FREAK SHOW ADDENDUM

 addendum to Jean Paul Goude article on he saw me part of his FREAK SHOW

Addendum:  Just now took a look at what is available of his early work. Saw many designs not seen before.

In some pictures he’s got the woman as a giant while he’s a small or even tiny man. Or he’s snuggled to a woman like an infant. OK, this is the Giantess fetish – this goes along with all the other things I said. He’s trying to create the Amazon, the ‘Mommy Fearest’ if you will. The ultimate memory of most submissive guys {men who get turned on by dominant women} is unconsciously, the memory of their mother. That is why violence sometimes gets into it – as Mom was a disciplinarian. He was small, she was big, so she could be frightening, plus the biggest fear could be withdrawal of love.

       William Bond explains how so many subs want ferocity from the female. They exaggerate who & what Mom was – to make it more exciting. Why would they want to recreate this environment? Lol, it’s quite obvious. They were comfortable there, they were loved. Although Mom yelled at him, sometimes hit or punished, she nevertheless provided a place of security & love, & so, the dominating aspect with its punishment reminds them not so much the pain, but the love – the security.

        You see with most of the woman he’s trying so hard to make the woman dominant he turns her into ‘a man’. He did this with me - & even moreso, Grace Jones. Grace Jones was putty in his hands, he was her Pygmalion. She let him do whatever he wanted as it benefited her career, so she was turned into a He-Woman or She-man. He took a normal woman, gave her a flat-top {crewcut}, made her snarl or growl with a cigarette in her mouth – turned her into a menace with a puffed out shoulder padded jacket, weapon in her hands – men groveling or worshipping at her feet,& this progressed into movie roles.

This was not the woman at heart but a character created by Jean Paul Goude. I call it ‘Mommy Fearest’ after my own Mom who was not only mean but cruel. With me it’s not a fetish, just a fact of life that was - which I wish I could laugh at. It doesn’t give me comfort.

        Mother God is there anything more to say about this? Any last words? Like what his fetish specifically had to do with molding me, in his vision into a weight lifting woman?

        MG: Just be grateful things worked out right for the time. You were doing weights - you appeared in a magazine while he looked for such a woman. You were the woman. You did the articles, they got female body building started – the rest is history & one big feather in your cap. Mother God couldn’t have done it without you & goodnight, Charlene, lol.     {End}