5-5-20-END IN CONCRETE FACES
Interpreted for a friend
The beginning is there’s a lot of turmoil in a
community group – there’s like a ‘big man leader’ off to the right, in the
middle a group of ‘boys’ or ‘young men.’
I am here in the middle, doing this & that, like on the
media, speaking. There’s a TV or radio
show. This man I didn’t think was
promoting me, I see his show in retrospect, & he did promote me, so much
later I thank him for it. There’s
something pitiful about this man, he has a good heart but he’s struggling or
something.
There’s this guy I love who is in front in a sort of
restaurant area with small booths—he has the young guys all around him, he’s
one of them.
One day after a while he’s in a booth, & he & I
have been through a lot, & I think it’s time for me to SIT DOWN & TALK
TO HIM. I think he’s READY. So I go sit down in the little booth across
from him ready for a good important CHAT.
*(CHAT IN BOOTH:
This is when Frank was running like a kid with all the guys – totally
immature – while we were dating & I wanted to pin him down to a
relationship.
IN A BOOTH: This is
like being ‘fenced in’, a limited space, closed in to some degree, a symbol for
a RELATIONSHIP.)*
He FLIES OFF like a wild animal, totally scared or spooked
out, with all the boys around him flying with him. They’re all dependent on each other – like a
HERD, & where one goes, they all go.
They can’t be or think independently, all dependent on the herd.
*(FLIES OFF LIKE WILD ANIMAL WITH Herd
mentality is powerful.)*
Later I hide behind a staircase where he will re-emerge, I
hope to ambush him to see what is he doing & have a discussion.
*(BEHIND A STAIRCASE, AMBUSH: Long wait for him to come down from his ‘Ivory
Tower’ {implied, he is high up, I could say Ivory Tower although it is not
shown} but it doesn’t happen for years.
IVORY TOWER: a place
or situation remote from worldly or practical affairs -- an attitude of
aloofness from or disdain or disregard for worldly or practical affairs.
AMBUSH, HIDE BEHIND STAIRS TO CHECK ON HIM: Me leaving him, hiding from him, but still
interested. Still, the relationship
doesn’t happen, it doesn’t work.)*
Somehow
this should work but it doesn’t.
Years go by. During
that time of turmoil, this guy was with a female who he said was chasing him
that he wanted to avoid—he acted like he didn’t like or love her, like she
wasn’t important to him.
*(FEMALE NOT IMPORTANT TO HIM CHASING HIM: This is me – he wanted to give people the
impression he wasn’t interested in me, that it was only I interested in him –
but of course that was only the outside impression, he was equally interested
in me, he just didn’t want a commitment—a marriage. He wanted to remain a child.
YEARS
GO BY: Years have gone by & I don’t
know how much more time remains before our relationship starts.)*
Now I see him unexpectedly & I see her face to the left
back of me & his face to the right front of me by the corner of is it a
brick building? It seems like five or
more years after the fiasco.
Their faces are like none I have ever seen before. Each one is encased in cement – their faces
come out of the cement, made of cement, surrounded by a rectangle square
horizontally, with decorations of sorts around their faces. It’s mostly grey but there are bits &
pieces of color here & there.
*(FACES ENCASED IN HORIZONTALLY RECTANGULAR CEMENT: It is ‘set in stone’ that we get back
together.
CORNER BRICK BUILDING: Solid brick –
also represents the relationship, as we are there. We were ‘crucified’ {the corner} but it
stands strong.
‘Sense-image material’ is yesterday I saw a homestead
family in the middle of a beautiful dry wilderness. A teenage boy in the family wanted pizza
& he & an older brother decide to create a PIZZA OVEN {outside} – which
they do with rocks & CEMENT—the boy exclaims the cement looks like
dough. They build the oven, the boy
kneads the dough, covers it with tomato sauce & shredded cheese, they cook
it & the whole family eats it. I was
impressed by the ingenuity.
Here
the cement that glued together the oven is seen as being mortar / glue to
create a relationship – the boy who ran from me like a wild animal with his
herd, to the boy who is now united to me in a rock solid relationship.
HORIZONTAL: This is to show me that this is of the earth,
not merely spiritual, as we have the spiritual marriage already as of 2019. )*
To me it’s totally disappointing that he ended up with her
– this cement like says ‘made in stone’ even though they did not get along, he
was running from her, but here they are – the same two, so PREDICTABLE – them
being together. I find their pairing up
to be just so prosaic, so ordinary, all the problems & disclaimers to the
contrary – they started out together having problems but ended up together as
an ordinary couple, a predictable pairing.
*(ORDINARY, PROSAIC, PREDICTABLE: Why these words to something I suffered so
much for, prayed so hard for & desired totally? I ask of Mother God:
She: Because you are
so over it, having been through all that.
Your emotions have been spent, drained, your mind plateau-d out, you’ve
been through so much you simply cannot take any more.
It could be the emotionally desired now becomes the commonplace
& ordinary, & could be ‘taken
for granted’ – which would be a sigh of relief from all the previous pain.
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