Two Dreams Explain the Situation with my ex-Lover, Spiritual Husband John

8-30-21 Movie Shocker—Lover-Fake Wife & Me

 

          First, I am somewhere with my ex-Lover who is my Spiritual Husband – John we’ll call him.  He’s sitting at some sort of blonde-wooden polished desk which has something extending in front of it, like a long involved student’s desk in class.  It has like wooden stilts extending & has a further down desk.

 

          *** WOODEN STUDENT’S DESK, WOODEN STILTS EXTENDING:  This means CROSS or SUFFERING.  John’s school is that of suffering, he is learning by it.  The EXTENDERS, with another desk beyond, is another symbol of Cross, that is, he is suffering now but there is MORE TO COME in the not-distant future, just AHEAD OF HIM.  And when this occurs, it seems the next scene will happen – that of the breakup, once again, with his FAKE WIFE.

          The BLONDE, POLISHED wood rather than brown or unpolished might REFER TO ME, as I am platinum blonde while the fake wife is brown haired, & polished could mean his FEELINGS are BUFFED which happens by a type of SANDPAPER or suffering which fixes one’s understanding & feelings – it polishes one spiritually.  I got this analogy from the teachings of Tenzin Palmo, who got it from a priest who told her in the choice of meditating rather than working on a convent – work on the convent as meditating will not take you any further, but in working for the convent she would be POLISHED as if by SAND PAPER because the going will be ROUGH.  He said the velvet of meditation does not polish one, the harshness of the work taken up would .***

 

Above, how I used to look, how I look today.  Not bad for an old lady.  My young husband likes me.  Women, don't give up because of old age - young men want & need us.  Don't worry how you look, go for it.  You don't have to look as good as me, they're not all perfect either.  And brain wise, they needs lots of help.

          I come up to him & ask him,

          “Do you think of me or miss me a lot?”

 

          He waits a long time before answering, and then he says,

          “I miss you at times a LITTLE BIT.”

 

          This disheartens me & I want to ask him why he waited so long to answer when a new scene appears.  But before this scene or a preamble is I see his common-law wife, Ruthie, scurrying up a path like from the horizon toward me to the left, she seems fairly busy & happy.  And this also disheartens me, as I love my John.

 

          SCURRYING ON THE PATH FROM THE HORIZEN TOWARD ME:   The HORIZEN is the FUTURE.  This is a vision of WHAT WILL HAPPEN.

 

          Now the scene changes into a movie being produced.  There are all kinds of people around – many dozens who want to be chosen to be in this movie – I think this includes me – as well as directors, producers, camera people

 

          The movie is IMPORTANT – don’t know why.  It’s a TRUE STORY & they are narrating it, recreating the true life, & it’s about a COUPLE, like historical, maybe from some kind of royal family back when.

 

          I do recall going up to the producer or director, sort of dong something with a camera, I am sort of ‘on my knees’ or stooping, he’s low to the ground also.  The thingy in his hands, which I take to be a camera, is like a CRAB, shaped like one, with colorful designs on it, sort of like seeing a large crab with a picture of the planet from satellite space – this is VAGUE, might not mean anything.  And I ask the man sincerely,

 

          *** CRABLIKE CAMERA WITH A DESIGN SORT OF LIKE OUR GLOBE FROM A SATELLITE {you see the oceans & land from outer space, like swirling blues mostly & green}:   This is like a CRYSTAL BALL foretelling the future.  I am asking this person – someone who can predict the future – is this going to be for real?  And he is affirming it.

          THE CRAB:   Is also a portent of ASTROLOGY as the crab is the TROPIC OF CANCER, which is MY SIGN.  This says its about ME most likely. ***

 

          “IS THIS MOVIE REALLY GOING TO HAPPEN?”

 

          He answers me it is PRETTY CERTAIN.

 

          The story is about this couple BREAKING UP.  And the WRATH of the man is FORMIDABLE as he BEHEADS THE WOMAN, HIS WIFE, & THROWS HER HEAD SO FORCEFULLY that it turns FLAT like a pancake two inches thick, into the LAKE which is near their premises.  When I see what it did to her head it’s scary.

 

          BEHEADS HER:   This is TERMINATION, the way Kings like Henry terminated their wives by beheading them.  No head, no life, no relationship.

          THE HEAD also implies mental cessation, like in my head I decide this or that, to continue something or end it.  And he is making it clear to her head or understanding, that this is totally over, no going back.

HEAD TURNS FLAT, LIKE A PANCAKE 2” THICK, {I can see her face & features flattened}:   “FLAT” implies ‘LEAVING HER FLAT’  or in other words, NO STRINGS ATTACHED, a complete, total ending.

THROWS HER HEAD INTO A LAKE FORCEFULLY:   This is just another term for the finality, not only does he do what he did but throwing her head in the lake is also drowning her.

HIS GREAT RAGE:   There will be MUCH EMOTION OR RAGE, HATE, in his ending with her on his part. *** 

 

                     Can’t recall much else.  There were details but can’t recall them.  Do recall there were colors, like dabs of color, on the headdress of this woman/Queen, the two were some kind of royal family as in the dream of the 24^th where he murders her. 

 

          ROYAL:  CHOSEN, DESIGNATED, ASSIGNED, ANOINTED, SOMEONE SPECIAL LIKE SENT.  Like ‘King Jesus’ or ‘Queen Mary’ or the Ascended Buddha, on earth, the equivalent thereof, marked on earth.  Not necessarily as great as these beings, but marked for being part of ‘the royal family of God.’

          In the dream of the 24^TH , this same female is depicted as a FALSE WIFE, NOT chosen, one who used her pregnancy to trap the Royal Prince, & eventually he understands & kills her.  Here he is again doing the same thing.

 

8-24-21 Murder of Royal May-Gal by the Royal Family & they make me a part of it for some reason – or I am just a witness

 

This dream is another revelation which occurred after I chanted the name of Tenzin Palmo before going to sleep {underscores her Powerful God Presence}

  

          There is a terrible murder & dismemberment going on & they make me a part of it by my being a witness.

 

          It starts out with an article about me in a great magazine, Esquire I think, & there’s a big layout of me by the photographer Kriegsman – his name is on the left corner on top – the photos are all in color.  In the photos I am perfect, beautiful, the colors are beautiful, lots of blue & other colors; I am at my best bodily perfection.

 

          ***MY ARTICLE:   This is me when I was relating to John, my ex lover, it says I am perfect.  I am the original lady like I was the original female body builder in Esquire, I am the ‘one & only’ beginning – his TRUE WIFE.***

 

          A short time passes & someone wants to feature the recent royal bride – married to a member of the Royal clan who is a candidate for King some day.  I examine her photo.

 

          *** ROYAL FAMILY:   Those that are CHOSEN & ANOINTED or meant for some special place in the world.  In this case, I was/am meant to be with John, John is a  Prince as he is meant to be my consort – this is a special designation by God. ***

 

          She’s standing.  She has on a dress that is form fitting & her body is thin, - her dress is black, cut in a v in front with some kind of edging on the v, white or off white, the dress goes just below the knee.  Her one leg is in front of the other, but it is TOO FAT & it ends in a white ‘saddle’ shoe that is HUGE, a big shoe like a man’s size 13, & I say,

 

          “She’s ALL WRONG!”

 

          *** (This is Ruthie absolutely because I recognize the way her legs look.  In real life, her legs are too fat for her body. She is NOT chosen, designated or anointed to be the wife of my John, I am.  But she got herself in there somehow.  That’s the ‘v’ of victory on her chest, but her dress is black which says ‘funeral’ or ‘end.’  This will end.

 

The leg on top of the other is that she is DOMINATING – the fatness of it is like ‘heavy handed’ but this is ‘heavy legged.’  Heavy handed is EXTREME.  In this case she has got something over on him {the dream doesn’t explain} by which she is dominating him.

 

The WHITE SHOE is marriage; the SADDLE SHOE is like the saddle on a horse.  She is RIDING HIM or controlling him as one would saddle a horse & make it take you somewhere, the horse is the beat of burden, we use the horse for our own purposes – he is stronger but we outsmart him with our ways over other animals.  RIDING a man also refers to SEX. ***

 

          They – whoever produced this article – saw how perfect my article was & they therefore tried to put her in to more or less follow my successful article, but it FAILED.

 

          *** MY ARTICLE VS HER ARTICLE:  My article is my place or position, who I am regarding him.  She wanted to take my place & she did, but she is ALL WRONG for him & it is done BY FORCE, which the leg & shoe explain. ***

 

          The next scene I am in a dim place similar to my attic, but all the lights are out, you can see very little.  Myself & two other people are standing by what looks like the window to the side of my attic, where the back pine tree is.  There’s a man here to my right, a woman to my front, & in between them is a blade-machine that cuts & can dismember meat or a body, & to my shock & horror, they have killed this royal female May-Gal & is it Henry the Prince I think vaguely, & a female member of the family, & they have killed & are dismembering May-Gal!  I see them clearly cutting off each of her fingers from each hand, - & I get the idea they are going to CUT HER INTO SMALL PIECES & GET RID OF HER BODY WHERE NO ONE WILL EVER FIND IT.  It will be an absolute SECRET & no one is ever to speak of it, including me, it will be never mentioned again, no one will ever now what happened to her.

 

          ***DEATH & DISMEMBERMENT by the members of the Royal Family no less, including John to my right & his God Self, as Mother God, in front of me.  They are removing her & they want to remove all traces of her from his life & off the planet, but this is done in secret.

 

          The FINGERS represent empowerment, as without fingers, one can’t do anything with their hands being stumps.  She is being DISEMPOWERED BY John, secretly, by the agreement of his lower & higher self, his body & his God Self.

 

          This being my ATTIC & also very dim, is my HIGHER MIND but what is going on is secret with John, but it’s being revealed to me by someone special to be explained momentarily.  In this secret place I see John’s secret thoughts & plans.  He wants to disable Ruthie from controlling him, remove her completely from his life.

 

          Cutting off the fingers:  “She has her fingers in every pie” means she is involved or intruding into every project.  John will remove her from his business – all of it.  This is systematic, finger by finger.  Fingers also imply authority, like pointing a finger points out something or admonishes someone.  It’s dominance.***

 

         This is an UNDERSTANDING I sense but not a word is said.  It is TRAUMATIC to me but I say to myself, possibly to them,

 

          “I understand why this has to be done.  She got him to marry her by getting pregnant; this was not wanted by him nor meant to be.”

 

          I see their marriage as a royal mistake, & this cannot be because marriages in the royal family are CRUCIAL – they must be RIGHT & so the family is setting it right.

 

          A bit later I am at the other side of the attic, where a royal family female elder – like let’s say the Queen Mother, is sitting in some sort of setting which is hard to describe.  It’s like real but not real.  Is it an altar, is it real, is it a screen, but totally life-like?  She is in her seventies, she is covered in many colors & decorations over her upper body & head {all I see is her upper body} & she asks me,

 

          ***QUEEN MOTHER:  Yesterday I saw Tensin Palmo on a Skype interview.  She is GIVING ME THIS VISION, or enhancing my mind by her Grace.

 

          The decorations over her are like ornaments on a Christmas tree – they are small gems or baubles in rows, over her upper body & hooded head – this says ‘It’s Christmas, you are being GIFTED by her.”

 

She is in a normal or brighter light, showing me the secret vision or intent, which is in a darker light.  She is also facing INWARD, away from the window she’s in front of, while I am FACING OUTWARD, toward the window in front of me. 

 

She is showing me an INWARD, INNER, DEEPER reality going on. ***

 

          “In the light of what has happened, would you like to take a vacation for rest, to get over the trauma, say a year in Russia?”

          I reassure her & myself,

 

          “No, I am OK.  I realize this had to be done, because she got him to marry her under false pretenses, by allowing herself to get pregnant.”

          {And so the marriage is bogus.}

 

          *** ASKING ABOUT RUSSIA:   Russia is the last place one might want to go on vacation for.  This is saying that what I have gone through with this man & Ruthie, to go on vacation to Russia would be an improvement, & going for a whole year also says a lot.

 

          But I say I am reassured that she is a bogus wife, this will end, so my trauma is alleviated. ***