Dream: I Fit into the Clothes of an ADVANCED Female! 10-5-21
Her relatives
look on indignantly with a kind of shock like ‘How dare you.’
We were at
some sort of gathering with a large dance floor. I am dancing I guess, people are
watching. There were details I’ve
forgotten, will say what I can muster up.
There’s a
female here who is advanced. She is very
THIN. She seems to be like Cathy Nolly,
the most popular girl in my grammar school – she’s special. But she is not an ego maniac or anything,
she’s very nice, subdued.
I look at
her & notice how thin her legs are with the dull pink leggings over
them. I could not fit into those clothes;
I’m not that thin any more I don’t think.
*** CATHY
NOLLY: Saint Mary of Agreda. I have been reading every day to a friend
over the phone from her monumental book ‘Mystical City of God’. I described to my friend how Mary of Agreda
is the only person who every described what it takes to see God Face to Face,
& also her trips to New Mexico in bilocation, where she converted the
Indians. Although an evil priest made
her burn her accounts of these trips – the Indians described her as ‘the Blue
Lady’ & & explained how she converted them, whereupon they went to the
monks like Juniper Sierra & asked for Baptism.
In thinking
of this Saint I doubt if I have her abilities.
Being THIN
especially in the legs, is thin vs fat – thinness is spiritual poverty or
non-attachment, the legs being a symbol of MYSTICAL TRAVEL/ABILITIES or lack of
same {being able to do ‘mystical travel’ or go to the other world beyond}. I have had many dreams which showed my legs
as hairy {growth of hair meaning LIFE or POWER} & muscular {MUSCULAR BEING
STRONG ABILITIES.}
In the
symbol of THIN vs FAT on the body – in most dreams FAT is the fatness of this
time & space life – the world, flesh & devil – gluttony or being filled
up with the things of the world, - so
the opposite being STRONG SPIRITUALITY.
At the present moment in my life, I’ve gone back into the world at the
Will of God {to some degree, I am most of the time alone, not dating at all, in
a somewhat meditative state but not like I used to be.}
Here I look
at Mary of Agreda & I DOUBT if I have her abilities. I used to think of myself as being high up a
while back, when I lived in the state of spiritual perfection & was
receiving many spiritual benefits, blessings & visions – but that was long
ago. I don’t believe I’m there any more.
***
A little
time passes & Cathy has left her clothes there in the dressing room – not
sure why. I decide to try them on. To my amazement, I fit into her pants! They
are stretchy, & my fitting into them isn’t even tight, there’s lots of
give, the material is valuable. The
color is pink, but not a ‘pretty’ pink, like a dullish pink.
The top I can’t
recall as well, but it also fitted me.
*** FITTING
INTO HER PANTS: Is similar to ‘fitting
into someone’s shoes.’ It means being
able to experience or understand what they have. {The Indian saying ‘walk a
mile in my shoes.’} This is saying I still have the abilities I once had – I
have not lost them. One of those
experiences was seeing God Face to Face – as I told the friend, Mary was the
only Saint I found who explained the process toward Beatific Vision.
The DULL
PINK & ELASTIC STRETCH of the pants:
Probably refers to celibacy, the vow & practice of celibacy might
have been an important factor in Mary’s abilities & mine. It cuts off one’s physical attachment to a
huge part of human life. So the ‘pink’
of the human self, like the pink of the vagina, has gone dull.
The ELASTIC
refers to the elastic ability to leave this dimension & enter another one –
it’s two different world’s, two dimensions.
If one is centered here in this world they cannot BEND or STRETCH into
the other. ***
Then I begin
to DANCE. I do STEPS that are great,
like my ‘leg up’ trick, where my leg goes to the ceiling – no one else in this
room can do that. I think I do
somersaults, all kinds of tricks in these ELASTIC, expensive material pants.
*** These
STEPS with the legs STRAIGHT UP or abnormal stretch, again refer to my MYSTICAL
ABILITIES, & somersaults the same idea.
The material being EXPENSIVE refers almost always in the spiritual life
– expensive means what you had to SACRIFICE or give up in terms of the world – give
up sex, for instance. ***
Now Cathy’s
RELATIVES, several women, are in front of me looking on, & they are
indignant. I especially notice on BIG
woman dressed in black. She reminds me
of an opera performer I saw long ago in a Puccini opera, where a nun has a
baby, it’s taken away from her & it dies.
This women was a VILLAIN, a dominating judgmental person who was the one
who judged the nun for having the baby & took it away from her.
When it was
time to take bows this opera star expected more applause, but she didn’t get
much because the audience had no sympathy for the role she played. She has on a black outfit with a very tiny
white lace fringe on the edges.
There’s
maybe 3 other relatives standing to her left & right, all indignant. But they can’t take away from me that THE
PANTS & TOP FIT ME & I am able to do the most amazing dance moves –they
might be jealous somehow that I am this capable as their relative Cathy.
*** The
CHIEF JUDGMENTAL WOMAN is my lady friend to whom I read the book each day. She is judging me. Although she can’t deny I
have these abilities, she’s still indignant, jealous like Salieri with Mozart
in the movie Amadeus, saying to God ‘How dare you give these abilities to him
while making me mediocre but able to understand how great he is?” Then he put Our Lord’s cross upside down.
The other
ladies with her would be people similar to her who stand in judgment. ***
Then our
party is over. I take off the clothes
& I guess Cathy takes them back. She
asks me if I’m done & I say yes, then she says straightforwardly,
“Then I am
leaving.”
It was
nothing bad, just time to leave.
*** This is
simply when our prayer time each day is over, it’s a quick goodbye – speak to
you tomorrow. ***
This one came out very good as usual, Rasa.
ReplyDeleteVery interesting, keep up the great work!
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