THE CLOSEST I EVER CAME TO SEEING HELL WAS WHEN
MY FIRST HUSBAND, STANLEY, DIED. HE APPEARED TO ME ON A THRONE OF FLAMES, THE
THRONE WAS LIKE THAT OF LINCOLN ON THE LINCOLN MEMORIAL.
THE SUFFERING WAS HORRIBLE - I FELT IT. HE CRIED OUT TO ME TO HELP HIM 'YOU
HELPED SO MANY—HELP ME! I TRIED TO HELP
BUT EVERY TIME I PRAYED, I WOULD FORGET TO PRAY & STOP. THEN I FIGURED HE
MUST BE IN HELL, GOD WOULD NOT WANT ME TO PRAY AS THEY ARE HOPELESS.
I WAS
ONLY 19 WHEN HE DIED - HE LEFT ME PENNILESS WITH OUR CHILD TO TAKE REVENGE ON
ME BECAUSE A MAN RAPED ME, HE BELIEVED I ALLOWEDE IT. I GOT PREGNANT OUT OF IT
& HAD AN ABORTION. I TOOK CARE OF STAN FOR TWO YEARS WHILE HE HAD
OPERATIONS FOR CANCER, THEN HE DIED. JUST BEFORE THAT, HE CANCELLED HIS LIFE
INSURANCE OUT OF REVENGE, WHICH RENDERED MYSELF & THE TWO YEAR OLD CHILD
PENNILESS. AFTER BURYING HIM I HAD FIVE BUCKS TO MY NAME, I BECAME A DANCER THE
NEXT DAY.
.....AS THE YEARS WENT BY HE WOULD APPEAR TO ME
ONCE IN A WHILE, STILL FULL OF HATE, BUT THERE WERE IMPROVEMENTS. I THEN SAW HE
WAS IN PURGATORY, THE BEGINNING THE LOWEST PART OF PURGATORY LIKE
HELL..........SINCE EVERY TIME HE APPEARED I SAW HIS CONTINUED FOR ME, I TOLD
GOD DON'T SHOW HIM TO ME AGAIN.
ABOUT A YEAR AGO I RELENTED, I TOLD GOD, IT'S
OK, YOU CAN SHOW HIM TO ME AGAIN. IT HAD BEEN 55 YEARS SINCE HE DIED. AND THAT
MORNING, HE WAS RELEASED FROM PURGATORY & ENTERED HEAVEN. HE OF COURSE WAS
NO LONGER HATEFUL & REVENGEFUL; HE WAS NOW FILLED WITH JOY. IT SEEMS THAT
MY ACCEPTING TO SEE HIM TRIGGERED THE ASCENSION. I HAD ALSO BEEN SAYING THE
HOLY MASS FOR SOULS, BEING ORDAINED BY JESUS HIMSELF. HIS TIME IN PURGATORY WAS
THE LONGEST OF ANYONE I MINISTERED TO. THE SECOND LONGEST WAS MY MOM, WHO BARELY
MADE IT TO HEAVEN, WHEN I OFFERED TO PAY FOR HER SINS. SHE WAS IN THERE FOR 24
YEARS. SHE WAS A SERIOUS EMOTIONAL
ABUSER BUT I FORGAVE HER & PRAYED FOR HER.
THE
SHORTEST TIME OF ANYONE I MINISTERED TO IN PURGATORY WAS ANNA NICOLE SMITH; SHE
WAS THERE FOR ONLY 64 DAYS. YES SHE WAS A DRUG ADDICT & DID A LOT OF SEX, BUT
SHE SUFFERED, & HAD A REALLY GOOD HEART. THE MAIN THING IS THE HEART. I
HAVE YOUTUBE VIDEOS ON THESE & MANY SUBJECTS & ALSO A BOOK ON MY
MINISTRY:
SAY THE HOLY
MASS. FIRST ASK JESUS TO ORDAIN YOU. I AM A PRIEST ORDAINED BY JESUS. I SAY
MASS FOR SOULS IN MY HOUSE & FROM TIME TO TIME THEY RISE INTO HEAVEN FROM
THE MASSES. WHEN I PRAY FEW SOULS ASCEND BUT WHEN I DO THE HOLY MASS THERE IS
GREAT REACTION, .....FOR EVERY WEEK OF SAYING DAILY MASS AN AVERAGE OF ONE
ASCENDS.
THE MEANING
OF PURGATORY:
TO BE WITH
GOD, TO SEE GOD FACE TO FACE, YOU MUST BECOME GOD. YOUR ENERGY MUST BE THE ENERGY OF GOD. ALL THAT IS DARKNESS OR SPOT WITHIN YOU MUST
BE ELIMINATED & THAT PURGATION MEANS SUFFERING.
WHEN YOU
ENTER PURGATORY THERE ARE NO MORE DISTRACTIONS FROM GOD. YOU KNOW THAT THE ONLY THING THAT CAN MAKE
YOU HAPPY IS THIS PERSON CALLED GOD. YOU
NEED TO BECOME ONE WITH THIS GOD IN ORDER TO FIND HAPPINESS.
WHEN YOU WERE
ON EARTH YOU DIDN’T THINK OR CARE ENOUGH ABOUT GOD, YOUR MIND WENT TO PEOPLE
& THINGS. THESE DISTRACTED YOU FROM
YOUR TRUE ETERNAL NATURE. BUT IN
PURGATORY EVERYTHING IS GONE. NO
DISTRACTIONS. AND WHERE IS GOD? YOU ARE NOT READY TO SEE HER BECAUSE YOU
AREN’T PURE, YOU’RE FILLED WITH THE DARKNESS THAT RESULTED FROM YOUR SINS &
NEGLECT OF GOD. TO GET RID OF THIS, AS YOU
ARE CLEANSED, IS SUFFERING.
YOU DID NOT
WANT TO SUFFER ON EARTH, NOW YOU SUFFER IN PURGATORY. ST. FRANCIS OF ASSISI SAID
“BURN ME
HERE, LORD, NOT IN ETERNITY.”
THE SOULS ARE
PITIFUL BECAUSE THEY CANNOT HELP THEMSELVES, & TIME SEEMS LIKE FOREVER, WITH
NO DISTRACTIONS THERE. SOME ARE
ABANDONED BY EVERYONE. WHO THINKS ABOUT
SOULS? THEY ARE BUSY WITH THE THINGS OF
THE WORLD & BEING WITH PEOPLE, TOO BUSY WITH WORK, MONEY, STATUS,
POPULARITY, EARTHLY LOVE, GAMES, SPORTS, GOSSIP, A MILLION THINGS. GET AWAY FROM THESE THINGS NOW, GET AWAY FROM
PEOPLE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN & MEDITATE & PRAY TO AVOID PURGATORY.
I HAVE
MINISTERED TO PURGATORY ALL MY LIFE.
THEY ARE PITIFUL. ASSISTING THEM
IS THE GREATEST ACT OF CHARITY THERE IS.
2-25-20- COMMENTS ON DIVINE STIGMATA VIDEOS
I HAVE A BOOK
ON THE DIVINE STIGMATA, ESPECIALLY EXPLAINING THE INTERIOR DIVINE STIGMATA. A
FEW SAINTS HAVE HAD THE GRACE OF THE INTERIOR STIGMATA, WHICH IS INVISIBLE, IT
IS CALLED "THE WOUNDS OF JESUS ON THE HEART"--I HAVE THIS GRACE, THAT'S
WHY I CAN EXPLAIN IT......
PEOPLE
MISTAKENLY THINK THAT THE WORST PAINS ARE OF THE FLESH. NO THEY AREN'T--PAINS
CAN GO DEEPER IN THE MIND & EMOTIONS - THAT IS WHERE THE INTERIOR STIGMATA
OCCURS. YOU THINK JESUS ONLY SUFFERED IN HIS BODY? THINK OF HOW HE FELT IN THE
GARDEN WHEN HE SAW WHAT WAS ABOUT TO HAPPEN, HE SWEAT BLOOD & ASKED GOD TO
'LET THIS CUP PASS,' BUT THEN HE SAID, 'NOT MY WILL, BUT
THY WILL BE DONE.....
MY STIGMATA
OCCURRED IN OCT 9, 1982. WHAT HAPPENED IS THAT GOD TOOK AWAY
HER PRESENCE, AS WELL AS ALL THE GIFTS OF THE HOLY SPIRIT WHICH I HAD RECEIVED
- EVERYTHING. GOD PUT ME INTO THE 'SHALLOWS & WASTES OF HUMAN SENSE' WHICH
WAS TERRIBLE PAIN--THE ABSENCE OF THE PRESENCE OF GOD, A DARK NIGHT OF THE
SOUL, WHERE I SAW NO LIGHT BUT HAD TO LIVE ONLY BY FAITH. THIS DEPRIVED, EMPTY,
DESOLATE STATE LASTED EIGHTEEN YEARS! THAT WAS THE 'PRICE' OR RESULT OF
INTERIOR DIVINE STIGMATA. REMEMBER WHEN JESUS SAID ON THE CROSS: 'MY GOD, WHY
HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME?'
I MUST ALSO ADD THIS IN THE LIGHT OF ‘NONDUALITY.’ IT IS THE GOD WITHIN THAT DOES ALL THIS WORK,
GIVES ALL THESE GRACES. WHEN WE PRAY,
INDEED, GOD IS EVERYWHERE, INSIDE & OUTSIDE. BUT IN GENERAL, IT IS THE GOD WITHIN WHO
ANSWERS OUR PRAYERS. GOD WITHIN IS THE
PORTAL OR CONNECTION WITH THE INFINITE.
THAT IS WHY SHE KNOWS ALL WE THINK, ALL WE DO—WITHOUT A NEED OF
CONFESSION. SHE KNOWS OUR MOST INNER
THOUGHTS, DESIRES, PLANS, VIRTUES & SINS.
WE CAN NEVER, EVER HIDE FROM GOD
WHEN SHE IS THE DEEPEST PART OF US.
FEW MENTION
THE INTERIOR STIGMATISTS. SOME OF THESE WERE ST. GERTRUDE THE GREAT, ST. TERESA
OF AVILA, ST. CATHERINE OF SIENNA, ST. FAUSTINA
& MYSELF. I HAVE WRITTEN A BOOK ON IT AVAILABLE ON AMAZON & LULU PRESS.
THE PAINS OF
THE BODY ARE NOT THE GREATEST HEIGHT OF SUFFERING. IN THE PASSION OF OUR LORD, HIS MIND &
HEART SUFFERED EVEN MORE DEEPLY, & SO, THOSE SOULS WHO RECEIVE WITH HIM,
THE SAME GRACE, SUFFER AS MUCH. IT
STRIKES ME THAT THIS WORLD IS CENTERED ON THE PHYSICAL & MATERIAL. LOOK HOW FOCUSSED EARTHLINGS ARE ON PHYSICAL
WOUNDS, TALKING ENDLESSLY ABOUT THEM IN DETAIL, AS IF THEY ARE THE TEACHERS OF
THIS GRACE. RARELY DO THEY SPEAK ABOUT
THE MOTIVATIONS, DEEPEST DESIRES, DECISIONS & MENTAL, EMOTIONAL STATE OF
THE SOULS, THE RESULTS OF THE STIGMATA NOT PHYSICAL.
WHAT DID
JESUS SUFFER IN HIS MIND & HEART? IN
HIS CASE {THE FEELINGS OF STIGMATISTS VARY, IN MY CASE, IT WAS THE DEPRIVATION
OF GOD, IT WAS NOT ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE DID TO ME} HIS THREE YEARS OF MIRACLE
MINISTRY WERE REJECTED. INSTEAD OF LOVE
HE RECEIVED SCORN, IGNOMINY, RIDICULE & HUMILIATION, REJECTION & ALL
THE OTHER TORTURES HUMANS CAN GIVE. HIS
PAIN WAS COMPLETE IN THAT HIS OWN DISCIPLES RAN & EVEN DENIED HIM—ONLY THE
MOST FAITHFUL WERE THERE IN HIS PASSION & DEATH—HIS MOTHER, JOHN, & THE
HOLY WOMEN—NO OTHER DISCIPLES WERE BRAVE ENOUGH TO COMFORT HIM.
IN THE CASE
OF ST. FRANCIS OF ASSISI I THINK IT WAS BECAUSE OF WHAT WAS
DONE TO HIM & HIS ORDER – IT WAS TAKEN AWAY FROM HIM WHEN HE WAS ON THE
CRUSADES. BRO ELIAS WAS A DEMONIC WHO
DEPRIVED THE ORDER OF ITS ORIGINAL AGENDA, THAT OF FOLLOWING THE COMPLETE POVERTY
OF JESUS. HE INTRODUCED BOOKS, NO MORE
BEGGING, BEING ‘SELF SUFFICIENT’ THROUGH WORK.
FRANCIS WAS DEPRIVED OF ALL HE STOOD FOR--HIS GOAL FOR HIMSELF & THE
BROTHERS TO BE COMPLETELY EMPTY OF EVERYTHING BUT GOD, DEPENDENT ON GOD &
NOTHING ELSE.
MEANING OF THE DIVINE STIGMATA AS I UNDERSTAND IT:
THE DIVINE STIGMATA IS A DECISION BEFORE GOD TO PUT GOD
FIRST ABOVE ALL THINGS, TO SACRIFICE ALL BEFORE GOD TO THE DEGREE YOU CAN STAND
IT (WITHOUT DYING)—YOUR DECISION IS ‘I WILL GIVE ALL.’
GOD’S DECISION IS SHE WILL DETERMINE WHAT TO TAKE FROM YOU
WHAT NOT TO TAKE. SHE COULD DO ANYTHING
BUT IT IS SHE WHO DECIDES WHAT IS MOST EXPEDIENT, ECONOMICAL & APPROPRIATE
FOR YOU.
WHEN I PRAYED FOR THE DIVINE STIGMATA I DID ASK NOT TO GET
THE PHYSICAL WOUNDS. I DID NOT THINK GOD
WOULD GRANT ME THIS GREAT GREACE FOR MANY YEARS – UNTIL I WAS IN MY 70’S. BUT WITHIN THREE MONTHS GOD GRANTED MY
REQUEST.
WHAT SHE DID WAS THIS:
I WAS LIVING IN THE MOST SUBLIME
STATE OF INTIMACY WITH GOD. I COULD HEAR & FEEL GOD CONSTANTLY. I COULD CONVERSE WITH SPECIAL SOULS IN
PURGATORY, I COULD PRAY & I WOULD HEAR GOD ANSWER. I HAD RECENTLY SEEN GOD FACE TO FACE TWICE,
IT WAS ECSTASY. I NEEDED NO ONE & NOTHING
FOR MY HAPPINESS. I WAS IN HEAVEN ON
EARTH.
GOD TOOK THIS AWAY FROM ME.
I HAD NIGHTMARES. I LOOKED IN THE
MIRROR & MY EYES LOOKED INSANE FROM THE PAIN. IT WAS MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY UNBEARABLE. THEN THE ITENSE PAIN LEFT ME, BUT I WAS
WITHOUT THE PRESENCE OF GOD FOR EIGHTEEN YEARS, FRO OCT 9, 1982 TO THE YEAR 2000. IT TOOK THAT LONG TO ‘PAY’ FOR THIS GRACE OR
RECEIVE IT. THERE WERE NO PHYSICAL
WOUNDS, THE MIND, THE HEART CAN BE IN A STATE THAT IS UNDESCRIBABLE
SUFFERING. STIGMATA IS MARTYRDOM, THE
DECISION TO ALLOW GOD TO TAKE FROM ONESELF WHAT IS MOST DEAR, PRECIOUS,
BEAUTIFUL & JOYFUL. IT IS TO BE LEFT
IN THE STATE OF DESOLATION; IT IS
A PURGATORY ON EARTH.
This once came out very well as usual, Rasa. And the artwork goes well with it too. A very interesting topic. I do have a couple of questions for you:
ReplyDelete1) Has there ever been anyone who, after having been fully cleansed in Purgatory and finally allowed to ascend to Heaven, decided to stay behind and help others get out? Kinda like a "Resident Assistant"? (Sounds like a job for the late, great John McCain, as in "No One Gets Left Behind")
2) How does reincarnation figure into all of this? Does one have a finite number of chances that get used up each lifetime before that is no longer an option anymore? And can some people perhaps blow all of their chances in just one lifetime?
3) In Buddhism, for example, they do believe in Heaven and Hell, but neither of which last forever. One can also be reincarnated or remain on Earth as a ghost as well. Perhaps Purgatory is simply on the same "spectrum" or "continuum" as both Heaven and Hell?
4) In your Theater of Justice book, you mention a lot of very famous people. But there are many whose afterlife I have wondered about that are not mentioned. If I were to ask you where, say, Jim Morrison of The Doors is right now, would you be able to find out? How about Bon Scott of AC/DC, who did the hit song "Highway to Hell" (hopefully he did not actually go there, lol).
I may have other questions as well, but that is it for now. Thanks.
Keep up the great work,
Ajax
2-26-20-QUESTIONS FROM AJAX THE GREAT ON THE SPIRITUAL LIFE-PURGATORY- REINCARNATION
ReplyDeleteThis once came out very well as usual, Rasa. And the artwork goes well with it too. A very interesting topic. I do have a couple of questions for you:
1) Has there ever been anyone who, after having been fully cleansed in Purgatory and finally allowed to ascend to Heaven, decided to stay behind and help others get out? Kinda like a "Resident Assistant"? (Sounds like a job for the late, great John McCain, as in "No One Gets Left Behind")
FROM RASA IN CAPS: THANKS FOR THE QUESTIONS AJAX. THE SOULS IN PURGATORY CANNOT HELP THEMSELVES OR ONE ANOTHER. TIME IS THE ONLY ELEMENT THAT PERMITS US TO WORK ON OUR SALVATION & HOLINESS, WHEN TIME STOPS, THE WORK ENDS.
THEREFORE, EVEN IF IT WERE POSSIBLE, NO SOUL IN PURGATORY COULD HELP ANOTHER ONE THERE.
WHEN THEY ASCEND INTO HEAVEN THEY CAN HELP BUT GENERALLY SAINTS IN HEAVEN DO NOT MINISTER TO PURGATORY. THERE ARE EXCEPTIONS. MANY SAINTS SAY HOLY MARY GOES THERE REGULARLY TO ASSIST THEM, & I MIGHT ADD, SHE HAS APPEARED TO ME—IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN MY OWN GOD SELF IN HER FORM--& BROUGHT ME SOULS, ASKING ME IF I WOULD HELP THEM. I ALWAYS SAID YES.
IT IS THE OBLIGATION & DUTY OF ‘THE CHURCH MILITANT’ MEMBERS – US ON EARTH – TO MINISTER TO THE SOULS IN PURGATORY. IT IS, ACCORDING TO THE SAINTLY THEOLOGIANS, THE GREATEST ACT OF CHARITY WE CAN DO. THAT IS WHY I CONCENTRATE ALL MY GOOD FOR THEM. EVERYTHING I SUFFER, EVERY GRACE I GAIN, I OFFER UP FOR THEM IN WHAT IS CALLED ‘THE HEROIC ACT’ OF CHARITY. I DON’T SEE HOW IT IS HEROIC BECAUSE GOD RECOMPENSES ME FOR THIS EVERY IOTA. I NEVER FALL SHORT OF GRACE BY GIVING IT TO THE SOULS.
AS FAR AS SAINTS HELPING SOULS FROM HEAVEN. LATE 2018 I STARTED SAYING MASSES AGAIN & BEFORE TOO LONG, ERROL FLYNN POPPED UP & USED MY MINISTRY & MASSES TO DELIVER TWO OF HIS WOMEN FROM PURGATORY. ONE WAS HIS WIDOW, THE OTHER WAS HIS YOUNG LOVER BEVERLY AADLAND.
IN OTHER WORDS, HE DID NOT DIRECTLY SWEEP INTO PURGATORY & LIFT THEM UP; HE NEEDED ME AS THE PARTNER FOR THIS. HOW TO EXPLAIN THIS I CANNOT. I ONLY KNOW THAT THIS IS THE WAY IT WORKS.
THERE IS A TEACHING IN YOGA THAT TOUCHES UPON ‘VOLUNTEERS’ ON THE OTHER SIDE. THOSE SOULS WHO ASCEND THROUGH ALL THE GRADES OF REINCARNATION & ARE PERMITTED TO REMAIN IN HEAVEN, CAN VOLUNTEER TO RETURN TO THE EARTH TO HELP OTHERS.
THESE ARE CALLED ‘AVATARS.’ THEY ARE BORN ADVANCED & USUALLY DISTINGUISH THEMSELVES IN SOME SORT OF MISSION. THEY ARE SPIRITUAL PRODIGIES SUCH AS RAMAKRISHNA (ONE OF MY GURUS) WHO WAS ABLE TO PRACTICE THIS RELIGION, THEN THAT ONE, THEN ANOTHER, EACH TO PERFECTION. HE PRACTICED WORSHIP OF KRISHNA AS AN INFANT & HELD HIM IN HIS ARMS, THAT’S CALLED ‘GOD IN FORM,’ THE BHAKTI OR LOVE PATH. THEN HE PRACTICED ‘NONDUALITY’ WHICH PUT HIM INTO A TRANCE FOR MONTHS—OTHER YOGIS HAD TO WAKE HIM TO FEED HIM ONCE IN A WHILE. THEN HE PRACTICED CHRISTIANITY & JESUS MET HIM IN A GARDEN & MERGED INTO HIS BODY.
I SUSPECT I MIGHT BE AN AVATAR BUT I CAN’T PROVE IT. I HAD A DREAM THAT INDICATED THIS SOME YEARS AGO. THAT WOULD EXPLAIN MY ABILITIES.
BUT I MUST ADD THIS: GOD TOLD ME THAT MANY AVATARS DO NOT ‘MAKE IT.’ HUNDREDS ARE SENT EVERY YEAR, BUT IT IS SO HARD TO SUCCEED IN THIS EVIL WORLD MANY ‘FAIL’ AT THEIR MISSION. THEY TRY & GIVE UP.
MY PARTICULAR MISSION IS FEMALE EMPOWERMENT. I HAVE AS YOU CAN SEE, LED THE WAY FOR THEM.
Thank you, Rasa. If I have any further questions or comments I will ask them later.
DeleteKeep up the great work,
Ajax