You simply did not give him what he wanted.

The comparison is there:  Two men who did not get intimacy with you, men you rejected – was that a sin?  You ask yourself.

But last night you prayed & stated you had so many men wanted our body, is it your fault you rejected them?  Certainly God, the Universe or life would not expect you to give all these guys what they wanted – when they were attracted to your beauty.

Arnold being up the mountain also is Golgotha – pain - & trees are the Cross.  Both men suffered according to this, & is but after seeing the sign of Arnold – who also wants revenge – you decided to stop his power over you by not caring, & so you say,

“I don’t care.”

And so what he does doesn’t hurt any more.

ME:  Who is the lady from “Beat Bobby Flay” who drives me up the mountain, speeding in the fog, careless, we run out of gas coming back, we don’t find what we were looking for – the dog on 2 chains is loose, gets into that pile of leaves off the cliff, etc.

MG:  Bobby Flay is a big celebrity, with a show built around how great he is, can anyone outdo him cooking? And so, Arnold is a celebrity & maybe that’s what hurt him – his stature, you rejecting him while he’s so hot & grand.  You, however, have never been sorry for this; after all he’s just a man – another man who wanted you out of thousands. You dismissed your overture to you as just physical – wanted to use your body.

Now you are reviewing this & the dog is like saying,

“Did you do anything wrong in a physical way or in a subtle or spiritual way, some small fault?  {The 2 chains} You with the female can’t figure it out – bad driving on her part {but she’s a symbol of you not understanding}, the fog, as you go up Golgotha to see if there’s anything wrong on your part.  Then you are stopped against a small tree but don’t roll off the cliff, but below the dog has buried himself in goldeny leaves not dried out, still moist – shaped like the leaves of the cherry.

This might be saying ‘There was love there on his part but you gave him no credit, just dismissed it as plain lust & not respectful. So he did not deserve sympathy.  The dog is saying ‘love,’ the gold, moist leaves & being cherry leaves somehow speaks of innocence, virginity.  It could mean Arnold was young & innocent then, more sensitive than you imagined.

So that could be a slight fault on your part – not giving him the benefit of the doubt - Never feeling sorry or sympathy for his pain.

There’s another important comparison here – the two men, somehow, are similar.  Joe B was madly in love with you & in this dream, he wants revenge not against you but the man who took you away.  There was no such man with Joe B – you just didn’t want him.  But with Arnold, there was a man.  Now this is saying why Arnold wanted REVENGE.  It was because he wanted or ‘loved’ you so much – great desire brings strong emotion – people KILL for jealousy & revenge when a person they desire is taken away.  And so, equating these 2 men puts Arnold in a very different light, not as a  egomaniacal person who had lust & will take revenge against someone who thwarted him, but something else, his emotions more serious.

 

         The Restaurant

                 Here I’m trying to be of service, to serve humanity/souls & I’m among those in Heaven, asking them to guide me, how me how. 

The elegant outfit I wear is my spiritual attire or the Light/radiance around me.  The very tall patent leather black shoes are mortification/death to self, a type of ‘being on the cross’ as the shoes lift one up

The small service I give a couple & the lady thanks me for my love shows I managed to do some small service to someone – through my prayers.

 

The Celestials here are kind of chuckling at me at my ignorance & naïveté.

  ME:  Back to the previous dream, what does Honeysuckle Divine have to do with this?

MG:  It’s a symbol of your past, long ago when you were a dancer.  Part of the life review.

ME:  How do I fare in all this?  Have I done wrong, something to atone for?

MG: It seems that you could be a bit more sensitive to the pain of Arnold – don’t assume the worst about him as you have.

As far as Joe B, you knew he was suffering but what could you do? You did become friends after the breakup & look what you did for him – cured his throat cancer, it was gone as soon as he told you about it – the doctors checked him & said it was gone.  So you made up for the pain you caused him [I caused him as he was madly in love with me but I was not with him.]

The dream where it’s all black, one person wearing white polka dots is you being in Purgatory to relieve the souls - & the dots are sparks or bits of Light/Grace, you bring them from God.  And so you are all happy, not sad.   {end}

 

7-9-24 Dead Mummy Ritual – Explains the effect of my podcasts on 2 individuals, one who can do this path, one who can’t

 

         Short dream.  I’m in a house, it’s poor, like old fashioned homestead not even sure if in this country or this age seems like maybe long ago.  I see a man who was going to go to the bathroom on this white toilet, but his need to poop is so severe he needs a better toilet & he runs, almost naked, through the house through the kitchen where the black cat is sitting on a table. He knocks over the cat in his hurry to get to this better toilet where he can sit at leisure & do a major poop.  It’s the kitchen that makes me think long ago as it’s small, rustic, crowded, everything basic before the days of electricity, everything monochromatic, a beige slightly golden color.

         The man is overweight, big middle, his face looks frantic to get to that other toilet.

         Then there’s the ritual.  Once a year somebody – not sure who – is it this same man? Goes & gets dead bodies out of wherever they are resting & brings about 5 of them into the house where everyone sleeps, & lets them stay there overnight.  They look like smallish bodies covered with mummy wrap, like paper mache, white, & their heads are covered with sprinkles the way I have here that you put on top of cakes – sugar sprinkles in multi colors like green, blue & red.

I see a small child on one of the beds on the floor, white sheets, maybe 2 years old, sleeping soundly, & then one of the mummies is put on the floor nearby.  Personally I resolve not to stay in the house this night as it creeps me out.  But this is only once a year, similar to where the Mexicans have a festival where they honor the dead & everyone wears masks - skeletons, ghosts etc.

Now there is a woman living in our community, possibly even this same house, & she protests.  I see her confronting another person – is it a lady?  And she presents to her a wagon like my wagon I cart grocery supplies – the wagon is lined in blue & seems empty & I don’t know if it’s got anything to do with carting the dead bodies.

This woman looks at the other woman to my right, sort of in the shadows - I don’t see her at all.  But the lady to the left, who’s speaking, reminds me of a beautiful young Mexican chef I used to see on TV.  She speaks just like her & says,

“I am a refugee.  That means I have been through a war & …..”

Can’t recall her words but she’s saying she cannot abide by this ritual because somehow it could bring trouble to our door – like unwanted attention, people get arrested & taken away.

It’s unclear what is happening here & what she’s saying except she doesn’t want any more trouble. {end}

MEANING:

*{Mother God, I am lost.  Have no inkling what this could be unless it’s souls in Purgatory but that’s it.  And the man pooping, also have no clue.

MG:  This might have to do with being “dead to self” rather than actual physical bodies, & someone who is listening to your podcasts is repulsed & protesting the requirements, lol.

It’s one of those ‘you are in their skin’ dreams, you think & feel what someone else is experiencing.

The man pooping – could be a man who realizes he has a lot to remove from himself as far as sins, faults & attachments {why he’s fat-superfluous items within himself need to be emptied} - a major cleansing is about to begin.  He wants this – he’s taking your admonitions to heart, & is ‘running’ to meet the requirements. Knocking over the black cat might be saying he wants to knock out the bad luck {negatives} from his life, get to this cleansing to be closer to God & find happiness.

The lady who PROTESTS against this ‘ritual’ or path to see God Face to Face is saying,

“Look, I’ve been through a lot in my life {refugee from war or conflict}.  I have a child {could be the child on the bed} & I cannot stop taking care of it {there may be other family members} & disrupt my entire life – bring attention to myself in the wrong way, bring about chaos.  I can have no part in this.”

The WAGON lined with blue represents the sorrow/sadness her trying this path would bring about – for herself & possibly others like giving up her family.  You explained that a person cannot reach God Face to Face while managing children, relating to husband & family. So this is not for her.

You can’t win’m all – you got a man, lost a woman.  You explained that it has to be the right TIME for a person to do this – If it’s not possible now could be in future.

The ‘cake sprinkles’ on the heads of the mummies are the benefits or ‘icing on the cake,’ that come out of being dead to self.  You gain all the good that God contains!}*  {end}