Lover's Dilemma - Serious

 

5-8-25                      The Lover Again – His Harrowing Situation 

 

The beginning is obscure, but here I am with two men & they are being PRESENTED to me as ‘offers’ or candidates for my choice. I see them both in person & then ‘on paper’ as in images.

One guy is rather short & I don’t pay much attention to him – can’t even recall how he looks. But the second guy is way tall – like 6’4” or even 6’7”, & he’s thin, young, well built. I do take a good look at the picture of him presented me.

*{This compares my will-be lover to other young males – younger than him. When he worked for me he had an assistant about 20 years younger who did not interest me. He might be a symbol of my no longer interested in super-young guys – being a cougar. That stint – thank God – is OVER. The tallness & shortness represents who is important to me – right now – who is not}*

It’s a big piece of paper that shows more than one image of him, but the one I recall is it’s like a dance step. His legs are wide, his left in front, his arms are up in some kind of arms-wide artistic pose. He’s wearing slightly bell-bottomed pants & a nifty scarf around his neck - & I’m planning to tell him this picture is great.

*{He demonstrated physically lots of good things to me. One, he was agile, in good shape he was skillful in his work. I was impressed.}*

However, the entire paper this is on is MEDIUM BLUE – not light, but medium. So the blue colors everything – including him, his flesh, clothes, background.

*{ But there is something BLUE or SORROWFUL in his life so that in spite of all his attributes he ISN’T HAPPY.}*

Now I see his OFFICE. He’s got an assistant who seems nondescript, an employee. I see a desk & the assistant is here, but he moved & moved the chair behind the desk & I see the floor & a large STAIN on the floor under the desk, that spills out like it starts from the left, then it comes out to where the chair would be, getting wider. It’s an ancient stain – there’s nothing left now except it’s darker than the rest of the floor. It’s about 5-6’ long & starts at the top about 2’ wide & grows to about double or more, rounded on both sides. The floor itself is mottled like marble, but not beautiful, rather ugly, dark grays & muted blue, you can hardly see any color. Reminds me of  like 50 years ago, being in an apt of a married couple both very ill – being taken care of by caregivers. And it had a floor like that & was the dreariest apt I’d ever seen.

*{The DREARY office, the STAIN o the floor under the desk from long ago - & we’ll see him bent over completely in the net paragraph – just as I saw lover in another dream.

This a long-standing problem. Someone / something is NOT RIGHT. It’s a STAIN on his BUSINESS LIFE as this is seen in a business office & under a desk. In other dreams I saw a FINANCIAL problem. “Under’ the desk rather than on top would show a secret or underlying problem, not one that appears publicly. I recall the 50 year ago place where a couple were SICK. This could mean the relationship of this man & his significant other is sick or doomed – an irreparable conflict.}*

Now the man I like is BENDING FORWARD & I get a bit BOLD. I climb onto this BACK for a joke. But he likes it, he STANDS UP & carries me around, like piggy back, dancing.

*{I saw this in a previous dream - he was bent forward all the way down & his back had been bald but now it had attractive very short flat hairs all over it…..bald would be driven crazy, no shirt would be “he gave someone the shirt off his back’ – hairs growing in again is restoration of his condition, an improvement – in a moment we’ll see he now after I climb onto his back, has a BEAUTIFUL shirt with yellow lilies. This is saying I have RESTORED his previous condition of misery & now even though he’s carrying me – which is helping me – it makes him JOYFUL & he LOVES ME!}*

His shirt is beautiful. It’s slick like some sort of polyester or silk & mostly on his shoulders I see beautiful yellow flowers with darker borders around certain parts to make a design – the flowers are like huge honeysuckles or lilies with long thin petals & pistons. However, from bending somehow he got black DIRT on his shirt – which I BRUSH OFF easily – none of the residue clings or stains his shirt – most of it on is shoulders- some below that - I tell him about it as I brush it off.

*{Lilies are a SPIRITUAL symbol – they are spoken of in the ‘Song of Songs’ like someone laying down among the lilies with their lover - & you see them in many sacred paintings of Holy Mary, Jesus & Saints. They represent purity, holiness, & Love.

This appears after I climb on his back & he carries me – it’s a “labor of love.” The yellow represents SPRING – a NEW BEGINNING – Recently on one of our first warm days I wore a beautiful yellow dress & a man cried out ‘You look like Spring!’

I BRUSH OFF his stains, which do not cling to him. This represents sins or temptations to sin due to being ‘in the world’ as again it says in the Song of Songs {I am black but beautiful}. When a person goes out into the field / world, they accrue minor faults, venial sins, but these are overlooked by God because of the situation – She sent them out there And here I see these & ‘brush them off” which means DISMISS them & there is no evidence of these left.}*

As he carried me around cheerfully it’s the most wonderful feeling of love from him. And he is the most sweet, sincere, gentle person, like an innocent child – this is his inner self.

*{He HELPS ME – serves me – without effort or strain because his LOVE is SO GREAT. {He ain’t heavy, he’s my brother!}

                             From another POV

Another scene starts & it turns stressful. I’ve been feeding baby bears & getting all kinds of goodies for them. We’re in a sort of ‘town’ like our building, with a porch landing & there are others nearby.

Some conflict or question arises concerning the food for the bears. Not sure what it’s about but there’s a male near me. Who is he? Some sort of friend & I’m asking him, what do I do about thee baby bears? There’s like say ten of them.

Then I look in the distance, & yiikes I see sitting in a large group – all calm – GROWN GRIZZLY BEARS, all waiting to be fed – like TWENTY of them! And now the question is – what do I do? Do I take the food to them? Can I trust them in their behavior? Will this be a problem I can’t handle?  I’m trying to be brave, just go & feed them, but it’s hard.

I confer with this man & neither of us has the answers – it stays ‘in the air.’

MEANING:

*{This is taking a look at the situation of Luke {the future lover} from another POV – it’s what’s called ‘a parallel dream’ – the same issue seen in another way.

It gives for an example my feeding of bears – which led to dire consequences. It started small & got terrible, a huge expense & damage to property.

This is like his problem, whatever it is. He is FEEDING / nourishing or LIVING WITH a situation which as it goes on will get MUCH WORSE. We’re seeing the future – both of us - & we can’t come up with an answer.

It reminds e of a problem I had with Nick, that I tried to solve – his drug addiction. But no matter what I said, he wouldn’t go into rehab, & eventually he died.  This is like that – something that cannot get better unless it’s stopped – will get much worse. We’re both seeing it.}*   {End}