5-30-20-BIG LOVE ALL AROUND-MUSLIMS-LOVER APPEARS

Three dreams.  One shows the results of a huge forgiveness yesterday.  The other shows my lover has greatly evolved spiritually, he’s leaving his present female & loves me greatly.

      

          I’m in a place where there are two small boys – like 5-6 years old.  They seem to be somehow ‘bundled up’ in clothing & their bodies seem ‘round’ like cocoons, the cloth they are in is soft & medium-dark, many layers.

          The family of the boys is all around, we are on a platform of sorts.  I put out my hand to them to shake – somehow my hand is huge, like a cradle.  But they cannot shake my hand, & I then realize it’s not a Muslim custom—they are Muslims & restricted in many actions compared to us.

           One of the boys says to me,

          “I just want to hug you & kiss you.”

          Somehow they are not allowed to hug & kiss me, but I hug them anyway.  One of them places his hand on my left breast.  I know it’s the gesture of an innocent child, but I must take his hand off because someone might accuse me of a wrong.

           Then something happens.  I do a demonstration.  I ascend into the air so high – like 100, 200, 500’.  At that level I come upon a Heavenly or God-made frame for a building, the frame is made of very thick planks.  This might be like a ‘resting  place’ for me high up here.

          Amazingly, several women ascend into the air with me – they are spiritually advanced.  Some of them go up halfway but can’t go higher & descend.

          One woman is interesting – I think I knew her in life, she’s gleeful to ascend with me high up.  She’s thin, her face & body has creases, not wrinkles, like striated, I think she wears red, a revealing summer dress.  She is beaming with joy that she could ascend with me, but then she sinks back down after about 300’—but I was impressed that these women rose into the Heavenly realms with me.  It’s the first time in my life I’ve had such an incident – never had anyone rise with me before.

          I wanted to impress or do this demonstration for the Muslim family, but unfortunately, when I come back down – they are all gone.  They might not have seen me ascend at all.  I wanted to show them my spiritual power.

          MEANING:  This is a result of the prayers I did last night.  One of my friends hurt me & made me angry.  I was saying the law of karma will get her back.

          Then I decided to forgive her.  I didn’t feel like it but I said a righteous prayer that should be remembered:

          “It is my will that the person who hurt me will be forgiven, as if she never hurt me at all.  I want no punishment or bad karma to come against her because of me.  Count her ‘no guilty.’

          I then proceeded as I do periodically to forgive anyone/everyone who ever hurt me & added to that I accept from anyone I ever hurt their forgiveness.”

          I repeated this prayer many times before I fell asleep, & this is the result.  There was reconciliation with people – sharing of love, the blocks of unforgiveness being removed.

          The Muslims I have no idea who they are—my hand extended to them like a cradle is the CRADLE OF LOVE & these two guys FEEL LOVE FOR ME LIKE SONS FOR THEIR MOM—they might be former disciples.

          The females, the main one could have been the one I forgave.  She rose up with me partway – she has suffered greatly in the last ten years & it’s brought her much closer to God.  If this is her, my prayer made her extremely happy.

          What was the huge-beamed foundation high up in the sky?  Perhaps my home that God has started to build.  Since only these planks were up this might be a sign saying I do have some time left to live.  I’m not always certain as I’ve had heart trouble & been sick lately – always think death could be around the corner when I’m sick – so God might be reassuring me.

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5-30-20-GLAM-BOY PERRY IN LOVE WITH ME

          I was sitting some place with my bare legs up on something,  doing something with them—don’t know what, when this super handsome, sexy muscular boy Perry comes up to me out of nowhere, from the right side, & he is madly attracted to me.

          *(PERRY:  This glamorous boy has always rejected me – have known him for years.  For him to suddenly change his mind & desire me like this is simply an indication of the lover coming to his senses.)*

          This takes me by surprise as he’s never liked me before & rejects me when I try to get friendly.

          He embraces & kisses me numerous times, it gets more & more intimate.  He has some sort of black hair growing on is it his legs?  That is so thick, it’s like curly fur, long, curls on the end, sleek & shiny, & I have the exact same hair on my legs he takes note.  He says something about it & I say,

          *(THICK BLACK CURLY HAIR ON LEGS:  This is a great & sure sign of spiritual growth {the hair} with mystical ability to travel or get some through energy or metaphysical.  LEGS mean the strength of that, hair would mean the extra growth there or evolution.  This is extreme growth – part of it is 6” long & as thick & glossy as fur, jet black.

          This hair shows an amazing increase in lover’s spiritual growth—he’s become like me, that is why in the other dream he appears as my son & devoted disciple.  He has merged into me, I into him the way the new disciple, Shiva, says he wants to merge with me.  {This happens with gurus & their disciples.})*

          “But I don’t have that type hair on my vagina any more – half of it has turned grey.”

          *(NO MORE ON VAGINA:  No more sex or I’ve been celibate.)*

          We go back to kissing & there are some special kind of kisses I give him on his face, like licking his face a certain way, which finally the public notices, & when they do, they interfere.  People don’t want him to be with me, like it’s outrageous or a scandal.

          *(SCANDAL:  Not sure if this is the past, how they bothered him, or the present if he’s telling anyone about me.  It’s in their minds for sure.)*

          Can’t recall what happens except we did not like their attitude.

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5-29-20-NEW DISCIPLE-SON STRUGGLES TO LEAVE A FEMALE

          I first thought this was about my new disciple who appears often as a nice guy with black glasses {he’s newly devoted to me as a spiritual son, you might say ‘obsessed’ in a good way} - & I was unable to type it out, but am recording it now as it’s about my lover.

          *(SPIRITUAL SON:  This is your lover in the persona of this new disciple, who is devoted, to show that the lover now realizes he is your spiritual son, you his mother, & something will happen today to indicate he wants to come to you soon—you are not aware of this event at the time of dreaming, it’s psychic.)*

          I see this man with the black rimmed glasses & he’s living in my bedroom at the old farm house.  I see a silver vase with plants in the window, sort of tucked into the curtains; I see & feel the familiarity of that home.

          The vase might mean something.  It’s in the shape of a V, thin, I had not attended to it for a long time & felt what was in it might be dead for lack of water.  It’s kind of attached to the ‘curtain,’ not standing by itself, in the front window.  Inside are like soft thick-leafed plants, don’t know what kind.

          *(THE VASE:  You bet it’s significant.  The V shape first of all is

          V:  for ‘VICTORY.’  Second, it’s position

         

          IN THE WINDOW:  This is a ‘window of opportunity’ which means an improvement, a chance or change for something better, it ends a previous relationship, here shown as ‘Gina’ & him, & will begin yours. 

          A CURTAIN, ATTACHED TO:  In between two curtains, attached, this opportunity or chance is attached or connected– curtains, it signifies the end of this other relationship, as when a play, an act, a show is over, it’s ‘curtains.’  When someone leaves you it’s ‘curtains.

          GINA:  Was a model who was demon-possessed & also mentally ill.  I did exorcisms & removed her demons, but could not help with the mental illness.  I think she went crazy from having abortions every year.

          This model represents his relationship which this dream says he’s leaving.  Why, could be anyone’s guess.  Is she like Gina?  Was she, is she crazy, possessed?  Is she pregnant & wants an abortion?

          The vase being SILVER is a sign of the permanent relationship of myself & lover.

          The fact that it’s still filled with WATER, the PLANTS are alive, means the permanent relationship is still going to be, the water is life or grace, the plants are also the life of the two people in the affair – him & me.)*         

          

There’s a bed here covered with a black satin sheet with dust & tiny debri on it.  ‘Gina’ -  who lives here with  that male – he’s leaving - tries to make him stay, but this guy I watch him getting into his car below the window – it’s black, & he says to her,

*(GUY LEAVING:  is your lover leaving the other lady.

He removed some of her details off social media today.

BLACK CAR:  Funeral car, end of the relationship.

BED WITH BLACK SHEET:  End of their sex life, either already ended or is ending now.)*

          “I have to go to work.”

          *(HAVE TO GO TO WORK:  My inner sense was this was an excuse, he wanted to leave & used work as his reason.  But he might not come back.)*

5-24-20-EARTHLY MOTHER I HELP

          There was something about a Church/religion that was strange, I was sort of part of it but can’t recall what happened.

Next I’m in a big place like a huge dept store or some kind of mall that has a couple floors, when I see my Mom shopping.

She comes up to the counter & presents her list of things to purchase by credit card.  The mgt. is looking.  Then someone ‘higher up’ like electronically looks at my credit card info, my paper with its list or something, & seeing this, takes some sort of pencil & scratches it across my Mom’s entire list – back & forth – I see the grey lead, & then she HAS NO CREDIT & cannot get any of her items.

 

I guess I feel sorry for her & I tell the clerk,

“Put her items on my credit card – I will pay for them.”

To justify my action I think,

“It’s been a few years since I’ve given her a Christmas present so this is OK.”

Then I slightly worry, thinking,

“I hope I have enough money in this account – I think I do.”

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           MEANING:  This dream is about my offering to pay for the sins of my Mom when she was dying.  This is a review & confirmation that she had no credit in the ‘bank account with God’ or in other words, she had no grace by which she could be saved.

My offer to pay for her sins, this explains, got her out of that fix--she was saved by it.  She had a deathbed repentance I was told later…………………….

I had this dream because this day I began to channel Mom.  Usually, in all these many years, I have never wanted to be in touch with her, speak with her or have any type of contact.  Even in Purgatory when I was helping her it was repulsive to be around her—she was vile.

 

Since she died in 1979, it’s been a long time to mostly ignore her & for me to now, in 2020, decide to speak to her is an unusual thing.  However, it’s been extremely helpful as now that I opened my mind & made a ‘portal’ to her I have found out things I never knew before – not just about her but all my relatives & others– about people like her; ‘psychopaths’, people like the lukewarm, crawling worms common within my family & elsewhere, {people who never do anything out of their way to save or help anyone.}

 Through my mother’s ‘mouth’ so to speak – {the communication is all mental, however,} I heard her use terms as never before, explain the role of each member of my family, why they deserted me, the secret of why she could manipulate Dad – the character, personality of each family member & treatment of me, what her status is in Heaven, many other unusual facts.

She called herself a MONSTER – something I never expected, but of course, once you are in Heaven you must speak the truth – 

 

{even in Hell souls appear to those praying for them, as in ‘Cry of a Lost Soul’ a dead friend told Clara not to pray for her as it was useless – she said she was compelled to appear & speak the truth although she didn’t want to, she would drag Clara into Hell if she could.  Excerpt:

 "Clara, do not pray for me! I am in hell. If I tell you this and speak at length about it, do not think it is because of our friendship. We here do not love anyone. I do this as under constraint. In truth, I should like to see you to come to this state where I must remain forever."

"Perhaps that angers you, but here we all think that way. Our wills are hardened in evil - in what you call evil. Even when we do something 'good', as I do now, opening your eyes about hell, it is not because of a good intention."

 On the other side, God is in command, there are no lies, & so unexpectedly, as my Mom was a consummate liar on earth & some of my relatives were & are, there are no more lies.}

As this portal opened, for the first time in forty years, I heard unexpected, revealing things which give me some closure on past events & even insights on unrelated things.

I am flabbergasted that I never wanted to speak to her in forty years – feeling, believing, she was so dumb what could she possibly tell me?  She was such a liar, what would she now say?  I had no idea it would be like this.  It’s difficult to write down her messages, but I must.  Coming soon:  messages from an ex Monster, now in Heaven.

The RASA DIET—LOST 8 LBS IN 9 DAYS

—Below 160 for the first time in two years 159.6 today – At last I have found the solution & it isn’t FAT.  I ate fat yesterday & lost 8 ounces.

5-23-20------159.6 TODAY!

 

          Important:  This is NOT A STARVATION DIET.  But since you will not crave all the chemicals in the processed foods, your appetite/hunger will go down, you will eat less & that will help also.

          I am not urging starvation, IT ISN’T NECESSARY.  Simply cutting out chemicals will lose weight.  

           But two striking results of my diet are:  my blood pressure has become normal for two days – I monitor it twice a day – I did not have to take any blood pressure meds yesterday or today so far, the top number has been between 119 & 138—it is the first time IN FOUR YEARS I did not have to take my blood pressure meds for two days.  I have no idea why this would be except that salt & other chemicals made it high.  Further study is needed.  Don’t get rash & do anything like stop taking your meds – ask your doc or Big Nurse & be sure to get a blood pressure monitor if it’s high.

 

          Second, I AM NOT HUNGRY.  I explained last chapter that stopping chemicals stops my hunger - & I reasoned it’s because I crave the TASTE of the food – the body doesn’t need that much food.

 

          My diet yesterday was rice & shrimp.  About 2 cups of rice cooked in high-fat chicken broth {my own, I boil chicken for cats & myself} with a package of tiny shrimps on top – not sure what the high-fat rice had, I might say 450 calories, the shrimp 250 calories.  Once in a while I count the calories just for the heck of it – but it’s not about calories.  So half was breakfast, half dinner – no other meals.

 

          But add to that a good helping of cherries {did not taste right,  too sweet other than that, not tasty, I gave the rest away to the wild animals} which might have been 300 calories, two servings of yogurt, about 220 calories, & other tidbits, say 200 calories more, total of entire day estimate around 1,500 calories.  This is LESS than I’ve been eating but I had no hunger whatsoever.

 

          On this diet I eat yogurt any time I want {no artificial sweeteners, no lowfat yogurt}- fruits, salads any time as long as they do not have any commercial toppings – no salad dressings, no mayo, no nothing, just Potassium, maybe pepper & olive oil & vinegar {vinegar is extremely healthy.}

           In fact, we are allowed anything we are hungry for as long as it’s not out of a can, jar, package, box, processed, filled with salt, sugar {dextrose, high fructose corn sugar} preservatives, MSG, no GMO’s, no nothing we can’t understand the names of.

 

         Just PLAIN FOOD:  Plain meat; can be boiled, plain veggies, raw, steamed or boiled (not frozen as this has chemicals!) plain fruits, plain roots, plain greens.  No commercial, packaged sauces, gravies, nothing prepared for you.  You must make your own food, if you require gravies, sauces & dressings LEARN TO MAKE YOUR OWN {I am not expert, planning to try} using natural ingredients, Potassium, pepper, natural spices & natural foods.

 

 

        No-salt butter {do not eat margarine, it's one molecule away from plastic} & olive oil are fine.  I put these on potatoes.  {If you ever give yourself an occasional cheese treat consider Swiss as it seems to have the least salt}.

 

 

          Regarding weight loss & to encourage it I take three 100 mg Potassium tablets daily.  In future I will see if I can take more without getting cramps from dehydration.  One must keep a balance between the salt & Potassium in the body – I get enough salt when I sat a sandwich as it’s in the bread {I wish it weren’t} & in yogurt as well {I know how to make yogurt from raw milk, it doesn’t have to have salt—we had a cow, I have bought raw milk & made yogurt & cottage cheese – they had made it illegal for us to buy raw milk.} So as I said, we need small amounts of salt – nothing like what we consume which turns us into balloons, but Potassium pushes out salt.  Take Potassium, but don’t drench yourself in it.

           I lost 7 lbs in the first 7 days, now it slightly diminished, 2 ounces yesterday, 8 ounces today.  What’s wrong with that?  For the first time in two years, I went below 160--159.6 today!  Nine days ago I was 167.6 lbs! 

 

          Good luck my friends.  Do you want to be beautiful, shapely, sexy, desirable?  Do you want the men to whistle at you, stare at you & ask you for dates?  I do.  That is a big part of my incentive.  I want to feel good about myself, & being thin, shapely & beautiful helps.  Everyone likes you when you’re like that – even women talk to you.  When you get fat you are ‘passed over,’ no one whistles or goes out of their way to talk to you – it’s depressing!  So don’t be depressed, get thin & beautiful & it’s easy without starvation, just STOP THE CHEMICALS!

           Oh, BTW, this is irrelevant to the diet, but I lift weights.  I was too tired the last couple weeks, but any day now will resume.  That helps keep the body beautiful.  Looking fit, not sagging, muscles strong is appealing.  I am the foundress of female body building, awarded the title ‘Progenitor of Female Body Building.’

          Rasa Von Werder     5-23-20

5-22-20-BIG WAVES-EAR DOC-SEX HOTEL

Interpreted for a friend

           I am with a guy like a husband & he wants to go to a certain place, & I’m driving the car.  It’s a sort of long haul & a bit troublesome, but I oblige him.  Now after a while we are on a highway, well on our way, going slightly downhill.  We are going away from the city.

          *(HUSBAND:  This is your lover & future husband Karl.  Where you are going is to be married.

I’M DRIVING THE CAR:  You are in charge or the force behind the relationship.)*

           Up ahead I see an ominous sight.  There is a cross highway, straight across, & from both sides come large waves like of an ocean, right over the highway.  I know they will crash each other & come crashing down the highway we are on.

          *(HIGHWAY CROSSING:  This is a Cross, something problematic & painful

          WAVES, LARGE, LIKE FROM AN OCEAN, I KNOW THEY WILL CRASH & COME BARRELLING DOWN OUR HIGHWAY:  This is HUGE  problems, devastating ones.  The bigger the wave, the greater the problem.  It looks like the fact they are crashing into each other there is a BREAKUP – you two are headed for one.)*

 

          I quickly stop, turn around, & at my fastest speed take off back to the city, but the waves catch up & quickly flood the highway & everything around us, & I don’t know how deep it is, can the car handle it without drowning?  And I just keep going with all my might, all my speed & all my faith.

          *(STOP, TURN AROUND, HEAD BACK:  You tried to avoid or prevent the breakup but ended up in a place of great danger & uncertainty.)*

          I can see nothing but water, no buildings to my right or left, ahead, nothing anywhere, just the water, & don’t even know if I’m on the road.  But I can’t give up.

           *(NOTHING BUT WATER, NO LANDMARKS OR BUILDINGS:  You have no signs, indications, guides that will show you this will survive, but you keep your faith.)*

          Finally I’m back in the city & the husband is gone, replaced by a ‘goofy’ sort of young man who was given me as a helper or guide—sense image material the hillbilly from ‘Naked & Afraid’ I thought little of, but he made it through the challenge.

           *(GOOFY GUY:  This is a symbol of Karl in another way.  This might be his guardian angel appearing as him. You have broken up but he’s still with you – you were not officially ‘going steady,’ he didn’t say ‘I love you’ any more but you were having sex.  And so you see him in a lower light, as a goofball of sorts.  The fact that the guy you’re thinking of ‘made it through the challenge’ is a positive omen.  It seems like he might not, but he does this says – he will be your husband yet.)*

 

          I worry about my husband as he has no idea what happened to me, if I survived.  The goof tells me he was taken to the police, who gave him a place to rest & he is waiting.  I must get back to him but it isn’t time yet—am I moving fast enough?

          *(HUSBAND:  You worry will the two of you be really together as husband & wife?

          POLICE:  Are angels, guardian angels or other angels.)*

           I go through several streets, there’s men working on carpentry all over the place, hard to get through their machines & work to get to where I must go.  One has wood on a table & a tool on top carving through the wood.

          We go places where we meet three good men.  Is it a restaurant?  I think we eat a meal & it has no plates, just food on a polished table, slippery.  I might see bacon of all things, long strips of it, across from me, which I will never eat.  Not sure what I eat if anything.   Not even sure if this was in this dream or another.

           *(THREE GOOD MEN:  I have three guardian angels.  Is this them for some reason?  They are nourishing me during this difficult time, strong nourishment as represented by bacon.)*

          Then as I leave the restaurant I’m also leaving the three men & also taking off some scapulars & religious items on my body.  One has two images on either side, one of Jesus, one of Mary, lined in silver, the other is religious but who I don’t know—all are cloth.  I am taking these off & putting them into a square see-through holder on a post by the side of a desk, plastic, I push the scapulars in.  The three men just leaving the restaurant saw me & thought I was discarding the images, like to a trash can – it wasn’t like that - & I feared their opinions, that they misunderstood my action. 

 

          *(SCAPULARS TAKEN OFF:  This would be the clothing of Jesus, Mary & another saint which I now remove – a bad thing – it leaves me unprotected.  The guardian angels disapprove.  I don’t know what I did, it was not intentional.)*

          But as soon as I did this the three men were gone – so was Goofy Boy & I was LOST.  In my desperation I think,

          *(LOST:  Without the guidance, light, help of these saints, the angels, & the guardian angel of Goofy, I am lost & have no idea where to go, what to do.)*

           “Ok, what could the goofy boy tell me?  All I have to do is get to the police station & will find Hubby there, so he is not indispensable.

          *(NOT INDISPENSABLE:  Without help from all these angels & saints I think how can I get Karl back?  It seems I must go to the angels to fix this.)*

          However, the struggle is spared me as Goofy suddenly appears in front of me.  It seems that there was some sort of a PRIZE he wanted to win, financial, like the Lotto.  If he did a certain thing he would win this money, but he could not leave me, I was a part of it somehow, so he is back because of the money.  I see it in visions, calculation, money this, money that.  And Goofy is FLAT BROKE.  Yes, he is bankrupt, totally poor.

 

          *(MONEY:  Indeed it has been shown me hundreds of times that he will be in desperation for support & that will break the demonic possession over him.  He’s been a prisoner to drugs & druggie people, druggie lifestyle now most of his adult life.  It was impossible to get to him to change, his present female is part of that world, that was her hold on him.  The issue of money is the factor of our reunion, he must come back or stay bankrupt.  It’s as crass & mercenary as that.)*

           I realize now that he never sincerely cared about me – he was with me for some reason, & now he must return for money, so my opinion of him is less than what it was--Just a mercenary.

          *(JUST A MERCENARY, NEVER CARED ABOUT ME:  This is one side of the story, but the last dream will tell another – that there is an overwhelming tie of emotions & love.  Life can have many facets.

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 The EAR DOC

          I go to an ear doc & he tells me I need an operation, he can do it.  I must call my Dad & tell him about it, because he has to PAY FOR IT.

          I vaguely see myself calling Dad, telling him about it & I know he will pay.  I seem to be happy, not afraid at all.

 

          *(EAR OPERATION NEEDED:  There is something I need to hear, someone is going to help as represented by this doctor.

          MY DAD HAS TO PAY:  This authority of the Dad says it’s about the marriage.  He will pay it means it will be done, I will hear the message.

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          WEIRD UGLY FAT GUY & HOTEL WHERE I MEET THE DAUGHTER OF THE OWNER – HE’S HER BF, SHE HAS SEX WITH HIM & WANTS ME TO DO IT NEXT!

          Strange events.

          I’m in a hotel, hobnobbing with a female who is the daughter of the owners—a privileged character.  We’re on the second floor where she’s just been with her bf & comes out & I look inside the room.

          *(FEMALE, PRIVILEGED:  This is the present live in ‘wifey’ of Karl – I see her as privileged because she is acknowledged on his social media.)*

 

          To me he’s kind of repulsive, reminds me of a water animal– kind of round in the middle, not sexy or handsome.  He’s lying on this twin bed in the middle of the room – everything is blue, his bed, the walls.  Is he asleep, tuned out?-Oblivious to everything around him?  He never moves the whole time I’m looking.

          *(REPULSIVE, FAT:  This could be how he feels about himself or how I feel about not wanting sex with him.)*

          The female mentioned has just had sex with him & as she goes out she says to me,

          “You can go in now & have sex with him – he likes it that way.”

 

          It seems weird to me on more than one level.  First, he’s her boyfriend, why would she want another female to fukk him?  But it seems she wants to satisfy him. 

          The feeling from him lying there is HE’S GIVEN UP.

          *(HE’S GIVEN UP:  This is the other side of Karl, not the mercenary.  He’s given up trying to make you contact him, he thinks you don’t want him – he’s given up HOPE.  And so, he’s DEPRESSED.  You see the blue everywhere.  Yes, he had sex with his live-in, but it meant nothing, it did not satisfy him on the mental, emotional, spiritual levels,  because he only loves you & wants you.

           SHE SAYS YOU CAN GO IN & HAVE SEX WITH HIM NOW, HE LIKES IT THAT WAY:  She’s saying ‘you’re next.  He is not satisfied with me.  He needs you.’  This might be the IMPORTANT MESSAGE you must hear referred to in the ear operation dream.)*

          I don’t feel like fukking him, but I take a blanket off his bed & examine it in the hall, {I noticed it had gummy candies all over it in all colors, & other things all over the bed—messy.}

          I hold the blanket in the hall & remove all the gummies & whatever is sticking there.  Then I go to the female’s room down the hall – her door is open.  I ask her if I can come in, & she is hesitant.

           *(MESSY BED, GUMMIES ALL OVER:  Gummies make me think of marijuana gummies, possibly this represents drugs, that the only consolation he has from losing me is drugs.  So this is a mess.  All colors could mean all kinds substances, sticking to his bed might be addiction – something that sticks to you you can’t get rid of.  This says I have helped get rid of his addictions, not sure how—prayer, his wanting to be with me made him quit?

FEMALE DOWN THE HALL, WANT TO GO INTO HER ROOM, SHE IS HESITANT:  His roommate does not want me to see her mental, emotional state & the state of their relationship – although she did give me the revelation I needed to hear re sex.)*

          I tell her I need to use the rest room& she says she doesn’t have one.  Her room is blue walls, blue bed with black huge criss cross patterns on it & everything is dirty –unpleasant.  And if the daughter of the owners is housed this way, I wonder why. 

          She was extremely nervous about my entering her premises, wanted to avoid that, don’t know why.

          *(BLUE WALLS, BED:  All sadness just like Franz.

          HUGE BLACK CRISS CROSSES OVER HER BED:  Either they are not having sex or else what they have is not satisfactory.

          NERVOUS:  She does not want me to know her, their misery, that the relationship is over.  She is afraid of me knowing.

          NO REST ROOM:  Part of her misery.  A rest room is comfort, convenience, rest, relief.  She has none.)*