8-27-19-part VII-The New Religion-WOMAN THOU ART GOD-RECLAIM YOUR TERRITORY-Fin 8-28-19

Embodimement of GodWoman

            

        The religion which teaches women to worship the God within themselves

        RECLAIM YOUR TERRITORY

    All that they have, they have stolen from us.  We once owned everything, claimed authority over all things.

    This was brought home to me by clearing the creek once again.  I sat by the tiny ‘pond’ I revealed after clearing the brush from it.  This morning sitting meditating I looked beyond it, through the weeds, was surprised to see a fence, which I had installed many years ago, through another conglomerate of weeds, briars & bushes.  I thought,

    “That used to be uncovered.  I walked there & enjoyed that part of the creek – the fence proves it.”

    The vegetation had stolen my prowess over this part of my land, I had forgotten it like it wasn’t there, as if it was my neighbors, but it was mine, all I had to do was get rid of the brush.

    That I did, in a vigorous bout with my trimmer, greatly satisfied.

    We women have FORGOTTEN what we once owned, the authority, the prowess, like for instance, family.

        RECLAIM THE FAMILY

    WOMAN, THOU ART GOD.  No one should have AUTHORITY over your family but you.  You are the REPRODUCTIVE VEHICLE, the man is not, he is but a PARASITE on the body of a woman, as defined by Dr. Ashley Montagu, anthropologist, & Dr. Bryan Sykes, geneticist.  He gave his DNA to you to reproduce, without you, his DNA just dies.  Why should he have authority over you & your children?  Why should he have an equal say when he isn’t equal?

    In the days of Matriarchy, you had a group of females including the entire village, helping raise the children.  Males had no say in what was going on, no one asked them to baby sit – that would have seemed preposterous, as males have no nurturing capacity.

    Turning this around, giving males authority over children, was one of their foremost conspiracies, along with that of war & overthrow of women’s religions.

    They ENVIED the power of women over children.  Women got to hold, caress, be LOVED by children, it was sensible, sensual, physical—not sexual—contact, which they were not privy to.

    But for too many males, physical contact with kids provoked sex.  Sexual abuse was created by men when they gained access to children--statistics say that 49% of daughters are abused by Dads & 25% of boys (military statistics).  This does not include other men, which in my estimate, would raise it to at least 75% females & 50% males.

The NUCLEAR family is devised by men so they can have control over the wife & kids, to their detriment.  The woman he can intimidate or control—being stronger physically, more athletic, & a loose cannon. 

    He now has access to the children—a woman cannot be in all places at once, all her kinswomen are gone.

    When they abuse children who witnesses it?  What can the child do?  By the time the child is old enough to report it & decides they want closure – the law tells you IT’S TOO LATE – you should have reported this EIGHTEEN YEARS AGO!

    When a mother BELIEVES a child & reports it TO AUTHORITIES the authorities tell her ‘this doesn’t happen here.’

    She doesn’t understand THE PATRIARCHS STAND UP FOR EACH OTHER, IT’LL BE A MIRACLE IF ANY ONE ADMITS OR TAKES ACTION.

    MEN CLEAN UP AFTER ONE ANOTHER, THEY COVER FOR EACH OTHER

    In a world ruled by men, they take it personally if you accuse one of them.  They are not AGAINST MEN, these are their BROTHERS IN CRIME, the brotherhood of Satan.  I do admit not all are evil – according to the ancient myth of the ‘angels’ who went with Satan – it was one third of them.  But besides that one third, there are many FRIENDS of Patriarchy, who, although they are not part & parcel of it, nevertheless out of cowardice or fear or faith in men, they GO ALONG WITH IT, promoting the patriarchy, destroying the women (this I might add includes women, who like Jews who betrayed their brothers, they betray other women.  It ingratiates them with the demonics, they get passed over for punishment, the sister gets nailed.)

    It’s like Hitler hated Jews, not all Germans were as bad as Hitler, but many went that night, “The Night of Glass” to break their storefront windows & beat them up.  Many were probably side characters who usually said & did nothing, but when they saw the demonics working, they went along with them, a chance to vent their sadism.  And so men who are usually noodles go along with aggressive guys in gangs for ‘trains’ on innocent girls & women.

    Just two incidents I share that prove how men stick together:  A little black girl was raped by a police officer.  The mother takes her to the station to complain & is told by them to keep quiet or else they’ll retaliate.  (Why didn’t the good guys go against the bad one?) 

Remember this, sisters, you never go to the authority IN HOUSE.  For police transgressions you go to the FBI, for a school incident you go to the Supervisor of Schools, for a lawyer wrong doing there is a Counsel above them, for the Catholic Church priest abusing your child you go to the POLICE – the place where the crime was committed will not help you—they COVER FOR THEMSELVES, they have a reputation & a brotherhood to uphold.

    Another case, a cop broke up with his wife, who had their infant child.  She sues for support & he has a new girl friend.  The support & alimony will be a lot of money he wants for his new life.  He goes & butchers the ex wife & the baby in the bathtub.

    The police are called to investigate, they clean the scene thoroughly so there is no evidence—which is of course illegal, but they do it; they aren’t punished.  Without evidence the cop goes free, moves out of state with the new woman.  Why didn’t the good guys nail the killer cop?

    I could sit here & collect from memory & internet thousands of such incidents, including my own life, where males stick together & defend other men who have done wrong, but you get the point. 

    As you can see, a big part of the problem is going to authorities, complain against men, the authorities are men & if they are women, some are ‘dicks in skirts’.  I saw a female judge (on TV) dismiss a case of murder against a guy who killed a female & stashed her in the trunk of his car.  The car was abandoned on a street, they found it, it was his car.  Was the guy an easy conviction?  No, the female judge dismissed the case on a technicality – someone had tried to talk to a juror.

    TO SINGLE MOTHERS, YOU MAY BE THE LUCKIEST ONES

    Woman, thou art God.  You are a single mother & there is no man helping you, but there is also no man judging you, telling you what to do, interfering, intimidating you & abusing your children.  You may be free.

    The welfare system, the dole, takes the place of the male who’s supposed to help you – this is a blessing in disguise.  Use it as such, don’t moan & groan about the deadbeat Dad, he’s a deadbeat, you don’t want him. 

    This is the precious time you can use, especially if you’re not working, on yourself.  Woman, you will not find the God within you unless you work at it.  Look at the saints.  How many saints diddled with the world, neglecting God?  None, they all put God first.

    “Put God first, & everything shall be added unto you.”

    Trust God to show you the way, the truth & the life.

    Do not call God a Father but a Mother.  Teach your children that.

    Have faith, hope in God.  She is a great God & your needs are tiny before Her Power. 

    Depend on God, not men.  If She gives you help through men, take it, but don’t worship the man, worship God & She is in you.

    Have confidence in God.  It was the secret virtue of St. Gertrude the Great (one of my mentors)—the ‘Herald of Divine Love.’

    Have Love for God.  If you love God, really love, you will put no ‘strange Gods’ before Her.  You will put Her first & foremost, do not have faith, hope, confidence in the world but in Her – who USES THE WORLD to bring you what you need.

    Believe in Her miracles.  To the One who created the Infinite Universe, who maintains it we don’t know how, miracles are easy.  Call on them, expect them, they will happen.

    How much time do you spend in prayer & meditation?  How much time do you spend wasting it on television, movies, secular books or writings, meaningless music, chatting on the phone & internet, texting?  Time is precious.  I say spend two hours a day minimum, completely ALONE, with no interference, if not praying, meditating or better yet, contemplating, which means waiting to RECEIVE from God.

    I want no excuses – tell it to the Judge.  Take hold of yourself, stop dawdling, stop wasting time, stop complaining, call on the Infinite, Merciful, Powerful, All-knowing, All-seeing, All-loving God for more than the things of the world.  The greatest thing She can give you is HERSELF – YOURSELF:  WOMAN, THOU ART GOD, you will know when you are Born Again as YOU, the Infinite Being within you.  You will feel it, sense it, perceive it & you will HEAR HER / YOUR VOICE—Obey this Voice, not the voices of men.

To be continued.......8-28-19  Rasa Von Werder

8-23-19-PART VI-WOMAN THOU ART GOD-The New Religion Which Teaches Women to Worship the God Within

Embodiment of GodWoman

        Today I was trimming the weeds & brush around my creek, in a particular place close to a tunnel under the road.  My voice within kept urging me to get a move on, I couldn’t understand why.  When I spent too long in one place, it kept telling me  

“stop lolly gaggin’ here, move ahead”

until I got irritated & said,

    “Quiet!  I’m going.”

    It kept buggin’ me, suddenly I understood.

    I had just broke through a thick maze of weeds & there in front of me, completely hidden, was a little pond.  Small but cute, like eight feet long, five feet wide, just a foot deep, but I HAD NEVER SEEN IT & it’s right on my property.  It was a PLEASURE to discover.  I was then inspired & there wasn’t much to finish the job, I quickly trimmed (with a hedger) the remaining obstacles.

    My mind went to thinking,

    “This is an alternative place to meditate, I wonder if it’ll be suitable,”

    As right now I spend most of my time in one special place, meditating each morning for months.

    Mother God then spoke to me,

    “I wanted you to hurry up & get to this pond to make a point.  There are treasures within us that we never get to – they are totally hidden to us because of the impediments – the brush & weeds in our minds.  These are the people, things, events, always cropping up – normal things, not sins, but because we are distracted by these things, we don’t meditate, pray & spend enough time alone to find PRICELESS TREASURES.

    I was amazed because this pond was there for years, formed by the increase in rain water, but I had NO IDEA it was there as all around it was vegetation.

    This coincides with Jesus telling the story of the rich man & his party.  He prepared a great feast & invited his friends, but all begged off.

    One was training a new ox, another had a wedding, all had excuses.

    The rich man had no one for his table.  Pretty pissed off, he told the servants to find those begging along the streets & living under bridges, the poor & unfortunate, they would surely appreciate his feast.

    This story talks about people leading NORMAL LIVES, not sinning, & yet, because of non-sinful actions, they would miss the GLORIES OF HEAVEN.  How could that be?

    Because you have to DO SOMETHING to gain the ‘Kingdom of Heaven.’  You have to ATTEND TO GOD not people & things; you have to PAY ATTENTION to the spiritual life, infinity.  You cannot immerse your mind in physical things, be distracted by them, consumed by them, because you will MISS THE GLORIES OF HEAVEN.

    Understand that you do NOT have to be a murderer, thief or criminal to go to Hell, all you have to do is FAIL TO BE BORN AGAIN, you were born in physical but not in spirit, that means you are spiritually dead & the dead cannot enter Heaven.

    There’s a story from Germany called ‘Cry of a Lost Soul.’

        Two girls, Clara & Tesla, knew each other starting with Holy Communion.  Clara took the Catechism seriously, as well as the Sacraments, Tesla was told by her Dad that,

    “Nothing here matters except your white dress.”

    She did nothing outwardly wrong, she just didn’t take religion seriously.  She joined a spiritual sorority because it was fun, then she stopped going to Church.

    Eventually she got married. They were well off & became more so when an aunt died & left them money.  She furnished her house beautifully. They never had children so there were no responsibilities, they just enjoyed life.

    One day Tesla was being driven past a Church & heard the call of grace one last time.  Jesus called to her saying,

    “Why don’t you come in & receive Me?”

    She said NO!

    A short time later, they were driving & she saw a bright light & a searing pain took over her.  

    Suddenly she appeared before God—It was UNBEARABLE.  Her brightness, her Majesty, Her all-consuming perfection frightened her, she saw God as a JUST JUDGE, not a friend.

    Finding this Presence too much to bear, she begged God to be sent as far away as possible, & the next moment, she was hurled into Hell.

    Clara had heard about the accident & was praying for Tesla, when she appeared to her, telling her God sent her to tell her not to waste her time.  She said,

    “I am in a place where we hate everyone.  We hate ourselves, we hate you, I don’t want to tell you anything but God made me do this – None of us here can be helped.  If we could, we would pull you into Hell also.”

    And then she explained to Clara her life, which was a rejection of God & Her Love – She had lived for the flesh.

        This is all you have to do to lose Heaven & gain Hell – Live for people, things, the world, the flesh.  You don’t have to be a devil worshiper, rob, steal or kill, just ignore God & you’re lost.

    Don’t ignore God, woman, She is inside you.  Stay alone when you can, do not dissipate yourself, waste your energy, your time, your precious life, take a look inside where the treasures are & where you receive more.  The more you try, the more will be given.

    I had a vision not so long ago.  I saw a big road, thousands of people walking on it, men & women, sort of oblivious to anything, just walking.  Suddenly iron bars came down from Heaven & surrounded them.  Then fire came from below & began to burn & consume them.  They rattled the bars, screaming to get out of there – it was horrific, but NOTHING COULD BE DONE.

    I felt terrible pain & fear on seeing this vision.  It was THE BROAD HIGHWAY TO HELL.

    What is the broad highway to Hell?

    Matthew 7:13-14 (KJV)

    “Enter ye in at the strait gate:  for wide is the gate, & broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, & many there be which go in thereat.  Because strait is the gate & narrow is the way, which leadeth into life, & few there be that find it.”

    This is saying something similar to “dead bodies float downstream”, it takes the living to fight against the current.  This is not about being a demonic person, it’s simply following fashion, fads, the crowd, the status quo, which is, today, PATRIARCHY.  In Matriarchy, this saying of Jesus would not apply, because Matriarchy is a LOVING SOCIETY, the same that Jesus espouses, He was a Matriarch.  Following Matriarchy would not be the broad highway to Hell, because even if you do as everyone does, you would be practicing Love.

(Which reminds me, when they asked Jesus when he was coming back, he said ‘when you can’t tell the winters from the summers.  Right now it is August 23, 2019, in upstate NY & tonight it will be 48.  Jesus second coming is Matriarchy – the Culture of Life/Love – we are on the cusp of Matriarchy.)

Now, in this religion, I caution women NOT TO FOLLOW PATRIARCHY, the Culture of Death, Necrophilia.  It truly is THE BROAD HIGHWAY TO HELL.  Do not breed for them if you can get out of it, I went over that before.  Do not allow them TO DRAIN YOUR LIFE, STEAL YOUR GOD-IDENTITY, POLLUTE YOU WITH THEIR IDEAS & LIES, SADDLE YOU WITH THEIR AGENDA, RAILROAD YOU INTO DOING WHAT THEY WANT YOU TO DO & TAKE YOU ON A ROAD YOU DON’T WANT TO GO.

Woman, Thou Art God:  Follow your own road.  Keep your precious energy for yourself.  You MUST SAVE YOURSELF before you can SAVE THE WORLD.  

Understand this:  It will take time for you to hear your own voice, the still, small voice inside.  It may take a year or years.  It will take time for you to feel the real you, the God you, the Presence of Mother God.  Do not expect these phenomenons to happen overnight because you have made a commitment.  We are talking about Sainthood – through this you will become a saint – this is not automatic or easy, it’s more difficult than getting a PhD.

BUT HOW DO YOU FOLLOW THIS RELIGION?  WHERE DO YOU START, WHAT PRACTICES, WHAT PRAYERS, WHAT RITUALS?

Not saying that you cannot follow one of the religions popular in the world today – You can, but being aware at all times that the God they speak of is inside you, & you follow this God in your own way, your conscience is your guide, not their conscience.

I followed the God of Christianity, but I discovered my way & found the God inside.  You can follow the God of Allah, but not their culture (the bad in it, the pedophilia, the woman hatred, the honor killings); you can follow the God of the Judism, but know She is inside you.  Just throw away the misogyny & the things you don’t like or believe in, make your own way – it’s your life, your body, your soul, you answer to no man.  Religion is made for the woman, not woman for religion.

You can also follow Wicca or the Paganos, the nature, agriculture religions, they are older than ‘his-tory.’  They are not evil, they are One with Mother Nature God, yes, that Great Mother Nature who is making men extinct.

    Woman, Thou Art God, go forth, & find yourself.  Go forth into that Eternity Inside You.

To be continued

Finished  8-24-19      Rasa Von Werder

8-21-19-THE NEW RELIGION PART V-WOMAN THOU ART GOD

Embodiment of GodWoman

            The Religion Which Teaches Women to Worship the God Within Themselves

            THE GOOD OF BEING ALONE

        

        Woman, thou art God.  Does that mean you need another person or persons to hold you up all the time?

    Recently I had been obsessed with my lover / husband – He absented himself from me & this gave me grief.  But then God stepped in & there was a Mystical Marriage (to be explained elsewhere) & by this marriage I knew he was mine forever, physical absence did not separate us, when the time came, we would be together – according to God’s will.

    The obsession LEFT MY MIND & I was AT PEACE.  No more turmoil, anxiety, grief, I STAYED ALONE.  I did not go ‘downtown’ (clubs, bars) to see people, I did nothing in particular, just ordinary life.

    Pretty soon I noticed that I WAS IN A STATE OF BLISS.      What happened?  I had been plagued with anxiety for five years, going from that to frustration, confusion, every sort of mental / emotional turmoil.  Once it stopped & I STAYED ALONE why did BLISS appear?

    Then I remembered something  I read years ago, was it from Baba Muktananda?  He said,

    “Bliss is the NATURAL STATE of our minds.”

    Oh yes, of course.  A child (unless they’re abused or neglected) is in perpetual bliss.  You see them playing, not a care in the world, living in the moment, doesn’t matter what they do, they’re happy. 

    Why can’t we be that way?--Because we are PLAGUED by people, things & fears thereof.  We can’t be happy by ORDINARY THINGS like a child on swings in the park or the sand box or jungle gym, we have to think, imagine, fantasize about WHAT WE WANT & it’s all that WE DON’T HAVE, we plan a million things to do to get what we want.  These things bog down our mind, pull us into the flesh, a quicksand of time & space, & we LOSE ETERNITY.

    Instead of WISHING FOR WHAT WE DON’T HAVE would it not be better to adjust to what we have & be satisfied with it?

    This statement is not to be taken at face value all the time, in every case.  Some things you have to plan for, strive for, wish for & accomplish.  But there has to come a time in everyone’s life when they find PEACE & TAKE A REST, enjoy exactly WHAT IS, like God who ‘created the Universe & rested on the seventh day.’

    I also read somewhere, a minister explaining that in the bible God teaches that every eight years one must leave their fields fallow, let them rest, don’t do any work – let everything go, prepare those seven years, then take a whole year off, or else, you will not be in sync with the Will of God.

    This must be my EIGHTH YEAR.

    I also remember, on the side of ‘lack of ambition can be a good thing’ a story I read in a book.

    A man was speaking to a pundit about the path to Holiness.  The man told him,

    “Go to such & such a corner on the street, there you will see a man & talk to him.  He’s in a state of perfection.”

    The man, curious, went where he was told, saw a beggar.  He approached him & said,

    “Good day, sir.”

    The man answered,

    “Every day is a good day.”

    He then said,

    “The weather is fine today,”

    The beggar said,

    “It’s always fine.”

    The conversation continued this way with the beggar exhibiting perfect happiness about all things – he was in a state of bliss, he wanted no more than what he had, no nice home, no three meals a day, no nothing.  He had accepted his state & longed for nothing, nothing on the outside took his spirit down, he was always up.

    

        MY MESSAGE TO WOMEN

        Woman, you are TOLD what will make you happy.  You are TOLD you must GET MARRIED, HAVE CHILDREN, it is the normal, natural thing to do, no woman CAN BE HAPPY WITHOUT IT.    

    This is BRAINWASHING, this is INDOCTRINATION, this is PATRIARCHY telling you,

    “You have reproductive power, therefore you must reproduce, (& they don’t say FOR US but they mean it.)  They, (collectively, through men & brainwashed women) are telling you this & it’s FOR THEIR AGENDA.  What do I mean?

    Different men have different agendas, but it is always TO BENEFIT THEM, NOT YOU.

    First, & this is the worst:  they need men for war, ‘cannon fodder’ it’s called.  They take your sons before their brains develop, (their brains are not mature until twenty five), before they can vote, before they can make an intelligent decision, & they take the men who are ‘slaves of poverty’ in times of peace, in times of war, no one except the rich can get out of it.

    These men go out in UNJUST WARS to kill & be killed, wars started by WARMONGER BANKSTERS, the RICH WHO WILL BENEFIT, the poor will get wounded, killed, mental emotional scars, PTSD & LUCKY if they are taken care of as veterans.

    It’s well known that after every major war when so many males were killed or brutalized there was a step-up campaign for women TO BE FEMININE, to go back to the home, quit your job, be a WOMAN, fulfill your duty & START BREEDING AS FAST AS YOU CAN.

        YOU ARE BREEDING FOR WARS.    

    Second, many of the major religions – Muslim & Catholic to wit, but many others, if their anti-condom policies were revoked, if women stopped SERIAL BREEDING, the religions would SHRINK DOWN TO NOTHING; it is the serial breeding that makes these religions grow, NOT ANY INTELLIGENT CHOICE OR DECISION.

    The idea of NOT TO USE CONDOMS is men’s.

    What are you doing when you obey the laws of such religions?  You are PRODUCING CHILDREN FOR UNJUST, MISOGYNISTIC SOCIETIES THAT ENSLAVE YOU & YOUR CHILDREN, generation after generation.  Each progeny tells the lies to the next one, the lies keep living.

    WHAT DO YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE IF YOU DO NOT HOOK UP WITH A MAN?

    That is precisely what this religion is about—what to do, why you do it.

    For starts, create your own society, a subculture of women.  Right now, there is no such thing, because if it existed, I’d be in it.

    The only female ‘subculture’ I know of is that of gay women & it’s not RELIGION BASED.  (Yes there are tiny offshoots from Patriarchs in Africa, all-woman communities, I’m delighted with them.  The men they left behind are failing, they are doing well.)

    (A matriarchy in China – the MOSUO - is run in a logical, efficient way.  Males visit females in their homes, leave in the morning, children stay with the Mom’s family.  Great – have sex with them & get rid of them where they can’t abuse you or the children.  You had your love/fun, that’s all they’re good for, you control the rest – the resources are in your hands, you don’t have to compromise your life to get money out of a man.)

    We have to start somewhere, & anywhere we start is good.  The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step, take it.  I have done what I can, now I pass it on to you.

    THE IMPORTANCE OF THE RELIGION &  SPIRITUALITY OF OUR MOVEMENT

    “Without a vision, the people perish.”

    This is our vision:  God lives in the Sahasrara, the energy center in the head, in the middle of the brain.  Siddha Yoga calls this ‘the blue pearl.’  I have a book where the Dalai Lama says God is there as an energy center in the middle of the brain.

    When you see images of saints with gold circling their heads it means that this energy center is radiating.

    Yoga describes the energy centers through the body, along the spine called the ‘Sushumna Canal’.  It starts with the Muladhara, near the reproductive organs.  When this ‘lights up’ you are ‘born again’ or it’s the beginning.  When the Power goes to the heart or Ajna center, Ramakrishna said it’s the beginning of true spirituality—true spirituality is sainthood.

    When it goes higher than that, you are getting the ‘betrothal’ to Christ or God, when it hits the topmost point; you are Enlightened or Self Realized, married to God – She has given Herself to you, you have given yourself to Her.

    This is when you, Woman, become God.  This is what God was telling me for many years, when I saw Her outside myself, in a vision she showed me my writings, & She said,

    “These are the writings of God.”

    I did not understand.  In 1971 I heard a Voice, clear as a bell, talking to me, guiding, directing me.  I had been in a place of solitude, meditation for a full year – I even quit work for this. (I did that again in 1980,  quit work for a full year to meditate & pray – wow, was I happy! - & in early 1981 I saw God face to face, first in February, then in March.)  After a year, being disengaged or abstracted from people & things, my mind cleared up & as I said, I heard a Voice.  I asked,

    “Who are you?”

    And the Voice said,

    “I am YOU.”

    And I said, 

    “You can’t be me, I’m me.”

    The Voice did not explain.

    This was 1971 – I was twenty six years old.

    The Voice could have told me that God was inside me, I had contacted that God, She was speaking to me from another level, higher than my flesh.  But for some reason, I would not have understood – Years of brainwashing, that God was in outer space must have blocked my mind.

    YOU CANNOT SERVE TWO MASTERS, YOU CANNOT OBEY TWO VOICES

    Woman, Thou Art God.  If you have reached the God within you, & She appears before your mind, your heart, your ears, do not listen to any other voice.

    I made that mistake later in the year when getting away from a Bogi Yogi – (a pot-bellied Hindu phony who got curioser & curioser—I ran for my life) & was helped by a lady minister named Verna Talbot.

    Now she was not a phony, but a flawed person –not flawed a little, flawed a lot.

    Here’s the story:  She got me under her clutches.  She helped me, then she hurt me.  Her Power was an Anointing – no mistake about that.  I saw she was flawed, I would find out how much.  My reasoning was that if God Anointed her, & I wanted to learn about God, I just had to take her as she was.  If I said she wasn’t ‘good enough for me’ then would I be judging God, who Anointed her?  It would be sort of like saying to one’s Mother – she’s flawed, I don’t want her.

    Here was a catch.  I was channeling my Voice, which had been talking to me past the Bogi Yogi, releasing me from him, showing me how to escape, presenting a Power above him, the Power intimidating him, then when I saw how dangerous he was (he told me if I could put a hatpin through my hand & make an instant healing/repair then I was ready to leave him), I had to run, & Verna helped me pack up, took only the barest necessities, left all else behind, & moved in with her.

    But she didn’t like my Voice!  She told me that yes, my Voice was guiding me, helping me, but she, Verna, was much older, wiser, more mature & HIGHER UP.  This went on for weeks.  She hounded me.

    I had to make a decision, listen to the Voice or to her?  Finally, it was hard, I said I would listen to her.

    I recall that sad day when my Voice said, 

    “If you listen to her, I have to stop.  And I heard a door close – no more Voice.”

    Now I was no longer being protected from HER – the woman supposed to be my savior.  She was nuts of course, but she did have some God Power.  How nuts?  By her words, she was HIGHER THAN JESUS CHRIST.  She was in the Kathryn Kuhlman choir, but it was her healing power that was authentic, not Kathryn Kuhlman’s – Kathryn Kuhlman was USING HER ENERGY.

    She declared to me that SHE WASN’T EVIL like the Bogi Yogi:  “I’m not using you for sex.”

    No, indeed, she was using me for money.

    And when it stopped, she used her Power – the negative end of it, to try to have me killed.  I am not making this up, I am telling the truth.  (I explain it in my You Tube videos.) 

    I was giving Verna a good deal of money proportionate to what I had – she demanded it.

    On her birthday we threw a party, financed by yours truly.  A dozen friends were there.  She did a trance thingy, where in the trance, she told us her plans for the future, including the land she told me WAS FOR THE CHURCH WHICH I PAID FOR.  She declared that ALL SHE CARED ABOUT WAS HER SONS & LEAVING THEM EVERYTHING, INCLUDING THE LAND.

    I then realized I was duped & told her the next day I was leaving, packed up, got a cab.  She physically tried to stand in my way, but I just walked around her & out.

    I checked into a motel.  Shortly after that, a young man began stalking me, attacked me with a knife to try & rape me – but I won the fight & he ran.  But that wasn’t the end.  He called me again & again at the motel, threatening to kill me if I didn’t let him, & said he’d rape me dead or alive.  The police got involved & spent hours tracing the call.  They found the 19 year old black boy calling from a coffee shop, they arrested him.

    My solution to the problem was to leave California.  A police detective friend drove me to the airport (not without trying to get me to go to his apt.)  I had had enough of phonies, users & killers.  Good bye California, there I go, back to New York & my father’s place.

    I called Verna to tell her what had happened, by her reaction I KNEW WITHOUT A DOUBT SHE HAD CAUSED IT, she tried to hide her glee but it was there.

    But Verna Talbot was not finished.  She had said ‘beware of ministers, they have abilities, they can hurt you’ & she was the worst one.

    I got involved with her again, then again I quit because of the financial drain.

    Sure enough, a second male after that got involved with me on the pretext of doing a documentary.  He was black also – his name was Jay thirty six years old.  He hung around me while I was talking to the youth I had collected for the ministry – I was never alone with him.

    The minute I was alone with him he was going to rape me—he grabbed me to start but I begged off saying I had to go to the rest room - & I found out later from God, if he had raped me he would have killed me.  HE HAD BEEN SENT BY VERNA TALBOT, her God Power gone amuck, using it to kill a disciple because she stopped donating.

    I was saved from this man by a miracle.  A young black male, 6’4”, who I used to play basketball with, saw us walking down the street.  He said God told him,

    “Do not leave her alone with him.  Follow her, knock on her door.”

    As I ran to my door & pulled it open (Mr Rapist was 20 feet away,) there was Bruce ready to knock on the door – God had saved me again.

    Eventually I did escape Verna Talbot with the assistance of a woman psychic – who gave me the courage & spiritual support to end it.  I wrote Verna an official letter of resignation from her Church.  She called to ‘bust my chops’ but I didn’t answer.

    The last note on that is she died three years later, appearing to me in Light & giving me her ‘mantle.’  I was the only one who could wear it.

    My point in all this:  Had I listened to my Voice, not her, all of this would have been avoided.  Verna persuaded me to ‘shut down’ my own God Guide, so she could preside over me.  Bad idea.  Whenever anyone else controls you, it will be THEIR AGENDA – I don’t care who it is, unless they are a great saint without flaws, people will take from you what they want & need, you need to protect yourself.

    I make the analogy here with you giving yourself to men & breeding.  I do understand, that you might be stuck in a Muslim society where you are so enslaved to disobey could be death.  But in a Catholic world, they can’t kill you, if you are railroaded into marriage make sure it’s what you want, & if you don’t want children or too many, use condoms.

    I also know other sects, like the marginal Mormon cults, can be brutal to women – I have interviewed two of their women for hours – these women escaped.  You can’t do much in these repressive sects except to escape.

    As far as your mind & soul in terrible communities – take care of it when you can—pray, meditate, to the God within you; stay alone when you can, be with like-minded sisters if you find any.

    If you are NOT FORCED to take care of men, reproduce & nurture children you never asked for – don’t do it.  

    I will repeat once again:  Woman, Thou Art God, the world depends on you to save it.  You cannot save it unless you save yourself.  You save yourself by finding the God within you, worshiping Her,  gaining Self Realization, receiving Her Power, using Her Power to help others;  spreading the truth, freeing the captives.

    The Patriarchy CAN GET NOWHERE WITHOUT YOU, the woman.  It thrives & works by YOUR COOPERATION.  If you stop COOPERATING it COLLAPSES.

    Males can do NOTHING – NOTHING WITHOUT WOMEN – they have no world without women, they are dependents on women, parasites actually, says Dr. Bryan Sykes, geneticist, & Ashley Montagu, anthropologist.

    Woman, Thou Art God.  Save the world by saving yourself, like in the airplane they tell you in an emergency, put your oxygen on first, then help the others.  Unless YOU ARE EMPOWERED YOU CANNOT HELP THE OTHERS, THIS RELIGION WILL SAVE YOU, THEN YOU SAVE THE REST.

To be continued  8-21 -19    Rasa Von Werder

8-16-19-Installment IV- Finished 8-17-19

Embodiment of GodWoman

WOMAN THOU ART GOD-a New Religion That Teaches Women to Worship the God Within 

        Woman, thou art God:  It behooves you to have a Realm on Earth.

    As a woman of God, the God within, you will not be welcomed by Patriarchy.  You have already STEPPED OUTSIDE OF IT.

    Consider:  Single women ARE NOT WELCOMED IN PATRIARCHY BY THOSE WHO ARE ALREADY MATCHED UP – but SINGLE MEN ARE.

    It took me YEARS to figure out that paradigm.  Then I got it.

    Single women, upon entering a meeting with a male/female couple, empower the female (unless she’s a witch looking to steal the guy), while single men empower the male.  Get it?  Female is NOT TO BE EMPOWERED    BUT MALE IS.    This is accepted in normal social intercourse – an unwritten law – but it’s become UNCONSCIOUS, unstated, so folks no longer know why single females are not invited.

    This is a DILEMMA you will HAVE TO FACE if you decide NOT TO MARRY OR HAVE A STEADY MATE or LIVE IN.  You will face OSTRACISM (as women do) & that is one of the most difficult situations to bear – many people die from the torture of this.

    Ostracism is one reason (not the only one) that women marry.  (It used to be, before typewriters, let’s say, that MARRIAGE WAS THE ONLY EMPLOYMENT FOR WOMEN-now the majority of women have JOBS other than marriage, they are much freer.)  Still, for women who are ‘loose’ or ‘free’ from men, who are not hooked up or attached, these women are shunned.

    This alienation (as I said, a painful state) encourages women to get with a guy, then they are seen as ‘normal,’ ‘natural,’ ‘one of us.’  At twenty five or thirty at most, if you’re not married, you’re suspected of being gay, unwanted or weird.

    And so, women are AFRAID to be single!  (Don’t you like men?  Don’t you want children?)  There is PRESSURE on them that if they want to be ACCEPTED, approved, applauded, given the A-OK label, they MUST BEHAVE like other women.  Therefore, many marriages are FORCED through PUBLIC ACCEPTANCE PRESSURE.

    Acceptance, a form of ‘love,’ is extremely important.  Those who are not accepted feel unwanted, rejected, AS IF SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH THEM; they might begin to QUESTION THEMSELVES like the abused-- ‘what is wrong with me?’ & not know the answer.  They might tend to LOSE THEIR CONFIDENCE or even HATE THEMSELVES – think LITTLE of themselves!

    This of course happens to all peoples who are ‘marginalized,’—immigrants from foreign countries are pushed aside, have trouble getting work—this happened to Chinese, Irish & Jews (in America--immigrant nationalities in foreign countries to be sure).  The ones already entrenched felt privileged, these new folks would take their women & jobs, they’re called MINORITIES & they were & are PREJUDICED AGAINST, persecuted.  The new people therefore banded together into COMMUNITIES where they comforted, supported one another in a common bond.  With ‘their own kind’ they knew ‘there’s nothing wrong with me personally, I’m with others just like me & there’s nothing wrong with them, they’re being unfair to us.’  That’s how they survived.

    I was an immigrant myself, arriving at five at Ellis Island with family, immediately joining a Lithuanian Community.  (My Aunt & Uncle with Grandma had jobs secured in posh Waccabuc, N.Y.-this was my parents, myself & siblings.)  My Dad had a job with a Lithuanian deli, we joined a Lithuanian Church where Dad organized a school, Mom produced plays in the Church auditorium—we enjoyed a Lithuanian society where you didn’t have to learn English until you went outside of it, of course, I went to school & had to learn.

    During the time we were surrounded by peers it was a shelter, a cocoon, a PROTECTED SPACE where we KNEW OUR CULTURE, AGENDA & CONCERNS.  Like any group, we had certain approved customs & cherished ideas, we had a protocol of manners & behavior.

    When this community was left & we lived in an American culture – all bets were off, we learned a new style of life, culture, manners, behavior, even thought.  We had to learn & ADJUST.

    Now before going any further let me make the point, that we woman are not adjusting to our NATIVE, primordial, natural feminine world; when we are born we are slowly but surely indoctrinated into a FOREIGN CULTURE such as we knew not thousands of years ago.  Within our genetics a move toward Mother God – not father – still remains, an instinct for LEADERSHIP, decision making, GREAT CONFIDENCE, & other qualities which cause us to automatically lead our family, community, culture, religion & government – the entire world.  We were IT – there was no questioning our authority for untold eons, since humanity began, & then of course we were usurped.  There was a war – the myth is Lucifer, against God – the myth means men against Mother God & women, wanting to be like them, wanting their prerogatives, privileges, power, all the rights women had that were not questioned.

    The myth purports one being as bright as the stars, Lucifer, Bearer of Light, who felt he was so great, he did not have to serve!  He said he was beautiful, he deserved Love, Obedience, Allegiance, all the things God had!

    But he wasn’t beautiful too long, since he SINNED against God in MORTAL SIN (death to the spirit) the Almighty took away his grace (Love) & he turned into the greatest monster who ever lived:  Satan, & this Satan is PATRIARCHY.

    We now live under its thralldom for Satan instituted his kingdom on earth – He is the ‘Prince of this world,’ he rules the world with ‘one third of the angels went with him’—which includes a percentage of females who betrayed Our Holy Mother.

    This kingdom is not to last long – in Yoga it’s called ‘Kali Yuga,’ an evil empire that appears & disappears pretty fast.  And speaking of Yoga, the Hindus also have a myth from eons ago where the male Gods could not subdue the demon Maharashtri – they had to call on a female God, Durga, who slayed him.  But upon dissolution, his BLOOD falling to the ground, each drop became more demons.  Durga then turned herself into KALI, a monstrous Godess who lapped up all the blood, end of Maharashtri.

    Maharashtri is Patriarchy, who the male God’s (human men) could not subdue/remove.  He calls on the Feminine Divine, Mother God, She appears as Durga, the avenger. (This represents God working through women.)  Through the beauty She gives herself she seduces, then kills the demon, but he cannot be stopped as he multiplies himself. (Men keep being born, perpetuating the Patriarchy.)  Mother God then decides to call in men, bearing down on their Y chromosome, the gene through which they were created, & decrees the EXTINCTION OF MEN, thereby ENDING PATRIARCHY.

    The Durga & Lucifer myths are ancient, people knew in their primordial selves what was going on & they explained it in symbolic terms.  What floors me is the myth of Durga predicts male extinction eons ago, which was only explained recently in a book by Dr. Bryan Sykes– “Adams’s Curse – A World Without Men”—2004.

    Now to get back to my point.

    The woman is faced with a dilemma, resist being a part of the Patriarchal norm, be ostracized, alone, shunned by society.  I suggested that she do so, if she can, live alone if necessary or with female roommates (or males who leave her alone), not lust for the higher financial & social status a ‘rich man’ (or any man with a job & strings) could give her – resist being therefore, ‘owned’ by a Patriarch, producing children for Patriarchy, partaking of Patriarchal society, being consumed, drained, eaten up by Patriarchy & produce kids that are sucked into that demonic void.

    I purport that in doing so, the woman loses HERSELF, that is to say, her identity & her God-Self, for she needs time & energy to pursue this, after first giving her heart to Mother God.  I said before, she needs time to be alone, to study, meditate, time to find what is called Enlightenment or Self Realization, time, energy & FOCUS (put first the Queen’s World of Mother God & all things shall be added unto you, Mother God is a jealous God, put no Strange Gods before Her!)  That Power/Presence of Mother God is deep within a woman, but the world takes her away from the pursuit.  The world—(of Patriarchy, not Matriarchy)—DRAINS her mentally, emotionally, spiritually & physically.  This is EXACTLY what happens in a male dominated Patriarchal marriage & family.  When, oh when, does a woman have time for HERSELF?  What I propose would take HOURS A DAY, not fifteen minutes, a half hour or even one hour, several hours a day at the very least!

                BASIC ISSUES

        There are two basic issues now to be addressed.  One, is how does the anti-Patriarchal woman survive the ostracism?  

And second, for she who cannot turn her back on all things manly, but chooses to have a boyfriend or mate, or has or will have a husband and family, but yet wants to follow the path of being a Matriarch & finding herself – how does she manage it?  How does she behave & talk with her boyfriend or husband?  And if she has boy children, what does she say to them or teach them about God?

In the area of surviving ostracism there has to be SISTERHOOD.  Men have umpteen avenues of ‘escape’ from women – men’s clubs, men’s sports where when watching you don’t exist, men doing ‘boys night out or men-type recreation, but refusing the same privilege to women or woman can’t do it for watching kids, men’s jobs especially in the past, they could stay away from home & hide activities other than work (usually being with other women, or men.) 

As a woman ‘slave’ or ‘prisoner’ in a man’s Patriarchy, if you’re married, & especially have children, you will rip your hair out trying to get away.  It will be one of the hardest things you’ve ever done.

When at the age of seventeen I got hooked up with my first husband – an evil man – (twice as old as me) - he didn’t want me to go to college or learn to drive.  He also tricked me into getting pregnant, not following the birth control we had employed, I quit college because he got cancer, I had a sick man & baby on my hands before long.  I did learn to drive, thank God.

    I was stuck, saddled, fettered & grounded until he died.  At first, when we were together, I tried to become a model.  Bringing the photos home, he tore them up.

    When we met, I just needed a loan of about 500 bucks which he refused to give – they want to own you.  I could have worked as a waitress & supported myself with that small loan, had my own apartment, found my own way, but of course, he finagled to have me live with him then insisted on marriage, got me pregnant on the sly.

    Taking care of him with cancer & the baby was all-consuming.  When he died it emptied our bank account, I had 5 bucks left to my name.  His last legacy to me was cancel the life insurance a fellow teacher encouraged him to get – this would have given child & me some security until I got to work, but no, that was too good to be true.  Out of an act of utter malice before he died he called the company & cancelled it.

    That’s how I became a dancer & for the rest of my life, I supported myself.  No man ever again got me into his clutches, I worked all my life & eventually had good security.  My second husband helped a lot, but while he lived, he did not support me, I was either a dancer or later changed that into a mail-order business.  I was the first person in my family (of my siblings) to buy my own house, & this with my own money.

    My second husband did not interfere with my life, I did as I wanted, (we never lived together) but at that time, I was unable to do the work of Mother God, because I was the recipient of the Interior Divine Stigmata & for eighteen years, this put me into the ‘Dark Night of the Soul.’  That meant I could not commune with God in any way, shape or form, a high price to pay for the Divine Grace.  I’m not sorry about it, just explaining, you can read my book on the subject, ‘On the Attainment of the Divine Stigmata’ available on Lulu Press.

    In FUTURE, there isn’t much of that now, women MUST GET TOGETHER & have gatherings.  Before they even build any kind of temple, there must be a constituency, women who believe, & there must be lots of them.

    In these gatherings women must talk & PRAY TOGETHER.  These prayer meetings are of utmost importance, because we are FIGHTING AN ENEMY & there are many of them, & it pays if we are many, & in order to beat this enemy we must put on ‘The whole armor of God.’

    We must have Spiritual Powers & virtues to defeat the demons who enslaved us, & we must have guidance from above & we need the camaraderie, companionship, support both moral & physical, of our sister prisoners.

    The best example I can give of how prayer helps is consider the Civil Rights Movement in the U.S.  Rev. Martin Luther King Jr was the leader.

    In Selma, Alabama there was a bus strike by the blacks, started by Rosa Parks refusing to give up her seat to a white & sit in the back.  As she sat motionless, police were called, she was arrested & right quick the strike was on.

    All the blacks boycotted the buses, thereby cutting their revenue by half.  They found other ways of getting to & from work & other errands.

    OK, but what sustained them?  They were going through intense hardships, even risking their lives, as the strike expanded to the ‘Civil Rights Movement’ all over the South, with lunch counter sit ins, entrance into white schools, challenging the voting system & the like.  Lives were threatened, lives were lost, how did they endure?

    It was through FELLOWSHIP & PRAYER.  These people – every night without fail – gathered in Churches, prayed together & sang together,    

    “WE SHALL OVERCOME!”

    Women must do the same thing.  We don’t have Churches yet, & it’s just as well as they will burn them, break our windows & shoot us going in & out.

    I suggest we start meeting in secret places, just as did the Christians during persecution.  The Christians met in caves – we don’t have any, so we meet in houses or places women own – such as restaurants – beauty parlors – stores – etc., not in the front rooms, but with doors closed, back rooms or curtains drawn, not to draw attention.

    I say this because a study of the things men did to women when they resisted Patriarchy warms me, that even one man knowing where the women meet presents a threat.  One man can put it into his head he must prevent ‘his woman’ from finding freedom, & they are famous for violence, & so, one man knowing where we meet presents a threat to the entire congregation.

    Why are men so reactive?  As long as you obey or cooperate they are somnambulant & don’t do a thing.  They’ll watch their sports hours on end, ignoring you.  They stay secure in the knowledge they own you forever.  Many men don’t even want their wives to work, if they can afford that, for fear of their independence especially they might meet another man.

    If you belong to a female congregation of Mother God, you have to play it down.  You have to present it to your live-in man or husband in a non-threatening way.  You are joined to a group for DISCUSSION ON THINGS RELEVANT TO WOMEN:  Health, taking care of children, ways to get bargains in stores, & PRAYING FOR GOOD HEALTH, PROSPERITY & PROTECTION for oneself, family, & friends.

    Let him know that these women cooperate & are willing to help during times of sickness, tragedy, loss of life, family troubles, losses, injuries – any kinds of bad luck – they will be there for us, they will have our backs.

    (These are things we can certainly do, but it’s not our purpose.  Our purpose is devotion to Mother God, prayer to Her for our Enlightenment & freedom, dismantling of Patriarchy & emergence of Matriarchy, & a real Intimate, Powerful relationship with Her & reception of all Her gifts, graces & miracles.)

    He might ask for the address & you can never, ever give that to him – as that compromises safe space.  Indeed, he will get ever more suspicious without that info – here we come to the nidus of why it’s not a good idea to be involved with a man if you want to pursue perfect freedom from them – they don’t want you to be free.

    Your man will say what if an emergency comes up, esp if you have children? The child thing will make it more difficult.  You will have to tell him that you will call him a few times from where you are to see if everything is alright.

    How they are:  I once had a female model who told her boyfriend my address, where we would be taking pictures.  They were just ordinary pictures, but he put it into his mind that we would be doing pics with other men – it was hysteria.  Why she gave him the address, I have no idea.

    Sure enough, he showed up.  I did not answer the door as I knew he’d make trouble.  He banged on the door harder & harder, went to every window shouting for her to come out.  We went to an inner room, put all the lights out & just sat there until he left, which was a long time.

    Every female model who had a boyfriend, or man pursuing her, once she told him she was modeling, did all that he could to prevent it.  I lost two of my best models that way, they could not stand the thought of the beautiful girl being photographed & then admired by other men - & her independence regarding money also scares him.

    We must face the fact of male behavior when we seek independence.

    It brings to mind a husband in a Latin country – he was a doctor, it was in a documentary.  His beautiful young wife wanted to go to college – he forbid her, she did it anyway.  He went to the school, as she was leaving the campus he shot her dead.  NOTHING WAS DONE TO HIM at the time of the documentary, I imagine if it even went to court he got a slap on the wrist or some meaningless ‘punishment.’  Males are often allowed to kill us with impunity – it turns out to be our fault instead of theirs.  So you must be careful because PATRIARCHS ARE INSANE & the law is on their side, even in America.

    Now we come to what happens in repressive countries especially Muslim ones who have theocracy, Sharia law & ‘honor killings?’

    It’s almost impossible for women there to do anything independent.  Nothing is impossible, but almost.  The best I can say is spend as much time as you can in prayer, meditation, & time for yourself.  Channel Mother God, call on her day & night to find a way.  If you can, escape, if you can’t, pray for a miracle.  Miracles do happen.

    I know how hard it was for me here in America, where we’re supposed to be ‘free’ so I can hardly imagine what happens in third world countries, in Orthodox religions, in cults & sects where men control.  You have to escape those environments if & when you can, whatever way you can. And your greatest weapon is prayer.

    Next question is what do you teach your boy-child about religion?  Teach him the same thing you believe yourself, that God is within him, alive & well.  He can reach the God within him through the usual spiritual methods, devotion, prayer, good works, avoidance of sin.  There’s no problem practicing the Patriarchal religions as long as one leaves behind the bad & retains the good.

    There is also the religion of Wicca, I once belonged to a coven, we met in the woods, there were as many men as women.  We did lovely rituals guided by a ‘God & Godess, mostly the Godess.  This is something one has to study, like anything else.  It has holidays, rituals, prayers, spells, just like any other religion.  It is not evil, that’s all propaganda of Patriarchs when they wanted to kill off women, & kill them they did.  Between the 1200’s to the 1700’s they tortured, burned to death & otherwise killed about nine million women; it was the Women’s Holocaust.  This I have studied a bit, it’s not something one wants to dwell upon.

To be continued.  Rasa Von Werder.  8-17-19