Healing Diet

 

2-13-25    Dream Reflects Success of New Diet

 

Today is 16 days completion of the new pant-based Dr. Esseltyne & Dean Ornish Diet. It’s been ROUGH GOING with unpalatable meals, hunger, weakness & constipation so bad that on top of my present terrible constipation, it got WORSE.

About the 13^th day I amended the diet to include some of my good-tasting foods in moderation—small amounts of the cheese I have here {just 2-3 slices a day SOME days} – checked the Ornish diet & he says you can consume any NO FAT milk ingredients including sour cream, yogurt, cream cheese & cottage cheese IF I can find them! Ditto EGG WHITES which he serves in his program  that I can do – it’s the yolks that are the culprit with cholesterol – apparently the lecithin the egg industry told us dissipates it is a lie}, tiny amounts of mayo on my bread. - And stopped eating lettuce with balsamic vinegar three times a day until bust – that might have been the culprit. It sounds great but didn’t work; maybe I didn’t chew it enough. Dr. Essel says you should chew these green six times a day with vinegar – no thanks. You do it, Doc, I can’t.

 And I don’t have in my grocery the #1 greens he says get: Kale, beet greens, Swiss chard & others which you boil 5-6 minutes, but my provincial market does not have these! In Spring I’ll be able to go to the farmer’s market about 15 miles away – they have it all – but not now. Not a big deal, I did get other ingredients & am now CHOCK FULL of all that I need – more than what I need, to fulfill this diet: Sweet potatoes, rice, all kinds beans, whole grain bakery bread, melons, blueberries, bananas, oranges & apples, lots of OATMEAL & OAT MILK so I’m in heart disease & chronic disease reversal Heaven.

The outside animals will get the rest of all the food I have here not good for me – they need it – the margarine on white bread, all kinds OILS, egg yolks, processed oatmeal with sugar, various nut butters, etc. And of course the packaged cake mixes – I have something like 75 boxes! - That I meant to cook for animals but never had TIME! 

The dream:

          I’m with a doctor, been consulting with him - I suppose in his office. Reminds me of Dr Atkins, who was in love with me & wanted to marry me. It’s time to leave the office & go somewhere. He’s in front of me right by the door. The meeting has been businesslike, no emotions of any kind. And yet I get the feeling that he’s SECRETLY attracted to me or infatuated but he dare not bring it out in the open, not even to himself.

I am CLOSE to him right behind him, He has a short haircut {straight brown hair} He’s wearing a business jacket with neat collar, maybe fine wool, the color is a deep but not bright purplish.

And then I make a sexual move. I kiss him gently on the back of the neck, once, & then again, more erotically. I knew he’d respond if I did something like this, & he does. Not the first kiss, but the second for sure.

Now we’re on a couch I his office, he’s got all his clothes off, & I still have on some of my underwear.

I forgot to say: I see a female who is the WIFE of a famous doctor & she’s talking about herself. She’s proud of the name he’s given her & at the bottom of an 8X10 image of her is her name – “Mrs. Hutterxxxxxx”” – a long name with maybe 3 syllables I can’t recall what it is, I just put something here but that’s not what it was. And there’s this image of her that shows how great she looks, looking forward {she likes to promote herself.} And in real life, I see her walking from right to left the side of her, wearing a form-fitting blue outfit - one of those stretch jobs, & she’s thin & shapely, especially you look at her back, the way it slopes into a small but round ass,  & I say to the Doc, who’s looking at her with me,

          “She’s shapely.”

          And for some reason, I’m NOT jealous. 

To continue, I’m in this couch with the doc, he’s naked, he’s sitting. I’m somehow facing him but not pressed to him, just sort of holding myself a few feet away but somehow anchored to the couch taking my time taking off my underwear & he’s RUSHING me, lol. I recall my stretch BLACK underpants that he wanted me to remove.

Now he explains something strange. Apparently he has no HAIR on his crotch, & he tells me he’s going to put a ‘wig’ around his dick {like a hair wig} while he does it to me & everything will be alright. I look at his dick, it’s average & not hard yet but he’s EAGER to get going! His skin is darkish in a GRAY - but not a ‘dead’ look – sort of moist tone.

Then I see two pages & they have printed ‘frames’ around the outside edges & have writing on them.

I see these two pages MERGE into each other & become ONE. 

Meaning:

No doubt, it’s the diet.

The end says it all. We are on the SAME PAGE, the two pages, his & mine, become one. That means I have succeeded in following ‘his’ diet. But who is HE? Esselstyne or Ornish?

The PICTURE {which is me} of the lady who likes to promote herself – lol – with her name on the bottom as “Mrs.” shows marriage or UNION with this doctor & she’s PROUD of this because I’m proud of my SUCCESS.

What is the meaning under the EROTIC seduction of him by me? First, we have a consultation. All business – that’s me studying the diet.

At the end, I make a play for him which I know he’ll respond to. These guys don’t even KNOW me! So what does it mean?

‘Making a play’ would be like the two pages become one. I want to find UNION with this diet or I want to become ONE with it – follow it. It’s like ‘seducing’ the Doc – lol.

Let’s talk about the purple suit. Dr. Ornish speaks a lot about his being 18-19 when life HAD NO MEANING & he wanted to KILL HIMSELF. This man has suffered. {PURPLE is the Passion of Our Lord. RED is immediate, maybe short but purple is long-standing like when you have a ‘’black & blue mark’ on your body, it stays a while}. So in the beginning I’m Mrs. Esselstyne, but afterward, seduce Dr. Ornish. That’s how it went – I studied one, then the other. The diet is almost the same, interchangeable, so they are interchangeable.

My BLACK underwear: Black has so many meanings – which one? Since this is reversal of heart disease, the reason I’m embarking o this diet, I think it means removing DEATH – as black is one of the symbols of death or stoppage of something. So ‘he’ – the diet – is EAGER to reverse my problem which is leading to death.

Our UNION or SEX represents my intimacy so to speak, with the DIET.

What is the ring of hair – like a wig – he tells me he’ll put around his dick before he makes love & everything will be alright.

Just guessing, it’s the amendment to the diet & have undertaken – small transgressions that will NOT curtail the healing – that he says is permitted.  Hair represents THOUGHTS or EXTRA STRENGTH in some cases – like hairy legs represent the supernatural mystical ability to get somewhere. Legs are mystical travel; hair is something extra added on or more Power or Anointing.

When a man has a penis that is TOO LONG {it would hurt, like this impossible diet} I’ve heard of a ring they can put on it to prevent it from hurting the female. So this would be a tool to keep me on the diet – prevent me from getting frustrated or quitting. The diet was HURTING me. It was tasteless, it had bad symptoms. But now a TOOL has set this straight or ‘it will be alright.’    {End}