Meaningful Dreams - Purgatory & Karma

 

4-11-25 Nick – Little Faces – terrible quarters – Re my ‘twin flame’ Nick – his behavior & desire for me – other issues

To start with Nick. He is avoiding me & hurting me. He’s tarrying with this fat girl. But as he’s with her I notice he’s inching toward me. I’m sitting talking to people doing something. He’s behind me & with the girl & getting closer & closer, pretending he wants to be with her but getting so close he can feel my vibes, I can feel his presence.

She’s getting frustrated as they have nothing to do. She sits there like they are at a picnic outside but it seems inside & she’s got some pages, like cardboard ones, in her hands, which are light brown designs. They did something & there’s like NOTHING for them to do & she’s getting so bored & expects him to entertain her, have something on the agenda, but he hasn’t.

He’s playing a game – deluding himself & everyone – that he’s with her but there’s nothing there & he’s getting closer to me. This is a mind game & its hurting me.

MEANING:

*{ME to MOTHER GOD: I know this is about Nick & his druggie friend Ruthie, who did get fat. But what does it mean? In real life, indeed, he was carrying on this game & it hurt me. Pretending he wanted to be with his partner, but wanting to actually be with me all the time. What is it here that frustrates her, that they have nothing to do & he has no activity for them? And what are the brown papers with designs?

MG: He is reaping what he sowed - & so are you to be shown down the dream. Now he’s in the ‘underdog’ position. When living, he carried the onus of hurting you & boy, did he. But now, he can’t hurt you any more because you got over the ‘in love’ addiction to him even before he died – then he died, then he really could no longer hurt you. But he is alive in spirit, & now it’s his turn to suffer, & he is. Ruthie is suffering also because she really LOST something – she has none of this fake love any more. He can do nothing for her, he has no power. She somehow waits & hopes for something, but nothing happens.

 The brown designed papers – papers here are MESSAGES, like ‘the writing on the wall’ is prophecy – receiving a letter in a dream is receiving knowledge or information. Some papers are flat in front of her, one she holds in her hand. BROWN – this is light brown – is depression. Light brown is not the worst, but it is sadness or sorrow. She is depressed because of him – not having him – not having any more activity with him.

But what is he doing?- Trying to get closer & closer to you in the spiritual realm – to feel your love. But he no longer has the onus or the top banana position, he has to inch like a worm, & here they are both on the floor with a blanket like the picnic scene – they are not high up or evolved. You can feel his NEED & it offers you some consolation but still, he has much to pay for karmically. You have seen before in God’s explanations that now he is forever waiting for you to notice him as you were forever waiting for him to come to you – he made you wait weeks with no date, he blocked you from his Face book & treated you in cavalier style. But now – it’s the opposite. You are not trying to hurt him, but simply have not much need of him, like you might need Jesus, Mary or a saint. He’s just Nick – who had a body to please you with, but now his body is gone.}*

But then relief comes. I have appeared here as a celebrity. Dozens of children have been watching me, near the door, peering at me like you would at someone famous you are shy about.

Then all at once, as I lie on my back, they come in & surround me & their little heads all above me – pleasant faces – smiling or not they are happy. They are all wearing bright, colorful clothes, some with flounces. They stay a while, consoling me, then they leave.

*{These are souls in Purgatory, to whom I am a celebrity - & they treat me with love & respect I don’t get much in real life So they make me happy, I am consoled. The flounces on the clothing remind me of period costumes – outfits from a bygone era, which might be saying, some have been in Purgatory a while.}*

Then I decide to see about a new apt. I speak to a real estate man, who seems like a baker, dressed like that, a white cotton bandana around his head, white garments but not fully covered. Like an image I saw of a baker.  💚💚💚💚💚

Below, the late Nick, my twin flame, united with me forever.

He takes me to a building, ushers me in, takes me to one apt. Oh, how horrible. A little room to the right – no windows – it’s about 4’x6’, & a tiny room in front which has a shower – with a curtain in front of it – that’s all there is. I ask him to show me another one, he does, and it’s almost the same. As I leave I say to him,

“I already have a house & an apt” & I was thinking of finding one that would overlook the ocean – my mind was on luxury. As I walked here I now recall, a path - there’s a girl near me, & my mind was on wealth that’s coming to me.

*{These two apts - miserable as can be – are Purgatorial premises. Who are they for? Ruthie & Nick or random souls? Ruthie is living so this might be saying it’s the Purgatory she’s in now – no windows means no opportunities, smallness is limitation. Limitation is a prison, a jail with walls you can’t get out of. And Nick is in the same sort of prison. It’s been shown me that he’s living both his Purgatory & partial Heaven with me. Most of the time he’s in Purgatory {less happy than I am because he hasn’t earned my happiness & he waits for me to dole out some of it to him} but on rare occasions when God gives me Bliss he might share it – that is both punishment & reward he is getting karmically – the good times because he did give me some joy once in a blue moon.

Who is the BAKER presenting me this? Definitely refers to Bl. Sacrament - I say the holy Mass nearly every day. And so it might be because of this that God grants me the VISION of where these people are. “Vision” comes from CHARITY – the more charity the more vision or understanding one begets.

Thinking about wealth & luxury – overlooking the ocean – is anticipating my Joy or ‘mansion’ in Heaven The girl walking with me is my flesh – it is my flesh that gains the future Fulfillment, the works & karma my flesh begets.}*    {End}

 

4-4-25 Red Shoes – Pain & Suffering

 

The date is approximate. I was in a room & a distinguished {serious, formidable} man & lady walk by in the hallway. I want to impress the man.

He comes into my room. I have a box of shoes – ordinary – black loafers, other shoes, some used & therefore not spotless. But in this box are two pairs of exquisite high heel sandals in red – this is what I want to impress him with.

*{I SENSE the man & woman are Jesus & Mary. I want to impress Him with something spiritual

SHOES represent ‘walk a mile in my shoes.’ They are my consciousness or experience. Ordinary shoes are every day life. But the exquisite RED shoes are some suffering I am about to receive. The first chance doesn’t work – maybe a sacrifice I failed to make. But the second is going to be.

It was about this time my beloved tiger cat Tommy disappeared – he’s been visiting me about 10 years – spending much time with me, eating at least two big meals a day at my house.}*

As he stands before me I pick up one shoe & both he & I seem to have our hands on it, but we fumble & it slides down the front of his body – which embarrasses me. *{Fumble is a failure in football. Maybe I failed @ some spiritual point. So it embarrasses me before the Lord.}*  But that’s not the shoe I wanted to show him anyway.

I take out one of the second pair & show him.

*{The other shoe probably says my grief over Tommy being gone – I dream he is badly hurt but don’t know from what & a week after this I see him in Heaven. Is this the step of suffering for me?}*   {End}