Trip to Purgatory

 

1-5-25                         Prayed to St. Charbel again & had the LONGEST trek through the wilderness I can ever remember - & am sure this is a trip to Purgatory!

There was a WOLF chasing me prior to the edge of the forest & I wanted to run away so I got going. After a good distance he turned into a male friend, & we traveled together for so many miles!

The woods turned into different sections & types of trees, paths, roads, all beautiful. I surprised myself that I had that much ENERGY & strength, much more than physical life.

As he & I traversed the wilderness for miles, we saw wider roads that a car could go through & paths. One path was so beautiful, hard to describe. It was up & down hills, the trees changed, the vegetation was different, the views different but we pushed ahead. Where were we going? We were leaving behind civilization by many miles – this has happened in y dreams many times but this was longer than usual. We didn’t even know where we were.

At one point we came upon a group of people, 5 or 6, & they were with the same number of tame black bears, all standing in a group. My friend & I did think about bears from time to time but we did not encounter any.

We asked these people, where are we? And they did not know the frame of reference so I asked, knowing we were 15 miles further than this,

“How far are we from Binghamton?”

A man said 15 miles, so I knew we had WALKED 30 miles.

And I asked, what is ahead?

He said a CONVALESCENT CLINIC. I imagined long-term illnesses that were hard to cure.

And I asked, after that, what towns or cities are we headed for?

He said some places that are unfamiliar that sounded like Pennsylvania –Semma or Sella or Cilla – some sound like that & another place, where I’ve never been. Wow, had we gone far & where would we end up?

We continue trekking & we come up the Clinic - it wasn’t what I expected – a strong building like a hospital. There were SHACKS, pitiful ones, several standing apart, squares. Then there were more dilapidated shacks not exactly squares but of various types with pitiful windows. They were all on my left. I felt DREAD from these places & hoped nothing contagious would touch us & we didn’t want to visit any of its inhabitants. We moved by & I was glad we passed this.

And so we kept going forever until I woke up.

MEANING

*{For sure this is PURGATORY. The group of people with tame bears – bears are hardship or suffering {notice the ‘bull & bear stock market symbols, bull is good, bear is bad.} Them being TAME is these people are used to these suffering, they are FAMILIAR to them. Being black are also TERRIBLE sufferings – the worst. It goes from grey, to brown to black sufferings in the order of intensity. Black would have no ‘redeeming’ value – nothing to say ‘this has a good side to it.’ And so, these are souls in a bad Purgatory.

Now the CLINIC seems even worse than that, I dread any contact with it, am relieved to pass the souls housed here.

Dwellings in Purgatory or Heaven are indicative of the consciousness, mental, emotional states of the inhabitants. They are the results of karma. We reap what we sow. If we sinned, we now pay. They are FORGIVEN but what is forgiven must also be PAID FOR.

And by the same logic when we get to Heaven, there also is our karma, the more LOVE we gave the more Love we receive. And Love determines our eternal state, be it high or low or medium. God also gives us ‘dwellings’ according to our desires & merits. Some live in ordinary apts or houses, others have islands & mansions, castles, entire towns or cities {I imagine-have not seen any!}.

The place my Mom & brother inhabit is a small house, like an apt, very plain. But I saw Errol Flynn with his own island in the sky, surrounded by water, a lush tropical one!

What is the WOLF pursuing me that I begin to run from on my journey? It would have to be the Saint I’ve been praying to – St. Charbel. How is he a scary wolf? I really love wolves, they’re one of my favorite animals, & wolves became dogs, our best friends. I need time to decipher this. Maybe he’s a ‘spirit guide’ taking that form for some reason, but why? Because I love wolves? Maybe because I did not pray to him for about a year since he became my spiritual husband- I avoided him. Was I afraid of him – his GREATNESS? - Because such greatness would convict me of my sins & faults?

The DISTANCE that we traverse here – there is no time & space on the Other Side, & so this distance is one of spiritual terms. How can it be measured?- Far from God or Truth?- Far from the Beatific Vision? Notice that it is WITH THE AID OF THIS SAINT that I go here, not alone! It’s a DAUNTING trip to go to Purgatory, especially its FAR REACHES so the Saint takes me there. John Dowie also guided me into Purgatory long ago to see my Mom – 2003 it was as she spent 24 years in Purgatory – a LONG stretch. James Brown spent 17 – Anthony Quinn 13 – these are considered long stretches to my experience. Elvis did 5.5 years – I consider him the average decent person. He had his faults – consider the way he treated Priscilla, in the most selfish, tyrannical manner. But he also did good deeds of generosity.}*