True vs False Love

 6-7-25 Yearning for Love – Appearing in Finery

 

Dream explains seeking love on earth will backfire – The road to love & happiness is taking up your Cross willingly, bearing your sufferings & look to God alone for happiness – the love of the world is false 

          There were so many scenes in this night’s “theater of the mind” will recount only the most striking ones, the rest are too vague now.

          First awoke in the middle of the night with a terrible yearning for love & the object was Tom Selleck {explained elsewhere why he’s the symbol of this} which means Jesus in His most Sacred Heart or the epitome of God’s True, Sacrificial style love.

          But when I awoke the yearning was absent – why was it there only in my dream? Was it my UNCONSCIOUS DESIRE for God’s Love or was I present in the mind of a poor soul in Purgatory?

          [Note: ‘sense image material was the love scenes between Carlton Heston & Jennifer Jones – he so handsome – in a movie called ‘Ruby Gentry’. I explain how we USE ‘sense image material not as a subject but as a symbol/tool for something else.  And it is to be noted that our physical yearning for love on earth is a precursor or microcosm of our actual need & desire for God’s love.]

          This changes into a scene where I’m in the biggest dept store, while innocently shopping end up in the BASEMENT of the store & cannot find my way out. {This is Purgatory!} No matter how I search & it’s long & tedious I cannot find an exit to go back up.

          Finally I see a female here, in a light green, soft dress, brown hair, & I ask her re the exit. She starts talking about some rigmarole thing one must do to exit – which is something like ‘four of fours’ where you have to do four things for some man, & then he gives you the ability to exit.

{A liar, demonic or criminal person tells me that one must serve a human man to get out of the Purgatory of lack of love. It must be through having A MAN’S LOVE she says. Serving a man, giving him what he wants.}

          This changes to where I’m on the other side of this huge premises & see several men appear. One is a working class, stocky, light hair on his face type guy {like a woodsman, with thick, casual wavy hair, soft mustache & beard}, & I ask him where is the exit. He points to it right there on the left, a wide staircase, not even a full floor tall only about 8’ at most, & the sides of it are painted white like stucco. I see daylight pouring in through this opening. Then it’s clear that female was giving me a line of bullcrap – she’s standing right there. Before I exit I go over to her & want to beat shyt out of her but I know it’s not allowed. Maybe I can hurt her sneakily. So I grab the

front of her body where I’m holding her torso squeezed in my hand – it’s gotta’ hurt – but then I change my mind & say,

          “God will take care of you –God will punish you.”

          She has a wide-eyed evil stare, like one caught in a crime but unremorseful.

          In a parallel dream I, with friends, am on a train. The train is supposed to take us ‘home’ – but it doesn’t. It takes us to a ‘dead end’ where I see a station underground or at least in a tunnel & the walls around it are plywood. I am trying with my friends to figure out what to do next. I guess we’ll wait for the train to come back – which is always does - & see it getting us out & then how we navigate.

          I do recall when I was on the train I put a PLANK of wood on the floor which I would take with me when I got off, but then it disappeared – someone had stolen it when they got off & I keep repeating,

“Someone took my stick!”

 

And the last scene is I am in love, but my lover has gone away & I don’t know with whom or why or anything, but I know I want him back – MADLY in love.

So I appear at his door in my finest regalia. It’s a light colored, most expensive mink coat or cape around my shoulders, & on my chest covering my entire chest & torso are many rows of the finest jewels –diamonds & pearls - & when he opens the door I’m standing there wearing this. Can’t recall what I say but he can’t resist me in this outfit & is bowled over like put into a trance.

But I’ discussing this with a male friend & he tells me this appearance of mine would not be a good idea {apparently I haven’t done it yet, just thinking about it}, it would not work in the long run – would somehow backfire – in spite of the fact that this regalia really was mine, properly earned. So I just worry a little about this.

[Note: Sense image material here is the movie of a wicked woman who uses men for money & she got into the charge account of one man she lied to about marriage, got the most expensive light color mink coat, most expensive watch, jewelry & other things & took him for a bundle. The movie is Arlene Dahl in “Wicked as They Come.”]

MEANING:

*{This is about True Love vs False. The True is God’s love – or at the very least, loving someone for themselves, not for what they have; prestige, status or money. There were times when I was in love on earth, longing for a return, but it never came. This is where the dreams show I am in Purgtory, at the bottom of the dept. store, or at the dead end where the train took us.

And there is someone I love madly on earth – this is a retrospective dream perhaps. I appear in my finery. Is this finery symbolic of the things of the world? Or the Gifts of God that I have been given? I shall ask Mother God.

MG: Either way, I sense it could apply to both. Never, ever, try to buy someone with your status, prestige & money. That will definitely backfire.

On the other hand, when they see what you have spiritually – your Gifts – that could also backfire. That is one reason why God did not open your portal with the huge Gift of Healing – it is not your forte. Look what happened to all the famous faith healers. Many DIED under sad or tragic circumstances. They were worn out like rags for people WANTING WHAT THEY HAD – the physical Gifts of Healing! This would happen to you the same way, they would drain you of your time & energy.

You have enough trouble as it is without that. God gave you a ministry where you could be left alone – you have nothing to give to those living – it is to the dead that you minister. Of course you do have an Anointing that does touch people on earth, but this is subtle, it’s not announced, it happens by itself & is not a public ministry, so they don’t run after you.

It’s a CURSE to be too beautiful, too sexy, as you know – to have too much to give. It’s the wrong kind of attention; it leads to a bad road.

No, do not advertise what you have, neither your physical gifts nor your spiritual. Keep it all private os they leave you alone. There you are safest.

People desiring what you have is torture – they want the things of the earth: physical healing, money, status, prestige – all those things. They want love of this word, of people. So don’t fall for it.

Rising up to Heaven is the only thing that counts.

That would be getting out of the basement in the dream about the dept. store & getting ‘home’ with the train dream. Heaven is your Home – where you want to be.

ME: Who is the man who easily points the way? - The rugged woodsman? And it was there all the time, so easy. But I didn’t see it.

MG: That’s Jesus. Isn’t He usually pictured that way?

ME: And the wicked woman? Who want me to go through this dubious man, some kind of four ways? What is the four ways?

MG: I guess a ‘dick in a skirt,’ the women who teach other women to give men what they want. If women did not uphold Patriarchy & pass it down to other women, it couldn’t work. They make Patriarchy work by making their daughters believe in it, grooming their daughters to please men instead of working for freedom. MEN LOVING YOU WILL BRING YOU HAPPINESS is their message & you’re pissed about this.

ME: The plank I had on the train that I call my ‘stick’ – which someone steals from me, I know is the Cross. What does this mean?

MG: Jesus said if you want to be His disciple, take up your Cross & follow Him. So if you lose your Cross – someone steals it from you – you cannot follow Jesus so you cannot be happy. So you come to that ‘dead end.’  This says don’t be afraid of your sufferings, carry them, bear them, just think about God & you will reach heaven. At the dead end the walls were covered with plywood which is suffering anyway. If you do not take up your Cross WILLINGLY you will suffer the loss of Heaven, which is true unhappiness, a true cross or pain with no redemptive side.

“Four ways” could mean a square – the traditional way of our society – In other words, the ‘status quo’ – women pleasing, serving men.

And the short staircase Jesus points you to stucco painted in white? The stairway to heaven isn’t terribly tall or long, it’s easy if you just see it & follow it.  {End}