Xxxx CAN’T UNDERSTAND WHY I’M AVOIDING HIM
THESE ARE INTERPRETATIONS OF
DREAMS WITH COPIOUS EXPLANATIONS OF SYMBOLS
I am on the RR track right between my property with the
path to the pond/river directly on the left.
There sits a young male who is very beautiful, like an angel from
Heaven. He has soft, smooth, tawny skin,
perfect features, nice nose with oval nostrils, he’s sitting on something,
don’t know what. It vaguely feels like
I’m forbidden to be intimate with him – don’t know why, but I decide to take
matters into my own hands.
I go over to him & give him a peck on his left cheek
& this peck turns into a real kiss, both ways, which goes on for a
while. I was real happy over this, that
he reciprocated, wanted the kiss as much as I did.
(THIS SOUNDS LIKE THE KISSES I MAKE FOR THE SOULS IN
PURGATORY. I MAKE TEN HUGS & TEN
KISSES ON BOTH CHEEKS FOR SOULS, AT THE END OF EVERY MASS. SOMETIMES I WONDER IF THEY FEEL ANY OF
IT. THIS SAYS SOMEONE DID.
THE CLUE IT’S A SOUL IS THE CHEEK. I KISS ON THE CHEEK, IT’S NOT SEXY. BUT WHEN IT TURNS INTO SOMETHING INTIMATE,
RECIPROCAL, IT SHOWS A DEPTH, AN EMOTION.
THE KISS WAS FELT, IT WAS RETURNED BY A SOUL.
I NOW RECALL DURING THE NIGHT AS I WAS IN A ‘TWILIGHT STATE’ I HEARD SOMEONE SAY ‘I LOVE YOU.’ IT WAS A SOUL – I HAVE HEARD THIS THOUGHT
BEFORE FROM BOTH LIVING PERSONS & SOULS.
MAYBE THIS SOUL SAID IT.
ANOTHER CLUE IT’S PURGATORY IS THE SPOT WHERE HE’S
‘SITTING.’
THE RAIL ROAD TRACK IS A ‘NO MAN’S LAND.’
IT’S OWNERSHIP IS NOT CERTAIN. IT
PROBABLY BELONGS TO SOMEONE ELSE; TO DISCOVER IF I HAVE RIGHTS OVER IT WOULD
COST ME THOUSANDS TO RESEARCH THE DEEDS BEFORE 1890. PURGATORY IS ALSO A ‘NO MAN’S LAND’ BECAUSE
TO REACH A SOUL IS A MILESTONE– ONE MUST HAVE SOME KIND OF HELP AS FROM A SAINT
IN HEAVEN OR AN ANGEL, WHO CONNECTS YOU TO THE SOUL IN A SPACE WHERE THERE ARE
UNTOLD TRILLIONS.
AN IMPORTANT CLUE IS THIS PERSON/SOUL IS SITTING BETWEEN
TWO AREAS ON MY LAND. HE IS NOT DIRECTLY
ON MY LAND (MY DOMAIN, A PLACE IN SPACE/SPIRIT I OWN OR HAVE JURISDICTION OVER)
BUT MY DOMAIN IS ON BOTH SIDES. BUT THE PATH THERE LEADS TO WATER – WATER MEANS
GRACE, A BIG SYMBOL OF IT.
{*SO
IS FIRE IN SOME CASES, BUT EACH SYMBOL MUST BE READ IN THE CONTEXT OF THE
DREAM. BOTH WATER & FIRE CAN GO BOTH
WAYS, DESTRUCTIVE OR CONSTRUCTIVE. FOR
INSTANCE, WHEN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS CALL THEMSELVES AN ‘UMBRELLA’ THEY ARE
SAYING AGAINST THE WATER OF FINANCIAL LOSS.
WHEN SOMEONE ‘RAINS ON YOUR PARADE’ THEY ARE SPOILING YOUR GOOD
TIMES. WHEN WATER FLOODS YOUR HOME IT’S
DISASTER.
BUT, WHEN RAIN COMES AFTER A DROUGHT,
IT’S A BLESSING. WHEN I SAW GOD FACE TO
FACE THE FIRST TIME, IT WAS A RIVER GUSHING OUT OF A MOUNTAIN, CASCADING
VIOLENTLY INTO A GORGE WAY DOWN UNDERNEATH ME.
THIS WAS THE TORRENT OF GOD’S GRACE COMING INTO MY SOUL.
THE SECOND TIME, IT WAS THE INFINITE GOLDEN
OCEAN OF LOVE, THE OCEAN WAS GOD, BUT IT WAS ALSO ME, & THE HORIZEN OPENED
UP CONTINUOUSLY, THERE WAS NO STOP TO IT.*}
THIS PATH LEADS TO MY POND IN THE
WOODS, THE SWAMP, & MOST OF ALL, THE RIVER.
IT’S A CLICHÉ TO SAY “RIVER OF GRACE.” THE SOUL IS
JUST SITTING IN PURGATORY WAITING FOR GRACE, I COME ALONG. THIS IS SAYING HE RECEIVED THE GRACE &
WAS GRATEFUL. HIS BEAUTY TELLS ME THAT
HE’S NOT FAR FROM HEAVEN, ALMOST READY TO ASCEND? OR DID HE ASCEND?) IT MIGHT BE MORE LIKELY HE DID ASCEND THAN
NOT, AS THIS IS EXTREMELY RARE THAT A SOUL WOULD BE SO BEAUTIFUL &
RECIPROCATE MY KISS!
A
SOUL BEING ‘BEAUTIFUL’ MEANS IT’S CLEANSED.
DURING THE TIME IN PURGATORY, THE SOUL GETS CLEANER & CLEANER, &
THEREFORE MORE BEAUTIFUL AS THE *NATURE OF GOD* IS REVEALED--& GOD IS
TRUTH, BEAUTY & LOVE. WE ALL HAVE
GOD WITHIN, BUT SIN OBSCURES OUR TRUE NATURE, LIKE PUTTING FILTH ON A PANE OF
TRANSPARENT GLASS. THE TIME IN PURGATORY
REMOVES THAT FILTH OR OBSCURITY.)
Then the scene changes.
It seems I’m alone all the time – feeling kind of isolated. I go out for a walk & come upon a lumber
yard. Here there are logs that are 1.5’
in diameter, dozens of them on a cart, many carts. The whole yard is filled with all these
felled trees, sawed up where only the thick, useable part of them is here,
ready to be sawed into planks for building I suppose.
(LUMBER IN MY DREAMS IS USUALLY THE CROSS. I AM IN PURGATORY, WHERE PEOPLE ARE WORKING
OFF THEIR KARMA, THE CROSSES THEY DID NOT FINISH CARRYING ON EARTH, I’M HERE TO
HELP THEM PAY THEIR DEBT.
THESE BIG TREES, SO MANY OF THEM, ARE GETTING READY TO BE
MADE INTO ‘CROSSES’ OR TORTURES FOR THESE SOULS TO ENDURE.
I AM ALONE, MENTALLY, PSYCHOLOGICALLY, IN A GOOD PLACE TO
MEET SOULS IN PURGATORY & I MEET TWO OF THEM.)
Here there are two men.
One is in a semi-enclosed room; the other is just outside that room
working, stooping on the ground doing something.
(THESE
TWO MEN I MAKE CONTACT WITH, ONE IS CLEANER THAN THE OTHER. THE ONE INSIDE A ROOM IS SEMI-CONFINED, THE
ONE STOOPING DOWN IS A CLUE HE MIGHT BE IN PRAYER, HUMBLE, AS IF KNEELING CLOSE
TO THE GROUND, POSSIBLY PRAYING FOR HELP--& THAT WOULD BE WHY I COME ALONG.)
I engage the one outside the room, not because I’m
attracted to him – not attracted to either one of these guys – just want
someone to talk to. The one in the room
I vaguely see a female behind him, she’s sort of ‘foggy’ to my sight.
I know they are both at a paid job & I’m lucky they can
pay attention to me away from their work.
If the boss was around he might take issue with me interfering, but he’s
apparently not around.
(I’M SAYING THIS IS NOT ON THE HUMAN PLANE, ME LOOKING FOR
HOTTIES, THIS IS ME WANTING TO CONNECT WITH SOULS FOR SPIRITUAL PURPOSES.
WHO
IS THE BOSS THAT MIGHT STOP ME? IT’S
SAYING THAT GOD IS NOT AROUND AS A ‘MEAN, TASK MASTER BOSS’, GOD HAS ABSENTED HIS/HER
WRATH, SO TO SPEAK, FOR ME TO MINISTER TO THEM.
ALSO
THE ONE IN THE ROOM SEEMS LIKE THE LADY BEHIND HIM COULD BE HOLY MARY OR
ANOTHER SAINT. HE MIGHT HAVE PRAYED TO
HER, SO SHE’S PRESENT TO HELP HIM. IT
COULD ALSO BE HIS GUARDIAN ANGEL.
GUARDIAN ANGELS STAY WITH US THROUGH OUR PURGATORY, SO I HEARD.)
After a while the one I’m talking to & I go away
somewhere. We’re doing something &
we return in about 20 minutes.
(TWENTY MINUTES IS AN AVERAGE TIME FOR MY MASS. SOMETIMES THEY ARE LESS, SOMETIMES I PRAY FOR
HOURS. THIS WOULD BE CONNECTING THIS MAN
WITH THE MASS—PERHAPS HE WAS ON HIS KNEES ASKING FOR A MASS.)
When we do so the one in the room – who is tall, thin, dark
haired, gives a knowing look, even nods his head somehow to show he ASSUMES WE
WENT AWAY TO HAVE SEX.
(HE ASSUMES WE WERE ‘HAVING SEX.’ THIS COULD BE TAKEN TWO WAYS. IN MY DREAMS
HAVING SEX CAN BE THE GREATEST INTIMACY, WHERE DURING SEX, I GIVE SPIRITUAL
LOVE OF THE HIGHEST KIND, & HE ASCENDS INTO HEAVEN. DID THIS SECOND SOUL RECOGNIZE THE INTIMACY
& ACKNOWLEDGE IT, OR DID HE THINK IT WAS SOMETHING LOWER?)
This is not true at all,
(THIS SEEMS TO SAY HE ASSUMED IT WAS OF A LOWER NATURE, BUT
THE LOAF OF BREAD AGAINST THE MAN’S CHEST EXPLAINS IT IS SPIRITUAL.)
& the other guy returns with his arms full
of a few things he got in stores – which explains our time away, not sex, doing
some purchases. He sees to be holding
for one thing, a long loaf of bread against his chest, like what they call ‘French’
or ‘Italian,’ those long ones like over a foot long, not very wide, white
bread.
(THIS WHITE BREAD IS UNMISTAKABLY ‘EUCHARIST.’ I WENT AWAY WITH A SOUL OR TOOK HIM ‘AWAY OR
ASIDE’ FOR GRACE – HE’S HOLDING THE EUCHARIST TO HIS CHEST WHICH MEANS HEART –
HE RECEIVED THE GRACE.)
OTHER
SCENES:
There was a young man who went some place where I’m close
by, & there’s a line of suitcases there, nice ones, in all colors including
red, many, maybe thirty suitcases.
(THE
SUITCASES ARE THE POSSIBLE REASONS I’M NOT SEEING HIM.)
He wants to get somewhere or ‘get at’
something & he takes each suitcase & throws it behind him, in an
intense way, kind of frustrated. When he
throws them backward they go like 15-20’, quite a throw. I especially note the bright red suitcase
going backward. He’s almost mad, not
quite. Reminds me somehow of ‘the mad
hatter.’ Or a badger digging out a den
intently, doesn’t want any interruptions from anyone, makes short work of any
animal that disrupts his task.
(THIS SOUNDS LIKE xxxx TRYING TO GET TO THE BOTTOM OF WHY I’M
NOT SEEING HIM. HE’S FRUSTRATED &
CAN’T GET IT.
I’VE BEEN DOING EXORCISMS EVERY DAY AGAINST HIS DEMONS –
ONE OF THEM WAS ANGER. SO THIS IS SAYING
HE ISN’T ANGRY, THAT DEMON IS GONE.
HE THROWS ASIDE ‘BAGGAGE.’
BAGGAGE IS NEGATIVES ONE CARRIES AROUND – THEIR BAD ACTIONS, TRAITS,
SINS OR WHATEVER HOLDS THEM BACK.
HE’S GOING THROUGH EVERY ITEM TO FIGURE OUT WHAT WENT
WRONG, INCLUDING THE RED SUITCASE MEANING PAIN OR SUFFERING
{AGAIN,
RED HAS MANY MEANINGS & HAS TO BE DISCERNED IN THE CONTEXT OF THE DREAM. IT CAN MEAN ‘STOP’ – IT CAN MEAN ‘I WAS RED
WITH EMBARRASSMENT,’ BUT IN MOST OF MY DREAMS, THE RED IS BLOOD & STANDS
FOR RECENT SUFFERINGS *OLD SUFFERINGS ARE PURPLE.*}
BUT
HE CANNOT FIGURE OUT WHY I’M AVOIDING HIM.
I
NOTICE THE RED SUITCASE BEING THROWN ASIDE IS HE DISMISSES THE PAIN HE GAVE ME-- IN OTHER WORDS,
“SHE
COULD NOT BE IGNORING ME BECAUSE OF THE PAIN I GAVE HER.”
THAT
MEANS HE THINKS IT WAS OK TO GIVE ME PAIN.
AND BELIEVING THAT, HE CANNOT GET TO THE BOTTOM OF HIS DILEMMA. )
Looks good and interesting overall, and the artwork goes well with it.
ReplyDeleteKeep up the great work,
Ajax