There was something about a Church/religion that was
strange, I was sort of part of it but can’t recall what happened.
Next
I’m in a big place like a huge dept store or some kind of mall that has a
couple floors, when I see my Mom shopping.
She
comes up to the counter & presents her list of things to purchase by credit
card. The mgt. is looking. Then someone ‘higher up’ like electronically
looks at my credit card info, my paper with its list or something, & seeing
this, takes some sort of pencil & scratches it across my Mom’s entire list
– back & forth – I see the grey lead, & then she HAS NO CREDIT &
cannot get any of her items.
I
guess I feel sorry for her & I tell the clerk,
“Put
her items on my credit card – I will pay for them.”
To
justify my action I think,
“It’s
been a few years since I’ve given her a Christmas present so this is OK.”
Then
I slightly worry, thinking,
“I
hope I have enough money in this account – I think I do.”
……………………………………………………
MEANING: This dream is about my offering to pay for
the sins of my Mom when she was dying.
This is a review & confirmation that she had no credit in the ‘bank
account with God’ or in other words, she had no grace by which she could be
saved.
My
offer to pay for her sins, this explains, got her out of that fix--she was
saved by it. She had a deathbed
repentance I was told later…………………….
I
had this dream because this day I began to channel Mom. Usually, in all these many years, I have
never wanted to be in touch with her, speak with her or have any type of
contact. Even in Purgatory when I was
helping her it was repulsive to be around her—she was vile.
Since
she died in 1979, it’s been a long time to mostly ignore her & for me to
now, in 2020, decide to speak to her is an unusual thing. However, it’s been extremely helpful as now
that I opened my mind & made a ‘portal’ to her I have found out things I
never knew before – not just about her but all my relatives & others– about
people like her; ‘psychopaths’, people like the lukewarm, crawling worms common
within my family & elsewhere, {people who never do anything out of their
way to save or help anyone.}
Through
my mother’s ‘mouth’ so to speak – {the communication is all mental, however,} I
heard her use terms as never before, explain the role of each member of my
family, why they deserted me, the secret of why she could manipulate Dad – the
character, personality of each family member & treatment of me, what her
status is in Heaven, many other unusual facts.
She
called herself a MONSTER – something I never expected, but of course, once you
are in Heaven you must speak the truth –
{even
in Hell souls appear to those praying for them, as in ‘Cry of a Lost Soul’ a
dead friend told Clara not to pray for her as it was useless – she said she was
compelled to appear & speak the truth although she didn’t want to, she
would drag Clara into Hell if she could.
Excerpt:
"Clara, do not
pray for me! I am in hell. If I tell you this and speak at length about it, do
not think it is because of our friendship. We here do not love anyone. I do
this as under constraint. In truth, I should like to see you to come to this
state where I must remain forever."
"Perhaps
that angers you, but here we all think that way. Our wills are hardened in evil
- in what you call evil. Even when we do something 'good', as I do now, opening
your eyes about hell, it is not because of a good intention."
On the other side, God is in command, there
are no lies, & so unexpectedly, as my Mom was a consummate liar on earth
& some of my relatives were & are, there are no more lies.}
As
this portal opened, for the first time in forty years, I heard unexpected,
revealing things which give me some closure on past events & even insights
on unrelated things.
I am
flabbergasted that I never wanted to speak to her in forty years – feeling,
believing, she was so dumb what could she possibly tell me? She was such a liar, what would she now
say? I had no idea it would be like
this. It’s difficult to write down her
messages, but I must. Coming soon: messages from an ex Monster, now in Heaven.
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