RASA DIARY RE MEDITATION

 

1-20-26     diary

    There are multiple reasons why I must change my schedule & lifestyle right now.  I have to go INSIDE - my interior - where all the Power of God / myself is. I have had my mind on the world too long.  The world NEVER CHANGES. It's nothing but a series of problems. You solve one, another comes. You can never find rest or peace of mind. It's like a Greyhound chasing the mechanical rabbit. The quest to find peace never comes. Why? Because peace isn't in the world - it's only inside the spiritual realm.  But I have not given the God-world a chance. I've had my mind on the world constantly & on God in bits & pieces. Yes, I pray a lot but not MEDITATE. When you meditate you LISTEN.  You say nothing or very little. You just wait & wait - see what God has to tell you. The world fragmented, absorbed, littered your mind. You now you have to undo all that, & it takes time.

    I wondered why I could not hear my inner God as clearly as before. It was because I was not giving her my mind fully. Not enough attention, focus & time for God inside me.

    The culprit for me was not people, it was You tube. Yes, I did a lot of work, some of it after research on You tube. But I also saw too much stuff I did not have to see, like tik tok - my time looking at stuff on You tube took a huge chunk of each day. I was sharing & learning, but it also took me away from God. It was OUTSIDE of myself, my 'inside' was neglected.

    In the last year or so I have been faced with strong challenges & obstacles. Life became so rough I've been suffering some anxiety. Life was not fun any more. I needed answers of how to manage the rest of my life - what road to take - but the answers are not in the world - they are from a higher level.

    Therefore, I need to communicate with that higher level - not You tube, lol. 

    With that in mind the last few days I chilled away from the pc & fet more peaceful. Then today I started my meditation. I took 2 good hours - that's just the beginning. I will do another hour tonight & each day a minimum of 3 hours.  That time was being spent on You tube - which will now be spent listening to God.

    As I meditate, God will show me - & has begun to do so where I must go, what I must do with the rest of my life. It's a crossroad. There are many sign posts this way & that. Which road do I take? It's been complicated & I cannot figure it out without Light from God.  And there is no human that can help me & never was. Those who were at one time 'friends'  like this lady - wouldn't have a bat's eyes idea how to channel my life - only the Almighty actually knows our destiny & the right road - few people can even see a hint although at rare times,   God uses people to point a way.

 

1/20/26      Just to let you know guys I will not be on the pc as much as before.

          I need to spend a few hours a day meditating to let God speak to me & show me the way.

          There are big decisions I must make & answers to life I must seek now so for one thing, I must stay off You tube & just do on the pc what is necessary – articles & books - & not use it for recreation.  So the way I shared dozens of videos a day, that won’t happen any more.

 

          I might slow down my work a tad – not being as frantic & compulsive to get it done, also.

          Just don’t want you guys to worry why I’m not around as much – I’m meditating.

 

1/20/26        Did 2 hours of meditation yesterday, am trying for 3 hours a day. I will explain the theory or wisdom behind meditation in artices. But not now....... It's time to go inside. It's like the hardwood trees {Maple, Oak} & apple trees. They must REST in winter. The apple tree, if planted in a warm climate, will blossom but bear no fruit. {For Oaks & Maples to bear their seeds/fruits/acorns in a non freezing climate, it’s iffy. Gets complicated, sometimes yes, sometimes no & depends on the species.}

    We are like that also. The 7th day for rest is not 'for religion' so much as a mental / emotional necessity.  The 7th year leaving fields fallow, is also necessary or else the fields will no longer yield a crop. That's in the bible, but not a myth.  It's a fact you can exhaust the soil & it does not produce crops.

    Look at my productivity in the last years - was it not formidable? Looking back, yes. No wonder I began all kinds of mental / emotional symptoms. The meditation is healing & reviving me in just a few days away from You tube & only one day of meditation & I already have results!

    It' too soon to explain my results, but they have already started & soon I will post my diary re it.

    BTW the Dalai Lama meditates 5 hours a day - he said it out of his own mouth on the Larry King Show.

 

1/21/26      I did 2.5 hrs of meditation & the novena. Will write an article about it soon - Americans mostly don't know about meditation - I must explain it. What I am doing is Yoga or Eastern style meditation.  I will take the mystery out of it for the don't knows.

    Also in my spare time, instead of going to You tube, I am baking - mostly for the animals but also me. They say 'a change is as good as a rest'.  It is true because one uses different faculties.  It's mindless work. Give my mind a rest.