Saturday, 28 October 2023

Why He Ended up With Me Not Her

 

 

10-28-23    Contact Nick and cutest male all women want


 
I am with my grandma & sister in a plush apt, where I see several high beds covered in light green, aqua or blue covers.

Grandma is the boss & it seems I’ve been out for months, dating, looking for men or a special man, trying to accomplish something.  But I have not found the right man for me somehow.

But I hear a thought consistently,

“Call Frank”

which means Sinatra, whom I dated years ago & forgot & after a while I finally call him & in the next scene, I’m in his premises.

Just before that I exclaimed,

“Frank Sinatra?  Could not be him because he doesn’t need help – he’s in Heaven.  This must represent Nick!”

And so I sort of wake up a minute & tell Nick a few times I love him over & over & give him kisses & a hug, don’t know if it gets through to him.

Then I’m in his large apartment.  I’m in his dining room, sitting eating a hard boiled egg.  I get the shell into my mouth & part of it falls on the floor.  I just want to finish this egg but having trouble.  Want to hurry so I can deal with Frank/Nick.

He’s sitting in the next room left in a chair facing away from me at a 180 degree angle.  I am thinking of making up with him as I’ve ignored him for a long time & apparently it hurt him, he missed me.  I also need him for something but I don’t know what – maybe love.

As he sits I think of several things.  Maybe I will ask him to

“Put on your robe”

which means let’s get intimate.

I might even say,

“Do you have an extra robe for me?”

I might sit in his lap & say nice things.

These are all things I think about but don’t see me doing anything.

The feeling here is I searched for a long time, did not find anyone for a partner.  Now I’m back to him & is he the one?  I seem to be flirtatious.  {to be analyzed later}











The Super Cute Young Male every Female Wants

 

I’m at a kind of working place like a small factory & ahead of me are 3 people including two males.  One of these males is very young, like 19, & incredibly cute with sex appeal. 

* {CUTE MALE:  Nick.  This is not how it happened, but the dream presents the story in a way to illustrate a point. What is the point?} * 

I am thinking of how to secretly rope him in.  For some reason, it has to be secret because why?  I don’t know.  Maybe his youth, me being mature?

So I am plotting.  But before my scheme reaches fulfillment another female appears.  I discuss the young male with her, she wants him also.  She is more in my class as far as age, not real young either.  She reminds me of a female working in a local grocery store, just an ordinary type but full of hopes & confident of her charms.

She doesn’t know my desire for him.

As a way to get him into her clutches, she says,

“We can always get pizza.”

And then, she does ask him out for pizza after the day’s work is done – that’s her scheme.  Go for pizza, get friendly, then go to her or his place.

I am politely invited along but this disturbs me as will she get to him first?

When I go where she told me to meet them, they aren’t there. 

* {IT BECOMES A CONFLICT, her & me.  This is the female who eventually got him to live with her & they had a child, cementing the relationship with cocaine – (which eventually killed him from a heart attack.)  Here she misdirects me, trying to steer me away from him.  And FOR A WHILE I DO LOSE HIM – the time after she got with him, he did not speak to me for NINE MONTHS which seemed like forever.}  * 

I go up & down the street.  There are numerous restaurants – maybe I got the address wrong.  I check a huge amount of places & finally, after a very long time, end up in a place randomly, just to eat a snack, just for myself.

And without knowing it, in this restaurant that seats hundreds of people ‘high up’ – like you have to walk up a flight of stairs, & in a circle of sorts, there are like 50 tables, each one fully loaded with people.  I get the feeling they are al wearing cotton or linen in a vanilla or very light beige color.  We are against a wall to the left on a small table, his back against the wall to my left, she directly in front of me but looking backward.

Then she turns forward & is SHOCKED to see me – I have found them, I am here, & that changes the entire ball game.

I said to her,

“I went to the place you told me & you weren’t there.”

Now I was placed here, at this spot, by a Power higher than me, you could call it chance or fate, I did not arrange it, but here I am, out of all those places among all those people, at the same tiny table with them. 

{THIS IS PROOF THAT it was the Almighty who in spite of her  shenanigans & all the other people ‘downtown’ where we operated, the hand of God put me WITH HIM where she HAS TO EXIT the scene.  God knew everything, as always, & what does this exactly represent? 

Could it be the time OF HIS DEATH?  Because before his death I had ignored him for a long time as things weren’t going my way.  (His Face Book portrays great suffering, remorse & wanting to die, as he said he had no one to turn to.  Why?  I represented all there was of Mother / home / security in spite of how badly he treated me – but I was GONE.)  He would not leave her or the drugs, it was no use my trying to have a relationship.  But here I am!  And here SHE IS NOT as she has to LEAVE!} *

But she gets up & says,

“I have to go to work.”

I see she is wearing a slick/slim or lustrous light grey dress, lady like.  It has a couple folded seams running all the way down in front, I don’t know how long the dress is, I assume it’s street length. 

*{ME:  Mother God here I get lost.  Her leaving means what?  Having to work, must leave.  Her dress, silvery, lady like, two seams folded in front, what does it mean?  I know it’s a message.

MG:  Yes indeed.  First hint “folded” as in the two folded seams running down her dress.  Folded is ended.  “We folded,” “our show folded” is we were ended, it stopped.  Her relationship with Nick folded.  She assumed it would be for always, but always in this case was only of the earth, the silvery lustrous dress represents ‘forever marriage’ which ended.  And that is why SHE IS SHOCKED that YOU are here but she WILL NOT BE.  He dies, you inherit him, she does not!  Why?  Her love is of the earth, your love is Eternal, Godlike & the two of you are Soul Mates.

The work symbol?  Again, the earth.  You do not have to work to keep him – he is yours by a Higher Power.  She had to work to enable him to do his drugs, so she could keep him.  Her time to exit, yours to enter.  Theater of Life.} *

 Because she has to leave right now, it isn’t certain does she have to go home to sleep to get up early for work?  That’s the feeling I get.  Was she trapped by her schedule & me showing up, meaning that I will get the guy & she won’t?  Not be the first, anyway.  {He is the type of guy that will have sex with almost anyone}

But I’m not sure of things.  Has she already got to him, made love to him, & then went out for food?

There’s also an issue of photography.  I am a professional photographer & I offered him to work {when?}, during which time I knew I’d get to him.  But did she also offer him work to take some pictures of him?  And did she do it?

I’m planning to ask him.  But I think if she offered to take pics of him, she probably just took him to her place & did not do it, or if she did, just took a small amount of amateur shots.

But I am serious about photography. And if & when I get him to my place I will take many professional & great images of him.  So it veers from ‘just sex’ to photography.

After she leaves his position changes.  He sits from my left to my right.  Just beyond him is a pretty young girl looking at him.  I say to her to calm her down, 

* { SITTING AT THE RIGHT HAND OF GOD is a very great honor, given to Jesus Christ, the bible says.  And so, first he was on your left, as you were separated.  It is the ‘left path’ or the dishonorable road, but then, in death, he now sits at the right hand – where he was supposed to be from the start.} * 

“Yes, he is cute.  Every woman wants him.”

Somehow this dissuades her ardor, which is what I wanted.

 {EVERY WOMAN WANTS HIM – dissuade her ardor.  This is to illustrate the difference between earthly love & Divine.  Every woman wants his body.  He physically has what they want.  But this is not Eternal.  Only the one who has Eternal love for him can be with him after death, the rest are left behind, the body, the object of their desire, is gone.  And to be Soul Mates means he also contains that love for you.  It can’t be one way.

 ME:  What is the significance of the photos? - Her photos, my photos? 

MG:  Photos are ‘the picture.’  Her picture of him or concept is amateurish; it is not Eternal or Divine.  Your PROFESSIONAL view of him is Godlike.  You see his Soul, not just the body, you were concerned about his spiritual welfare – she was not.} *












 

 

 

Thursday, 26 October 2023

Gender War Going the Other Way


                          William Bond, Rasa Von Werder & Pete Jackson Discussion


Letter to a woman-run organization from Rasa—First, what I received from them:

                    We offer some women's-only classes, and some coed, but you may have noticed that we don't offer programs just for men. Why not? Well, we're a women-run business and men's work isn't in our realm.

Fortunately, we have some wonderful friends and allies here in the Asheville area at New Moon Brotherhood who are showing up to create spaces for men to gather, connect, be supported by each other and the land, and to grow together. 

They're offering a Men's Retreat coming up on November 11-12 that we're guessing many of you would love to attend. Here's more from them:

The "lone wolf" is a cultural narrative that keeps men unwell. The hurt it causes in the inner and outer worlds is unfathomable. It's time we men face ourselves and lead each other into our potential to serve ourselves and our communities. Our retreat: Tending Your Inner Fire, is a coming home to the fire of the heart, an igniting of purpose and clarity, and the writing of a new story of brotherhood. Our communities will feel the warmth of our healing. This is our celebration. We’ve got work to do. 

From Rasa:

Men already have too many privileges,  which were won by discriminating against women, holding them down - victimizing them & children.  We are talking about the gender war, where they did war against women, the rightful leaders of the family & the world.  They brought war, chaos & hatred into the world.  They are the gateway for evil.  Satan rules the world & he works through men.

 

In our New Religion & Order, men will be 90% excluded.  They will not be allowed to enter the Temple of Mother God or the convent, or any of the safe spaces for women.  They can be members but only inhabit certain places, like the Community where they are mated with women, other places only by our invitation.

 

You bring up a sensitive issue here & it should be discussed, but men DO NOT PERMIT IT TO BE EVEN BROUGHT UP OR PUT ON THE TABLE IN THIS MALE-RUN SOCIETY.  It is because of men we have WARS, unjust laws, slavery, prejudice, discrimination, anti-sex 'morals' with double standards, the super rich against the super poor. Men caused all this as they are not designed by God/biology to be leaders.  The female has the brain, the heart, to lead the family & the world - the man has only to work & obey her.  But they rebelled against women & Mother God as they became more & more aggressive due to women breeding with aggressive men - they eventually turned against their leader.  This is exemplified in the Myth of Lucifer into Satan & Durga/Kali against Maharashtri.

 

My work is to found this new Order where we will go back to the Power of the female & that includes the love of nature & animals {which men do not support}.  Enough said.

 

Rasa Von Werder ' "Woman, Thou Art God" 






To William:

We have a serious problem that must be addressed.  Men form brotherhoods fairly EASILY.  Why?  We must analyze & understand why women fail to bond.  I have given reasons.  William goes back to ancient days & suggests agriculture made the change.  Why?  Dr. Bryan Sykes says things changed during agriculture when women were able to make cereal to feed babies.  Prior to that, without this, an infant had to be breast fed for several years - the immune system is not fully formed in a child until six years, he said, & for this, breast feeding is the solution.........And with the feeding of formula or cereal, women were free to have serial pregnancies, which men wanted......Not because they love children but they want to use children for work & conflicts.  {Later, canon fodder}  We must delve into this, & how can we undo what has been done?         Rasa

 

William Says:

I suppose in the end it is all about sisterhood, Rasa. Female chimpanzees are helpless because they don't support each other while female bonobos are powerful because they do support each other. And it seems the same for humans as well, female humans have allowed men to rule the world because they also failed to support each other. As we see in the feminist movement women do want to be empowered and have achieved a lot, but if women want to rule the world then they have to come together in a powerful sisterhood. So I suppose this has to be the message we have to try and get out there. 

 

Yes, all we can do it keep on writing on the internet and hope others may read what we are saying and do something.

 

The bonobo is more like humans than chimpanzees in many different ways. The chimpanzee like most animals can only breed when the female is in season. Whereas both the bonobos and human unlike nearly all other animals can breed and have sex any time of the year. As you mentioned only the bonobo and human can have sex face to face. Both humans and bonobos are the weakest of the great apes, all other apes are far stronger. This might be to do with the fact that male chimpanzees, gorillas and  orangutans fight each other for access to females, so only the strongest males gets to mate. 

 

It also has been discovered that the skeleton of an early human called australopithecine, is very similar to the skeleton of a modern bonobo. This all suggests that early humans and bonobos were once every much alike and perhaps early humans likewise had a powerful sisterhood. As Marija Gimbutas has pointed out, nearly all stone-age statuettes ever found are of women, very few are of men. Perhaps showing us the higher status of women during the stone-age. Somehow, the sisterhood broke up when we had farming.

 

My personal theory is that it might have happened when men began to make weapons like spears and clubs in which to hunt animals. These weapons then were used to intimate and kill other men and women to gain power. This finally led to warfare and patriarchy. 

 

But if women were able to create a powerful sisterhood back in the stone-age then there is no reason why they cannot do the same again. Perhaps all is needed is of women to learn more about the bonobo and the knowledge that a powerful sisterhood is possible.  William 

Rasa says:  Yes I agree re the femdom men.

  The rest of them or I should say, most of them, are repulsed by female authority & fear losing all their rights.  They do have all kinds of rights by way of culture, law & so on.  They want to hang onto that.  And they fear they will get less sex when women are in charge.  They are so anxious to get sex they feel they must dominate to get it. 

The truth is that when women are in charge they might get more sex, lol.  Rasa 

Agreed Rasa, if we learn from the bonobo ape then men will get a lot more sex if women take over. More so, if women learn they can use sex to dominate men. I think what frightens men about female authority is backing the losing side, because they don't believe women can rule the world.   William 

From Pete Jackson:  That is correct, Rasa and William.

  Their fears are nearly 100% irrational fears, especially the part about sex.  With Women in charge, men on average and on balance overall would indeed be likely to get more sex, not less, as Women's natural sexuality would no longer be artificially suppressed by either gender.  And even the fear about supposedly losing rights is quite irrational as well, as Matriarchy is in fact the best pathway to genuinely achieve liberty and justice for all.  On balance, most men will actually come out ahead in terms of genuine civil and human rights compared to the often abysmal status quo ante.  As for the self-fulfilling prophecy fear of backing the losing side, well, that is only true until the day that it isn't anymore, which is likely far sooner than most men think it is.  Best wishes,  Pete 

Rasa says:

very good answers.  I'm keeping it for publication & future books.  I'm on page 222 right now before I upload the next article - when I hit page 300 that will be the book so it won't be long.  And then I will put together one on Matriarchy which you guys will be in.  I can't wait to do these books, they give me great satisfaction.  And I don't care if I sell very few, the important thing for me is production.  If I stop producing to promote, it will kill time for production.  And when I am dead, I cannot produce more.  I am counting on the books being popular AFTER I die, where they will live forever. 

We have more influence in the worlds we leave behind than in the views or sales we have today.  Look at Charles Dickens.  In his lifetime he did not save orphans, he only wrote about their plight & the plight of the poor.  There were 2 men I can name {there were others} who at the same era did WONDERS for orphans & poor people - George Muller & Rev. Spurgeon.  But the books of Charles Dickens LIVE ON, influencing people against mistreatment of the poor.  But the work of the two guys mentioned is GONE--not COMPLETELY--but partially gone.

 In the same way, instead of promoting now or even doing face-to-face ministry as I started this year - if I write down everything I know & can imagine, & conceive, of the doctrine as well as how to have a Matriarchal Sisterhood / Community, I feel I & we will do more good.  Our words will live on forever, influencing people just as Charles Dickens is doing.  Rasa 

 

William says:  Yes, I agree, Rasa,

 there are many instances in history of people only becoming successful only after they died. This is more true if someone comes up with a radical idea. The classic example is of Nicolaus Copernicus who worked out mathematically that the Earth must go around the Sun. But he knew he would be heavily criticized for saying this and kept quiet and his papers where only revealed after he died. Another was a Hungarian doctor named Ignaz Semmelweis who first proposed that doctors wash their hands before operating. He was ridiculed because of this and died a failure, his ideas only caught on after he had died. 

 

Even Mary Wollstonecraft in her book, “A Vindication of the Rights of Woman”, wasn’t a success in her own lifetime but it was this book that started feminism. Unfortunately her ideas are way out of date today, but have become a dogma for many modern feminists. So that Mary Wollstonecraft’s idea that men and women are the same, has become a road block to further female empowerment. 

 In the end just putting out our ideas is the only thing we can do. I personally think that matriarchy will appeal to both women and men. Men never liked feminism as it talked about sexual equality whereas men are into concepts like hierarchy, as well as dominance and submission. So ideas of women ruling the world and dominating men makes more sense to them, than men and women being equal. And if we have a lot of men calling for matriarchy then women won’t be so frightened of this concept.    William

 

Rasa says: 

I didn't know Ms W & her book started feminism.  I thought it was Pankhurst.  So now I must etch this onto my mind, & take a look at her work.

 

You said:  So that Mary Wollstonecraft’s idea that men and women are the same, has become a road block to further female empowerment. 

{Did you mean road BLOCK or something else?}  Are you saying her book blocked female empowerment today or was an origin of feminism?

 

On another note, I have noticed that promotion is promotion in the world.  Being in the world disturbs my mental abilities, dissipates my mind.  Then I cannot function spiritually & write what I must, get the ideas I need from God.  It's worse than apples & oranges, it's like Satan vs God, the world being intermingled with so much evil & sin, it gets in the way of contemplation.  For the time being I want to be in the state of contemplation, the world disturbs my mind.  Jesus did say it is 'the better part.'   Rasa

 

William says:  Mary Wollstonecraft wrote her book,

 “A Vindication of the Rights of Woman” at the end of the 18th century when men at the time were saying things like, women are too stupid and emotional to be trusted in any position of power. Mary Wollstonecraft refuted these claims and said that women were just as intelligent, capable and emotionally stable as what men were. Her book was greatly influential throughout the 19th and 20th centuries but her idea that men and women are the same, came a dogma that feminist still say today. That is why they reject matriarchy because matriarchy suggests women would do a better job of ruling the world than men. Which you cannot have if men and women are basically the same. So feminists today still follow what Mary Wollstonecraft wrote over 200 years ago.   William 

 

from Rasa:  Oh I see what you mean.

  Backward, aren't they?  Never read the Natural Superiority of Women which I was aware of at age 14, lol.  Just goes to show you the Power of Words!  That's why we must keep writing & publishing, making sure our words do not disappear.

 

 

Woman turns tables of domination against husband.  Dickens describes it well, there's a few minutes of good explanation here - how he browbeat her, she tried crying but he saw it as weakness.  Then as he goes for the door, feeling he's won, she physically attacks him & it turns out he's a coward.  Minutes later he enters the workhouse & tries to dominate the paupers.  The wife appears & tell him off.  Dickens explains it's one or the other - either he dominates you or you him, etc, & the woman knew she had to go for it or forever be dominated.

 

The beating starts around 9:35  but see a bit before that & after for more on this...Dickens explains well how people in authority are terrific for beating on the poor & weak, but inside they are COWARDS, & this man proves it.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FvGhX6FIIf4&t=8819s

 

William says:

The cowardly bully is what my wife’s first husband was like. From what my wife and her children tells me he would verbally abuse them all and use insults to undermine my wife’s confidence in herself. Then he left my wife to go and live with another woman but it turns out this woman wouldn’t put up with his insults and ended up completely dominating him. So it seems he was domineering bully if people gave into him, but quickly backed down when someone stood up to him.  (None of my wife’s children like him and one of his sons once punched him). 

 

My parents would tell me and my brother what life was like in before WW2 and in the times when women were only housewives and men were the ‘breadwinner’. Some men when they got their wages would go to the pub and spend most of their wages on drink and gambling. Leaving their wives and family very little to live on. But some women to prevent this happening would stand at the factory gates when the workers got paid and grab their husbands as they came out of the gate and take their wages from them, before the man could spend any of it. So again these men would back down when a woman stood up to them.   William

 

Rasa says:

          Wow, what you said about the man being the 'breadwinner,' taking all his salary & pissing it away on alcohol, gambling & such indeed is a common theme running through many cultures.  In the Mexican/Latin culture {some African & other cultures as well} there are entire towns & villages which will not permit men to handle money or do the business of the family when they are at the market, because of this reason.

    This underscores the selfish & therefore weak NATURE of men in general.  They are lacking in EMPATHY & give in to their lower nature.  I have seen where men take food out of their children's mouth so they can be with a Sex Therapist.














    What does alcohol do for a person?  It makes them FEEL GOOD.  What does gambling do?  It gives them false hope, a temporary belief they will be solvent or even RICH - which makes them feel good.  What does a Sex Therapist give?  Once again, feel good therapy.  Males are NEEDY compared to women, needy to be taken care of, made to feel good, given consolation & lower nature gratification.

    Their lower nature, in general, controls them - some call it the 'little head' ruling the big one.  

    What makes women different?  Their BRAIN & heart contain EMPATHY & they will sacrifice for children or men, old folks, the needy, or animals.  At the very least they will SHARE with the needy, not deprive them of necessities.  Men will take from the poorest of the poor to feed their lower needs & for LUXURIES not needed.  I always speak in general re men & women as there are always exceptions - virtuous men & psychotic women.

    And that is why men cannot rule the family & the world as we all agree, women must do so.             Rasa

 

          And the PS to that is that the good men should take over.  The problem is good men, like Jesus types – William Bond, Pete Jackson, would say, “My Kingdom is not of this world.”

          The good men are about doing God’s work, which is Salvation, a different dimension.

          Add to that the men who are basically GOOD but cannot overpower the evil as the wicked will use every criminal, demonic means to do what they do, & the good guys are afraid.  The evil have a SYSTEM which includes law on their side TO PUT GOOD people away – those who PROTEST.  Some regular guys even go along with the wicked for the benefits of society saying they are SUPERIOR TO WOMEN & have more prerogatives, lol.

Bottom line, women plus good men must slowly but surely invade the culture/system of the wicked & change it.    Rasa

 

Pete Jackson:

I would also like to add that what you said about men and money made me think of how the flip side of that is that men also become more dangerous (especially to Women) when they are desperate for money, creating a no-win situation for Women under the status quo.  As I have been advocating for nearly a decade now, a genuine Universal Basic Income (UBI) would solve so many problems in that regard, provided that it is truly "no strings attached" (unconditional and universal).  Women would become far less dependent on men as breadwinners or otherwise (if at all), men would become far less desperate (if at all), poverty would be eradicated, and the working class would have far more bargaining power in relation to the oligarchs. And it would lack the perverse incentives and discrimination that the current patchwork quilt of social welfare programs have.  Is it perfect?  Of course not, but perfect solutions do not realistically exist, at least not in the near term.  UBI transcends the left-right political spectrum, and the greedy oligarchs and their sycophantic lackeys generally hate the idea, as does the patriarchy in general, as it would ultimately be their undoing.  They would only support conditional and non-universal programs that they can rig and control. 

Rasa says:

It is interesting to think about Pete....If everyone had a basic low income, what would happen?  It would have to be better than what we have now as since Patriarchy there has been nothing but exploitation & cruelty to the poor, extreme cruelty now that I'm reading Dickens.  In the 1850's they were hanging people for non violent crimes, even small crimes.  It was unbelievable.

 

Was it that way all over Europe?  I don't know.  Was England the cruelest place on earth toward the poor? 

If we eliminate poverty we will remove much of the street crimes & crimes of desperation, I am certain.  Guaranteed Survival would change many things.

 

Pete Jackson says:

As for England being the cruelest in Europe back then towards the poor, I think several other countries were quite bad as well (France in particular, which of course led to their famous revolution in 1789), which was to some degree "normal" by old-school patriarchal standards, but England was still likely at or near the top of the European league tables for cruelty.

 

Rasa:  Let me add that Jack London wrote VIVIDLY re the fate of the poor & homeless in England, the destitute.  He actually lived with them in their miserable neighborhood in London, worked in the work houses & explained all the horrific cruelties to the poor.  It’s even more vivid than what Dickens portrayed, as he was right in it with them.  And this was the turn of the 20th Century, much after Dickens.