NONDUALITY IMPROVES A
RELATIONSHIP
Guru Rasa Von Werder - Explained for a friend
These first two dreams seem somehow to ‘go together’ or
‘dreamed at the same time,’ ‘side by side’ – although they seem to have no
correlation.
First myself & my husband RAJ are standing in my room
with the twin beds—we’re in the middle of the room as if the two beds, which
are together, are separated.
(*SEPARATED BEDS* AS YOU’RE NOT HAVING SEX)
He’s standing here in a full-length blue robe & going
to leave me. I am sort of on the floor
by the side of his legs, holding his robe & saying,
(*FULL LENGTH BLUE ROBE* TOTALLY DEPRESSED {not partially
as that could be a short robe})
“I’m sorry – I’m sorry.
Don’t leave me, I have
nothing without you.”
(THIS HEARKENS BACK TO YOUR *PTSD WHEN YOU WERE SEPARATED
FROM DAD*. IT BROKE YOUR HEART – HE WAS
EVERYTHING TO YOU BUT YOU LOST HIM.
EVERY AFFAIR YOU HAVE THAT’S NOT WORKING TRIGGERS THIS PTSD. THAT’S WHY
IT’S SO INTENSE. YOU WERE *‘BROUGHT TO YOUR KNEES’* MEANS YOU
WERE *HELPLESS*.)
He’s very sad, his hair is half grey, lots of white, he’s
determined to leave.
(HAIR TURNING GREY, ESPECIALLY WHITE IS ANXIETY. HIS ANXIETY IS GREAT RE YOU—
BUT
THE LEAVING SYMBOL IS NOT REALLY HIS DESIRE TO LEAVE YOU—IT’S YOUR ATTACHMENT
DECREASING, *he’s leaving you as a
mental obsession*--THE HUMAN ATTACHMENT THAT IS NOT GOOD, IF IT REMAINS YOU’RE
NOT ‘FREE.’
WHAT
WE CALL ‘FREEDOM’ IN SPIRITUALITY IS HEAVEN ON EARTH. AS LONG AS ONE HAS ATTACHMENT THEY CANNOT BE
HAPPY—BUDDHISM TEACHES THIS, SO DO SOME CHRISTIANS, SO DOES NONDUALITY. ATTACHMENT MEANS ANXIETY, IT MAKES ONE
WORRY. YOU CAN’T BE HAPPY &
WORRIED/ANXIOUS AT THE SAME TIME.)
Right now also my niece Zarzilla has arrived with her
little son. She’s brought me several
items of clothing which she’s joyful about, & she lays them out on the
bedroom bureau for me to see.
One item is a little grey-violet vest, knitted with large
openings between stitches, (the vest is open, there are no fasteners) with
PEARLS sewn in here & there, the other two or three items also have pearls,
& every garment is neat as a pin, & so small, he must weigh no more
than thirty pounds. She’s smiling. I’m rather startled as I’ve not seen her for
ages nor heard from her, & here she’s popped up out of the blue.
(AS I SUSPECTED, THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOUR NIECE BUT ABOUT YOU
DEVELOPING A NEW PERSONALITY-ATTITUDE REGARDING RAJ. ZARZILLA IS YOUR NEW PHYSICAL SELF & THE
BABY IS YOUR HUSBAND RAJ.
RAJ HAS RISEN UP, SO HAVE YOU—WHICH IS GREAT FOR THE
RELATIONSHIP. ONE OF THE SIGNS RAJ HAS
CHANGED IS HOW LITTLE HE IS – BEING A SMALL CHILD IS SHRINKING IN HUMILITY,
LIKE WE ARE ALL TINY CHILDREN BEFORE THE GREATNESS OF GOD.
THE LITTLE VEST GREY/VIOLET SHOWS A HIGHER LIGHT IS
REACHING HIS HEART & MIND--*VEST* GOES OVER THE HEART & WHEN VESTS ARE
OPEN THEY REPRESENT *WINGS*, THE COLOR GREY IS MIND, VIOLET IS A RARIFIED
SPIRITUAL LIGHT. HE HAS RISEN UP. YOU ARE ALSO GETTING WISER REGARDING HIM.
NEXT, PEARLS ARE EXTREMELY TELLING SYMBOLS OF INCREASED
UNDERSTANDING – ‘PEARLS OF WISDOM.’
SINCE THEY ARE VARIOUS GARMENTS BOTH UPPER & LOWER BODY, HE HAS
IMPROVED ON SEVERAL LEVELS OR IN WAYS. {SO HAVE
YOU.}
*GARMENTS: GARMENTS
HAVE TO DO WITH WHO WE ARE, HOW WE ACT, WHAT WE ARE DOING. SOULS WHO ARE ASCENDING INTO HEAVEN MORE
OFTEN THAN NOT, ARE SEEN IN FEMININE GARB—EVEN MEN—BECAUSE WE ARE ALL PASSIVE
TO GOD. GOD IS THE POWER & GIVER OF
GRACE, WE ARE THE RECEIVERS.
*FEMININE IS THE TRADITIONAL SYMBOL FOR
PASSIVE BECAUSE DURING SEX THE MAN PUTS THE PENIS/SPERM INTO HER BODY, HE IS
THE AGGRESSOR, SHE IS THE RECEIVER. IT
DOES NOT MEAN ALL WOMEN ARE PASSIVE OR ALL MEN AGGRESSIVE.*
EVIL
SOULS THAT DO NOT CONTAIN THE GRACE OF GOD, WHEN PERCEIVED BY US, ARE ‘SHADOW
FIGURES, DARK ENTITIES, BLACKER THAN BLACK,’ THESE HAVE NO GARB OR CLOTHING OF
LIGHT. GOOD SOULS CARRY LIGHT OR ARE
TRANSPARENT, TRANSLUCENT.
WHEN
A PROPHET ‘GIVES THEIR MANTLE’ TO THE NEXT PROPHET IT MEANS THEIR ‘CLOTHING OF
LIGHT’ – THE ANOINTING OR POWER OF GOD WHICH THEY ‘CARRY.’*
*SOMEONE
WEARING BRIGHT RED WOULD BE RECENT SUFFERINGS, PURPLE IS OLD OR PROLONGED
SUFFERINGS. GARBED IN BLACK IS USUALLY
DEPRESSION, A FUNERAL OR ENDING, OR A MYSTERY, LIKE ‘GOD IS DARKNESS OR
BLACKNESS TO US—WHO UNDERSTANDS GOD?” IN
THIS DREAM RAJ WEARS A STRONG BLUE ROBE, THAT’S SADNESS. VIVID GREEN ROBES ARE STRONG LIFE, YELLOW
CLOTHING COULD BE FEAR OR HAPPINESS LIKE ‘SUNSHINE.’*
*CLOTHING
ALSO HAS MEANING IN BEING DRAPED, PLEATED, TRANSLUCENT, TRANSPARENT, WOOL OR COTTON,
SATIN, VELVET, VOLUMINOUS OR SPARSE, LEATHER OR LACE, HUGE VARIETY OF CLOTHING,
GARB, HATS, SHOES, COLORS, SHAPES, SIZES ALL HAVE MEANING & ALL MUST BE
DISCERNED IN THE CONTEXT OF THE DREAM.*
ZARZILLA/YOU IS SMILING BECAUSE OF THE IMPROVEMENT—YOU’RE
NOT ANXIOUS ANY MORE, YOU’VE GOT JOY.
IT’S BOTH OF YOU CLOSER TO TRUTH.
IN SEVERAL DREAMS IT WAS SHOWN THAT HE HAS CHANGED DRASTICALLY—SO HAVE
YOU. BY YOU ‘LETTING GO’, NOT BEING
ANXIOUS, HE CAN’T CONTROL YOU ANY MORE BY THE REIGNS OF DESIRE, YOU ARE
FREE. HE NOW SEES THE ONUS IS ON HIM TO
DO SOMETHING – HE WILL HAVE TO BEND OR BREAK IF HE WANTS YOU & THE SHOE IS
ON THE OTHER FOOT, YOU ARE HAPPY & FREE, BUT HIS WHITE HAIR SHOWS HE
ISN’T.)
After the initial ‘neat’ scene she comes back again &
clutters up my whole house – which doesn’t make me happy.
(CLUTTERING UP MY HOUSE WOULD BE MESSING UP MY MIND—WHERE
YOU LIVE IS YOUR MIND, SOUL, SPIRIT, CONSCIOUSNESS. *This persona is a character within you, one
you create, by changing your thoughts, each personality within us has its
ideas/feelings, like characters in a movie or play. Some of your new thoughts
are not ‘sorted out,’ they are messy or DISORGANIZED. You will see momentarily the SOURCE of these
new {not accessed for years} thoughts are from the Hindu gurus.
(WHEN
YOU FIRST ACCESSED THESE NONDUALITY TEACHERS THEY EXPLAINED WELL, BUT THEN YOU
HIT MURKY ONES THAT WERE NOT CLEAR.)
There also seems like another scene where Raj tells me he’s
leaving, but I can’t recall details.
(THE ENTIRE SEQUENCES OF ‘RAJ LEAVING’ ARE BECAUSE
NONDUALITY TEACHINGS ARE HELPING YOU LET HIM GO—BEING SECURE, NOT CLINGING, NOT
HELPLESS, NOT AFRAID. IF HE IS YOURS,
HE’S YOURS--WHATEVER GOD DECREES WILL TRANSPIRE. IF GOD DOES NOT WILL IT, IT HAS TO FALL
AWAY. IF GOD WILLS IT, LET IT COME TO
PASS.
IN NONDUALITY ONE DOES NOT ATTACH TO
ANYTHING—PEOPLE, THINGS, DESIRES – NOTHING.
THIS SOUNDS IMPOSSIBLE, BUT IT ISN’T.
GOD PERMITS ALL THAT IS NEEDED, ALL THAT IS KARMICALLY RIGHT – ALL THAT
IS GOOD FOR THE SOUL, & ALL THAT IS BAD FALLS AWAY. YOU MUST
TRUST THAT. LIKE JESUS SAID, FIRST, ‘LET
THIS CUP PASS’…BUT THEN ADDED, ‘THY WILL, NOT MINE BE DONE.’ NEVER SHOULD YOU DESIRE ANYTHING NOT GOD’S
WILL, IT WILL BE BAD FOR YOU.)
Not only has she messed up the whole house, but she has
brought some of her relatives & a whole line of male friends who are from India or another Eastern place where they look like that. They are all young-middle aged, decent
looking, energetic & healthy businessmen.
After a while they want to do some business here, like it’s only a
social visit, but they are so eager to move forward--they want to do something to
accelerate a venture.
Some of these men are lined up against the wall, while
others are here & there –they are wearing bright clothes, like one has on
an orange t-shirt with brown pants, all have strong-colored clothes & some
of them, certainly the one in orange, have brown skin. They seem active & happy.
(THESE MEN ARE THE HINDU/YOGA SAINTS YOU’VE BEEN STUDYING
RECENTLY. THEY ARE HERE IN YOUR MIND,
CHANGING YOU INTO ZARZILLA!
WHY
ARE THEY WEARING STRONG-COLORED CLOTHES – ESPECIALLY THIS ONE YOU NOTICE IN ORANGE? USUALLY
BRIGHT COLORS INDICATE ‘OF THE EARTH’—NOT THE DEAD, BECAUSE FROM WHERE WE ARE
WE DON’T SEE THE DEAD AS ‘COLORFUL,’ WE SEE SOMEONE DYING TURNING GREY, OR THE
BLOOD LEAVING THEIR BODY. THIS ONE IN ORANGE IS THE BEST TEACHER—ORANGE IS THE COLOR OF AN EASTERN MONK’S ROBES, ALTHOUGH
THIS MAN IS EUROPEAN – DAVID GODMAN TEACHING THE GOSPEL OF RAMANA MAHARSHI.)
These men – there’s four or five of them – we really have a
house full – there also seem to be a couple male relatives of hers here ask me
if they can make some COPIES on my printer.
I tell them I don’t have one.
They say
“What? You are in
business to do xxxx? & don’t have a printer? That would seem a necessity.”
I had bragged to them about being a successful business
woman, well off, & the impression they got was I had lots of clients,
etc. But then, I have to clarify,
(THIS
BRAGGING IS NO DOUBT COMMENTS YOU PLACED ON YOU TUBE VIDEOS WHERE YOU GAVE
IMPRESSIONS OF YOURSELF THAT WERE PUFFED-UP, OR RATHER PEOPLE MISUNDERSTOOD
& THINK YOU’RE A ‘BIG OPERATOR.’)
“I only have one client, & that is the Catholic
Church. I work for them without pay.”
Indeed, I did my work for charity, it was not what they
imagined. This might refer to Holy
Masses & prayers of the Catholic Church.
(WHAT IS THE PRINTER?
THAT SOUNDS LIKE COPY OR REPETITION.
IT MIGHT MEAN PROMOTING THEIR TEACHINGS.
OF COURSE YOU ARE PROMOTING THEIR TEACHINGS ON THE INTERNET AS YOU LEARN
THEM. THESE MEN ARE ZEALOUS FOR THEIR CAUSE;
THEY WANT OTHERS, LIKE YOU, TO PARTICIPATE.
YOU DO MAKE A DISCLAIMER THAT YOU ARE WORKING FOR THE CATHOLIC CHURCH—INDEED YOU HAVE PROMOTED THIS WAY ALL YOUR LIFE &
(NOT SAYING YOU NEGLECTED YOGA, BUT YOU ARE FOCUSED ON JESUS’ WAYS AS TAUGHT BY
THE CATHOLIC THEOLOGY.)
There’s also much to do with the little son of Zar. I explain something,
It’s kind of like we’re having a ‘forum’ – like disclosing
secrets of WHAT HAS HURT US – bringing things INTO THE OPEN. Zar seems to be wearing a light blue printed
top & bottom & is standing against the wall in front of a doorway,
& a few of her people are between us scattered about.
(TO SAY SOMEONE IS *‘AGAINST THE WALL’* IS TO SAY THEY *CAN’T
GET AWAY*. HERE THE DREAMER {CALLED ‘ME’
OR ‘I’-IT IS THE GOD SELF OR WHAT MAHARSHI & OTHERS CALL PLAIN ‘SELF.’} HAS
THIS PERSONA AS A CAPTIVE AUDIENCE, SHE CANNOT RESIST THE WORDS.
HER OUTFIT IS FEMININE, HINTING SHE IS TAKING IN THE GOD-WORDS.)
I say to her sincerely,
“Do you know WHAT HURT ME THE MOST? When you visited me with the baby you never
offered me to hold him & I was afraid to ask. I don’t think I ever TOUCHED him at all!”
She seems to be HOLDING HIM now & says,
“What did you ever give me?”
I answer,
“I GAVE YOU MY DNA!”
Focusing on those words I see the injustice of her attitude
& also that the child of hers, whose love she denies me, also has my DNA.
(I SUSPECT HERE THAT WE’RE TALKING ABOUT SPIRITUAL DNA. THE GOD-SELF IS SAYING THAT THE FLESH
PREVENTED GOD POWER FROM TOUCHING THE ‘BABY’ WHO IS ACTUALLY RAJ, THE HUSBAND.
*HE IS YOUR CHILD FOR MORE THAN ONE REASON. ONE BEING THAT HE IS A CHILD OF GOD & YOU
CAME TO CLAIM HIM FOR GOD’S REALM. YOU
GOT HIM AWAY FROM MANY DEMONS.*
Then we’re on a large bed, & her son appears in the
form of about a ten pound cat with long fuzzy hair, & he is sort of pouncing about the bed, I
catch him & hold him as I would a cat, loving him, & saying,
“You were afraid of me, now I guess you’re not.”
(THIS LONG-HAIRED BEAUTIFUL GREY CAT HAS GOTTEN TAMER OVER
THE YEARS. SHE USED TO BE AFRAID BUT
VISITED & ATE OUTSIDE. JUST A FEW
DAYS AGO SHE DECIDED TO STAY IN THE KITCHEN, EAT & SLEEP THERE DAY &
NIGHT. PRIOR TO THAT IT HAD BEEN STAY
TWELVE HOURS AT THE MOST, PERCHING ON TOP OF A RAG BIN THAT HAS A NICE COVER
LIKE A NEST—THEN LEAVE & COME BACK. THERE’S
NOW A THICK COAT ON A CHAIR NEAR THE HEAT VENT, THIS IS HER FAVORITE SPOT AS
IT’S 50 DEGREES IN THE KITCHEN BUT THIS SPOT IS WARMER.
HER PERSONALITY CHANGED, HER FEAR LEFT, AND
THAT’S THE SYMBOL.
RAJ THE HUSBAND WAS ALSO AFRAID BECAUSE OF PTSD &
PHOBIAS. THIS COULD BE SAYING HIS FEAR
HAS DIMINISHED.)
Then
he turns into a human infant, naked, & I’m cradling him on my left arm holding
him close, enjoying the love & Zar does two things which annoy me that are
unfair. First, she tries to take the
child away to take him somewhere, & I say,
(NAKED MEANS ‘OPEN – VULNERABLE –
EXPOSED’ LIKE BEING ‘NAKED BEFORE THE LORD’ MEANS BEING HONEST WITH HER. THIS SHOWS A SPIRITUAL IMPROVEMENT BEWEEN RAJ
& YOU.)
“I’m playing with him now.”
And then, while he’s in my arms she
sort of sneaks around from the left (like behind something) saying,
“Do you love Mommy? Kiss Mommy” like getting his attention again
& again.
I tell her this sort of activity isn’t
right. Look over there at your husband –
Dave – (he’s to the left). If you were
in his arms & another guy came up & said ‘kiss me, kiss me, do you love
me’ see how screwed up that would be?
(THIS REPEATS THE CONFLICT BETWEEN
YOUR GOD-SELF & FLESH, THE FLESH--As I think about this it appears that SHE
is the one who’s insecure, as much or moreso than the baby, & that’s why
she’s so greedy/jealous about him—won’t allow me to hold him. THE FLESH WAS NOT LETTING GO, I SCOLD HER ON
THAT.)
After they found I don’t have a
printer, the Hindus said it’s OK, they’ll do what they have to do in the
morning—go out somewhere, find a printer & do their mailing. (The one guy
reassures everyone twice about this.)
Then I’m busy doing things & I
don’t see Zar or her baby & entourage anywhere. I am SURPRISED when I go to the MIDDLE ROOM
(in my apt this would be the bedroom) & they are PACKING UP ALL MY THINGS
TO TAKE AWAY WITH THEM. This is being
done without asking me or saying anything.
And when I walk in Zar & the guys are all talking to each other, not
explaining anything to me at all.
They’re taking everything I own,
everything, in this room, neatly packing it up into large boxes.
One type of item is ‘decorator
pillows’ like I used to have long ago.
They are bright satin, oranges, reds, they have neatly stacked them all
into a box, dozens of them.
Then there’s FLAGS, also of bring
orange, reds, all on blonde wooden poles – I don’t need them any more either
let them have them. I explain,
“I bought them because I was going to
do this publicity stunt & was going to line up the flags along the street
to attract people – but I didn’t do the stunt & not going to so don’t need
the flags. And I add,
“You can have everything here because
I was going to get all new things anyway.”
It was an unusual feeling. It was like I wasn’t going to ENRICH Zar or
her people in any way, but they wanted something, so they’re going to take whatever
they can. To me, these things no longer
have value so it doesn’t upset me at all.
Just seems strange they didn’t even ask.
(THIS
FINAL ACT IS SAYING ‘YOU ARE A NEW PERSON’ – ALL THE OLD IS BEING TAKEN AWAY.
{The new personality in Nonduality is taking away all your old concepts between
you & Raj.}
THE
‘HOOPLA’ (FLAGS) YOU WERE GOING TO DO WITH RAJ – *TURNING HIM INTO A STAR* MAKING A BIG SPECTACLE OUT OF THE
RELATIONSHIP - YOU AREN’T GOING TO DO.
TAKE WASTED EFFORT/STRESS OF THIS AWAY. *Flags IN THE STREET means ‘to the public’
brought to the attention of the world—‘Your business in the street’ is everyone
knows about it.*
THE
PILLOWS, RED & ORANGE, IN THE CONTEXT OF THIS, ARE YOU AREN’T GOING TO
SUFFER ANY MORE, NO MORE ANXIETY, ATTACHMENT OR PAIN. TAKE IT AWAY.
ALL NOT NEEDED IS BEING TAKEN AWAY.
IT SEEMS AUTOMATIC, NO DISCUSSION OR RITUALS, IT’S JUST DONE.)
This came out very good as usual, Rasa. An overall positive dream, and plenty of fuzzies to go with it.
ReplyDeleteKeep up the great work,
Ajax